this is the way you left me

im not pretending

no hope no love no glory

no happy ending

this is the way that we love

like its forever

and live the rest of our lives

but not together

blablabla. this song is so sad. but its such a pretty tune. tho the words dont really relate to my life in anyway, its my current fav.EHEH.

sigh. weekend's ending. back to school and all.but hey its not too bad... =)

seems like a miserable year... maybe its my mood swing. and all the changes..

i'll make it lovely n exciting just wait and see.

sigh. somehow i still feel i prefer last year. maybe its the stress. maybe its the not going to ocf. complaining wont bring me anywhere........... bleah

so many thoughts but i dont know where to start so i wont bother trying. gonna watch 'ROCK SCHOOL'

say hello to my awesome 14 years friend qinyi lim. she is very nice to nice people like me. HAHA. she gave me bak kwa when she used to work in bak kwa shop and she always sends me off when i go back to perth together with some 1724 champs and my family. we were in the same pri school and were classmates in P5 P6 and were in the same 3rd lang class in sec sch. on that note, i really dont remember much bout 3rd lang other than the rapidly shrinking class size as the year progressed. oh wells. HELLO QINYI! hahaha im proud to have u as my super AWESOME x10000000000 14 yrs friend! x)

and the long awaited long weekend is here again but it wont be that long.
just when i got really excited over blogposting sites being unblocked, they blocked it again. quite annoying, but in a way it is to my advantage. keeps me distraction free!
so yes. had an awesome dinner in a 5 star hotel (yeah right) ahha we went to the supermarket to get some cooked food. green chicken curry beef rendang dahl potatoes. yumm.
being deprived of internet, geri n i had our eyes glued onto the screen for quite a while...
was free dress in school today n it's the most spectacular thing ever. since it was bookweek we had to dress up as a storybook character. the yr 12s were dressed in where's wally outfits. my link teacher was willy wonka and he really did look like willy wonka plus he was giving away chocos and lollies it just freaks me out. my english teacher was winnie the pooh! there were some alices in wonderland, pigs, cats, many harry potters.... cutest school day! unfortunately i forgot my camera. was rushing for band prac which didnt last really long cus of poor turnout but anyhows...
had interhouse dance on wednesday night. its my 2nd and last interhouse dance! devo... had good fun n meaghan did a fantastic job with all the choreographies as the dance captain.
only a few weeks till mocks. this thought sends shivers down my spine but never enough to smack my bum and get me going all motivated. right now im just tired out. soon band will stop. big band will stop. choirs will stop. dance has stopped. so i guess i'll well be in the mood. hopefully. if only they could turn off the tap of work to do... rah.
im excited because i can finally attend OCF after a million years! yay.

first you're loved, then you're missed, then you're forgotten. poof. just like how chocolate becomes coco crunch. but oh wells. coco crunch is good. just full of emptiness. feels too long since i've had a good talk with a close friend that i start to wonder whether i still have one. like a boat drifting away from the fleet. aimless? dragged? for the better? for the worse? does anyone care? other boats just carry on their journey sailing, sailing. who cares?

sometimes the smallest thing someone does/doesnt do annoys me, hurts me, disturbs me, put doubts in me, but who am i to judge? how do things get better if i continue being so selfish and self centred the whole time? uhoo! wake up call.

what i've been up to this week. nerding. nerding. extra nerding
something i miss. tauhui. and my friend: kristi in the tauhui bowl. that's why she's good friends with me. i hav my magic lamp or bottle while she has her tauhui bowl.
sometimes being noisy is not that bad i guess... xD
the butterfly and the flower. how cute. how cute.
keith's farewell lunch with the BS group which i havent had BS with for 72million years

comparing the lengths of our tongue.. ya i win.
trinnie,jeannie,corinnie hehe i look so angelic standing between the black dresses
toilets are the best inventions. u can rest like nikita (sitting down under hannah banana's arm), wash hands like hannahbanana, scratch your forehead like geri (haha ok la do your hair), or what everyone normally does.. TAKE PHOTOS! TAKE TAKE
or you can scratch your mouth like geri, kiss the air like nikita, or belt out your favourite opera in your most opera-est stance.
on the way back from the rivercruise CAPTAIN COOK

the busiest week of my whole entire month is over! WEE-OOOH!

imagine this..

monday: math test before school, drum lesson during school, cantate(choir) after school

tuesday: voice lesson before school, dance after school, band after dance

wed: the only free day! STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!! why? 2 tests the next day and oral presentation the day after!

thurs:big band before school, music test, physical science test, chorale(choir) after school

friday: dance before school, oral presentation, boarders' ball

oh my goodness. at the beginning i was so stressed. i thought i was going to die (no, not literally)

but i felt like just pushing everything aside and go: OK! I GIVE UP!

but then after much prayer, i knew i just had to do my best and let God do the rest!

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you."

Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

although quite overused that sometimes i get numb to the message their trying to present to me, these 2 verses kept me going, knowing that MY GOD IS SO GREAT, SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY, THERES NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO! FOR YOU! i was again reminded that life is so full of challenges. if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it! =D so yes, everyone, I SURVIVED! oleh oleh oleh!

its quite shocking honestly, studying so much is really no good for your social life. whenever i had free time, i would be studying for my science test or music test or rushing on my english oral, isolating myself in the dear little library, or my room, or one corner of the band rehearsal room. whenever someone enters me room, guess what i will be doing? surprise surprise! working or studying! and so i have no time to entertain them and they leave after a few brief seconds since i've got my nose stuck in my work.

boarders ball last night wasnt as fun as last year's. i think the best so far was the MLC international students' social. i knew and like most of the songs. last night... i think u can actually count the songs that i know with one hand. haha. but still, it wasnt too bad. i always enjoyed the getting ready bit the most anyway. i like helping people do their makeup whether they like it or not, doing their hair.. haah makes me feel like some professional i dunno what.

so yes. this wednesday im watching the school production: GREASE lightning!

the wednesday after, i've got the dreaded Senior Recital Night and many more things that follow.

6 weeks more to mocks. time really flies. its scary...

before i know it, TEE will be here!

3 more weeks to mid term break! oleh oleh oleh!

although its just a long weekend... I HAVENT BEEN OUT OF THE BOARDING HOUSE (overnight) for ages! ok just 2 weeks but still! and GUESS WHAT! i will be able to go to OCF then! YAY YAY YAY!