omg. this is the ultimate ultimate patience tester.
JESUS WINS JESUS WINS JESUS WINS JESUS WINS

Philippians 4:4-9 (New International Version, ©2010)

Final Exhortations

 ⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  ⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. ⁹ Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

From lady thotho:

Psalm 57

    For the director of music. To the tune of “Do Not Destroy.” Of David. A miktam.^[b] When he had fled from Saul into the cave. ¹ Have mercy on me, my God, have mercy on me,
   for in you I take refuge.
I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings
   until the disaster has passed.
 ² I cry out to God Most High,
   to God, who vindicates me.
³ He sends from heaven and saves me,
   rebuking those who hotly pursue me—^[c]
   God sends forth his love and his faithfulness.
 ⁴ I am in the midst of lions;
   I am forced to dwell among ravenous beasts—
men whose teeth are spears and arrows,
   whose tongues are sharp swords.
 ⁵ Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
   let your glory be over all the earth.
 ⁶ They spread a net for my feet—
   I was bowed down in distress.
They dug a pit in my path—
   but they have fallen into it themselves.
 ⁷ My heart, O God, is steadfast,
   my heart is steadfast;
   I will sing and make music.
⁸ Awake, my soul!
   Awake, harp and lyre!
   I will awaken the dawn.
 ⁹ I will praise you, Lord, among the nations;
   I will sing of you among the peoples.
¹⁰ For great is your love, reaching to the heavens;
   your faithfulness reaches to the skies.
 ¹¹ Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
   let your glory be over all the earth.







From WANNI:

Psalm 5:3 (New International Version, ©2010)

 ³ In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice;
   in the morning I lay my requests before you
   and wait expectantly.

home is always good (:
supernatural sighting! more than one star in sengkang sky last night! reminded me of the stars i see in perth :D
loving the weather too. rain is nice :D

watched Narnia yesterday afternoon and i loved it! It made so many links to life with Jesus. The temptations from ourselves and the devil which pull us away from the kingdom of God - vanity, greed, hunger for power, jealousness,selfishness, fear. The love of Jesus, appearing before some people to comfort and encourage them. God listening to prayers, the kingdom of heaven, sanctification, and how each of us are given different gifts so that we can work together as one body to serve His kingdom.

apart from that, great scenes and effects!!
k gtg bye!

withdrawal symptoms of agm+convy+roadtrip = facebook.

sore throat healed in 24 hours after 5 strepsils and water water water water + prayers.

more to post, but im catching a flight tonight! byebye technologyyyyyyy

hmm. red flag.

holding bitterness and grudges is like holding your pee.
over time it collects, and you can't control it's release... and then you wet your pants

moral of the story, don't hold your pee.
easier said then done..........
i foresee myself being a social recluse woooweeee

dear devil,
JESUS WILL BEAT YOU HANDS DOWN ANYTIME
love, me.

 

Hold Us Together (by Matt Maher)

VERSE ONE:
It don't have a job
Don't pay your bills
Won't buy you a home
In Beverly Hills

VERSE TWO:
Won't fix your life
In five easy steps
Ain't the law of the land
Or the government

PRE CHORUS:
But it's all you need..

CHORUS:
Love, will, hold us together
Make us a shelter
to weather the storm

And I'll, be, my brothers keeper
So the whole world will know
That we're not alone

VERSE THREE:
It's waiting for you
Knockin' at your door!
Every moment of truth
When your heart hits the floor

PRE CHORUS TWO:
When you're on your knees then...

CHORUS:
Love, will, hold us together
Make us a shelter
to weather the storm

And I'll, be, my brothers keeper
So the whole world will know
That we're not alone

BRIDGE:
This is the first, day of the rest of your life
This is the first, day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, s'gonna be alright 

1 Corinthians 13

 ¹ If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ² If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. ³ If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
 ⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
 ⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹ For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰ but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. ¹¹ When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. ¹² For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
 ¹³ And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

when violent examination winds blow your way, assignment lightning strikes your path, lack of sleep, and busyness of life attempts to choke and suffocate you...

my prayer is that everywhere you turn, you'll be reminded that you're not alone.. someone out there ordered some clouds to line the skies to make it look pretty and keep us cool from the heat of day

someone out there took the time to design pretty flowers out of soft, silky and velvety materials and knowing they don't last long, taught them to multiply themselves with the help of Mr Sun and Miss Rain!

when the someone out there sees that we're far too engrossed with our lives, noses in books, a non stop itunes playlist on the go, phone calls and text messages, he told Mrs Breeze to do her thang, so that flowers come floating down or plopping themselves around you like popcorn, to catch your attention...

 and added ladybugs to some of them, just for good luck!

STOP!

Spare a moment. Have a seat.

 breathe in the beauty that surrounds you and be mesmerised by the love someone out there has showered upon you day after day. spare a moment to appreciate... and give thanks!

BECAUSE IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY!
FOR US TO ROLL DOWN THE HILL AND PLAY!
HIPHIPHURRAY!
COME QUICKLY MY HOLIDAY!

LOVE
PATIENCE
UNDERSTANDING
CONTROL
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

deepeekurt D:

ever felt USED before? the fact that you have made yourself available to the beck and calls of others has been taken for granted. when each time you get a phone call or text from someone, you'll be expecting a favour to be requested by that person despite their efforts to coat their request with "how have you been?", "we need to catch up!", "let's have lunch!" and whatever else.. you know so clearly that their main reason is because they want something from you and you start to wonder if there's anyone out there who would really care.. if you'd still have friends if you didn't have a car to offer people lifts, or didn't say yes to people's requests.. what was your response to the situation? continue to be a doormat for others to walk over? or withdraw yourself from those people? i struggle with that thought once in a while, seeing that the word "no" doesn't seem to exist in my world.. it could be the work of the devil, it could be just me being oversensitive, or it could be because it was pointed out to me one day that i was being used and it made me extra aware of situations as such. but needless to say it hurt, especially when it came from people close to me..and might have been the cause of all bitterness and self-pity and withdrawal from people..

so i asked God what He thought about it. i am still trying to listen.. but i tried to think from God's perspective...and i think He would have had broken record for the number of times He'd been "used". Being our loving Father, He who faithfully causes babies, plants and animals to grow and the sun to shine has shown us in so many ways of His presence.

Romans 1:19-20 
..since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities-his eternal power and divine nature- have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

in response to His effort to reach out to mankind...these are some of the responses we give back

Romans 1:21-23, 25, 29-32
For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools, and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles....they exchanged the truth of God for a lie and worshipped and served created things rather than the Creator-who is forever praised....They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.

HEARTBREAK!!!!!!

im currently reading a book called Turn, by Max Lucado.. and it mentioned a statement that rings so true not just in our current generation, but also WAYYYYYY BACKKK in the times of the israelites...

"a vocal portion of the populace stares at the strand of faith upon which this country hangs and asks: why is that there?" 

when we are in our greatest need and desperation, we cry out in helplessness for God's mercy and saving grace, He carries us through faithfully, we are grateful and praise Him.. life gets comfortable, we get rich and content.. and we forget God's faithfulness in our lives, pushing Him out of the picture. guess what, God doesn only experience it now, He's been experiencing it even in moses' (you know.. prince of egypt) time!
and moses said this as a warning..

Deuteronomy 8:11-14
Beware that in your plenty you do not forget the Lord your God and disobey his commands, regulations, and laws. For when you have become full and prosperous and have built fine homes to live in, and when your flocks and herds have become very large and your silver and gold have multiplied along with everything else, that is the time to be careful. Do not become proud at that time and forget the Lord your God.

 Man... how many generations (and we're counting in generations! not by number of people!) of being used by the people that He has created and loved, yesterday, today and forever..

even our relationship with God... is it one which sees us coming to Him in prayer each day, requesting for good results, good health, blessings for breakfast lunch dinner, safe journey while travelling, more money?
Are we treating him like a divine santa clause? are we USING GOD? we come to Him to ask for all sorts of favours, but are we sitting down to really know Him? His passion, what matters to Him, His desires etc etc? We speak to Him, but do we listen? are we being watchful for answered prayers?

Colossians 4:2

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful

 my point is... God never gives up. Generations of people calling out to Him but later on forgetting Him doesn't stop Him from loving us. unconditionally.

Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

having formed us and known us from when we were still in our mother's womb, God already knew our life plans and our every move. He probably would already have known our tendencies to fall away from Him or forget Him. But He chose to love us still. Not in order to get anything in return, but out of His perfect love for us.

Romans 5:7-9
Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!

and then I was reminded..

Luke 6:34-36

And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

 if Christ has said that about how we should treat our ENEMIES, what more the friends that we love? And what is my purpose of being generous to my friends? Is is because I want to be acknowledged for what I've done and make a name for myself? or is it because of love for God and love for His people?

John 13:34-35

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

Romans 13:8

Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for whoever loves others has fulfilled the law.

1 John 4:9

We love because he first loved us

1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

say hi to the queen of awkwardness and making life difficult for people

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

the LORD God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.

Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the LORD God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the LORD God among the trees of the garden. But the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?" 

Then the LORD God said to the woman, "What is this you have done?" The woman said, "The serpent deceived me, and I ate."

remember the first sin that entered the world? it wasn't murder, it wasn't theft, it wasn't drug abuse or sexual immorality. adam and eve ate from the tree of knowledge of good and evil when they were told by God not to do so. EATING IS A SIN?!?!? come on... it's no big deal.. they only ATE A FRUIT!! no harm done! let's look at the consequences of their 'sin'.. 

So the LORD God said to the serpent, "Because you have done this,
       "Cursed are you above all the livestock
       and all the wild animals!
       You will crawl on your belly
       and you will eat dust
       all the days of your life.
And I will put enmity
       between you and the woman,
       and between your offspring and hers;
       he will crush your head,
       and you will strike his heel."
To the woman he said,
       "I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing;
       with pain you will give birth to children.
       Your desire will be for your husband,
       and he will rule over you."
To Adam he said, "Because you listened to your wife and ate from the tree about which I commanded you, 'You must not eat of it,'
       "Cursed is the ground because of you;
       through painful toil you will eat of it
       all the days of your life.
It will produce thorns and thistles for you,
       and you will eat the plants of the field.
By the sweat of your brow
       you will eat your food
       until you return to the ground,
       since from it you were taken;
       for dust you are
       and to dust you will return."

And the LORD God said, "The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever." So the LORD God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.

all these because of a bite from a fruit? am i missing something here? yes.. ! im missing the main point! which is plain disobedience to God.  while sin has evolved into all shapes and sizes - stealing, lying, killing, evil thoughts, lustful thoughts, betraying etc. etc., so have our perception of sin. we think that sin is causing harm to another person.. but God calls us to obey. that's His standard, that's where He draws the line. that's how He defines sin, and that's where all of us have failed so terribly. i think of my intentions to cause harm, my lies, my rudeness, lazyness, piracy to "save money" (in actual fact, it's just reluctance to spend when there's the free illegal way out), half heartedness, worrying etc.  and am confident that i have definitely missed God's mark. i'm pretty sure i also ate many times when told not to.. 

so if the consequences of eating a fruit is so big... what more, a murder? but God's mathematics is different from ours. any act of disobedience breaks His heart the same way. like markings on a piece of paper, whether it's just one small teeny weeny mark, or a line, or many small marks, or a fully scribbled on page, it is not a pure white page. the consequences are no different for all those pieces of paper. we lose our relationship with God and eternal life with Him... because we are not pure white pages, we have missed God's perfect standard. we are SINNERS and in Romans 6:23 it says that the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. we sin, we disobey, but GOD STILL GIVES GIFTS?!?! IS HE GENEROUS OR WHATT!!! look what He did after Adam and Eve sinned against him:

The LORD God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife and clothed them.
back to my point on God's generosity and gifts... do you know that Jesus bore the consequences of our sins?!! He=GOD=sin-free=pure white piece of paper, receiving the punishment for the lies we told, the people that we have cursed...our messy marred paper was covered by his pure white paper in the eyes of God. our sins forgiven, our relationship with God restored, eternal life..

it's a gift. but in order to get a gift, one has to receive and accept the gift.. 
and the choice is yours (:

if i had a personality disorder, it would be borderline personality disorder, aka emotionally unstable disorder.. but after reading it...don't you just call this life? plus PMS??

geri and i chose this song for our pretend wedding when we were kids.. wishing & hoping
. teeheehee. i say a little prayer for you was playing on the radio while i was driving home. ah. oldiess ((:

and so after the longest time, it dawned on me that geri and sean aren't gonna be here for much longer either ):

it will be a lifechanging time of my life. hahaha. ): i don't really know how to express my feelings.. but i suppose i need to apologise for being a pain in the butt.. especially when i become lazy and dont do the dishes/cook/clean the house, make too much noise on the piano/guitar, for being bitter and emphasizing what a good job i perform as a lamp post..for being grumpy at dinnertimes.. i hope i havent made life too difficult for you two hehehe. but it has been such a great time and i regret not cherishing that much the times we have had tgt until i realise that it's almost finishing.. THANK GOD WE ARE FAMILY AND RELATED HEHEHE cousin and FCIL WOOOWEEEWOOWEEWOOO CNY!!!
God bless you (: MANY HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS!

IS "NO" LIKE A TABOO WORD IN YOUR DICTIONARY THAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO SAY "YES" TO EVERYTHING!?!?!?! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

http://theresurgence.com/

We have a theology of work but no theology of leisure. We don’t know how to relax and totally disengage; feeling guilty when we do so. We live our lives without margin and fill each day with little room for Sabbath or divine interruptions.
In a recent article in the NY Times, Paul Vitello addresses an issue that is well known: pastor burnout. There is no disagreement as to the problem, but varying ideas on the solution. Paul Vitello’s main solution is taking more vacation time; and certainly all the time we have coming to us.
Time off would undoubtedly help, but there are deeper issues involved:

We have put ministry and service where Jesus belongs.

We get our identity and value in what we accomplish in our work (the number of people we serve, the number of things we are responsible for, the number of things we get done) and not from who we are in Jesus. This is a huge and significant issue that no amount of vacation is going to solve. Longevity and health in ministry will be a result of who you are in Jesus, more than what you do for Jesus. 1 John 5:21 warns us about idols. Ministry can and has become an idol for a lot of us

We see Sabbath as a day or time frame rather than a heart attitude.

We need to practice Sabbath by intentionally engaging and intentionally disengaging through the Holy Spirit’s promptings.

Resting Isn’t Selfish

In Leaders Who Last, I devote a chapter, titled "Pacing," to these issues. Here is a statement from a local newspaper in the chapter:

In the relentless busyness of modern life, we have lost the rhythm between action and rest. There is a universal refrain: I am so busy. As it all piles endlessly upon itself, the whole experience of being alive begins to melt into one enormous obligation. Sabbath time is a revolutionary challenge to the violence of overwork. Many of us, in our desperate drive to be successful and care for our many responsibilities, feel terrible guilt when we take time to rest.

4 Ways to Keep From Burning Out

What is the solution to exhausted and burned-out pastors as well as other leaders giving lots of time to ministry?

1. Confess making an idol of work and find your identity and worth in Jesus and him alone
2. Practice Sabbath on a daily basis, taking short breaks as needed. Don’t kill yourself at work day after day and then pray for a vacation to save you
3. Learn how to say no to some of the needs, demands, and people that come to your attention. You can be concerned without being responsible. Say no to a lot of things so you can say yes to a few things. Say yes to less!
4. Develop other leaders to carry the burden with you (Numbers 11:17).
   
   

Most people in ministry try to do too much and travel too fast. Believe it or not, you are dispensable. Only Jesus is indispensable.

for the first time in a long time, MY DESK LOOKS PRETTY DECENT AND NEAT AND DUST FREE AND CLUTTER FREE! bet no one's as excited as me to start on my assignment now. muahahahaha.

was doing my random round of phantom bloghopping again and saw someone say something on the blog and it was something that was in my prayers and ocf's too and and and AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!
what can i say?
Jesus is too wonderful that He makes me speechless and in awe.
an encouragement to you if you happen to be reading this, God IS listening to your prayers. He is faithful, unchanging, unfailing, and very much ALIVE, greater than we can imagine, yet never fails to be concerned about us little ones.
Each child is special and precious in His sight, despite our imperfections, meanness, cruelness, selfishness, our attempts to push Him out of our lives, His love overcomes all.(Romans 8:38-39   ³⁸For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.) and He welcomes us into His loving arms again, like the prodigal son returning to his loving father.. (: God does not give up!

(: (: (:

John 17

Jesus Prays for All Believers

 ²⁰"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, ²¹that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. ²²I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: ²³I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. ²⁴"Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world. ²⁵"Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. ²⁶I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."

heeheeheeheeheeheeheee

woohooooo *JUMPS FOR JOY*

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am yours..
I am yours..

“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

- Jeremiah 29:11

tell me tell meeeee!!

i stand firm in the belief that there is no such thing as "i can't live without you".
"You" (as in God), yes. But humans, no. But it's still so painful when people leave ): JeanYi's only leaving around feb next year and im already sadded!!!! I've truly been blessed with the most amazing people in my life and spent a long time reminiscing as I looked through facebook photos.. If only my memory could afford all these space!

with a closer friendship comes high expectations
with high expectations comes high chances of disappointments
with disappointment comes unforgiveness
unforgiveness brings the lack of love

geez, im one hard person to please... but God, we won't give the devil a foothold!! NEVER.. EVER!!!!!!

firefighter?

I have a maker


He formed my heart

Before even time began

My life was in his hand



Chorus

He knows my name

He knows my every thought

He sees each tear that falls

And hears me when I call



I have a Father

He calls me his own

He'll never leave me

No matter where I go



Chorus

He knows my name

He knows my every thought

He sees each tear that falls

And hears me when I call

10 steps to manage irritation, stress and anger and everything in between or around or across or over and under

1. scream
2. pull hair
3. throw a fit
4. collapse
5. roll on the ground
6. roll  on the ground somemore
7. knock head against the wall
8. scream somemore
9. pull out more hair

10. get back to business

hey sissy cant wait for you to come :D

When I survey the wondrous cross
on which the Prince of Glory died;
my richest gain I count but loss,
and pour contempt on all my pride.

Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast,
save in the death of Christ, my God;
all the vain things that charm me most,
I sacrifice them to his blood.

See, from his head, his hands, his feet,
sorrow and love flow mingled down.
Did e'er such love and sorrow meet,
or thorns compose so rich a crown.

Were the whole realm of nature mine,
that were an offering far too small;
love so amazing, so divine,
demands my soul, my life, my all.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

without the rain, there would be no rainbows

SO CHEESY.. BUT I LIKE

the sound of rain has a nice calming effect... even when i already am calm and cool as a cucumber

ah.. nice. (:

but God has surely listened

and heard my voice in prayer.
Praise be to God,

who has not rejected my prayer

or withheld his love from me!

psalm 66:19-20

God's been reminding me about lots of things this week. very simple things that i tend to think I understand but He reveals that there's more to it!

Lesson #1- my God is so BIG, so strong and so mighty, there's nothing my God cannot do, FOR YOU!

Lesson #2- Jesus loves me this I know, for the bible tells me so

Lesson #3- Do your best, leave it all on the field and leave the results to God

ahh.. past bedtime!

"if i can't see you, you can't find me"

stop. turn around.

your courage has yet to be found.

things that make you laugh are good things

packing and cleaning and going through old stuff is making me feel so nostalgic

im in such a reminiscing mood in an awkward hour early in the morning that i dont know what to do and how to respond but to come onto blogger.com to type this random post -.-

old friendships i miss and cherish... good ol' days.. young and silly

i think i have a long list of people i wish i could talk to right now

oh my lovely friends and familyyyyyyyyyy..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhh

i've been very blessed by every single one of you!

May God bless you and keep you!

discipleship with glenna again! FINALLY :D

now we're sure we will be regular with our meet ups because IT'S ALL WRITTEN DOWN :D

The Spiritually Vigorous Saint
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. . . that I may know Him . . . —Philippians 3:10
A saint is not to take the initiative toward self-realization, but toward knowing Jesus Christ. A spiritually vigorous saint never believes that his circumstances simply happen at random, nor does he ever think of his life as being divided into the secular and the sacred. He sees every situation in which he finds himself as the means of obtaining a greater knowledge of Jesus Christ, and he has an attitude of unrestrained abandon and total surrender about him. The Holy Spirit is determined that we will have the realization of Jesus Christ in every area of our lives, and He will bring us back to the same point over and over again until we do. Self-realization only leads to the glorification of good works, whereas a saint of God glorifies Jesus Christ through his good works. Whatever we may be doing— even eating, drinking, or washing disciples’ feet— we have to take the initiative of realizing and recognizing Jesus Christ in it. Every phase of our life has its counterpart in the life of Jesus. Our Lord realized His relationship to the Father even in the most menial task. “Jesus, knowing . . . that He had come from God and was going to God, . . . took a towel . . . and began to wash the disciples’ feet . . .” ( John 13:3-5 ).
The aim of a spiritually vigorous saint is “that I may know Him . . .” Do I know Him where I am today? If not, I am failing Him. I am not here for self-realization, but to know Jesus Christ. In Christian work our initiative and motivation are too often simply the result of realizing that there is work to be done and that we must do it. Yet that is never the attitude of a spiritually vigorous saint. His aim is to achieve the realization of Jesus Christ in every set of circumstances.

GOAL: to know the bible :D

y so critical and judgemental?
y so insensitive and refusing to understand?
why do you only see the speck of dust in your friend's eye, yet ignore that plank of wood in yours?
y do you think you are any better?
aren't we all just sinners, saved by grace?

if only there was a restart button. but even if there was, i don't know if any other ways would make better decisions. or an escape button to ignore what people say and pretend nothing's wrong. it's not even my problem but i make it out to be. do i even need to worry?


bu zhi dao bu zhi dao bu zhi dao
D:

was thinking of going to uwa reid library to catch some study vibe tomorrow after josh ang's farewell bbq, then i realised they are holidaying already D: oh mannn.. i want to holiday too!!!

it is coming sooooon :D this time next week i will be grinning from ear to ear packing my luggage to sydney, canberra and melby! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH finally catch up with some busy people that i love!! "if we cant do it in western australia, we ketchup in another state!" meowmeow hambaobao kristi gohbiaomei and FutureCousinInLaw! so exciting :D

past week was spent camped at the library with OCF study buddies. takes commitment to wake up early every morning to chop room i tell you.. thank God for those friends!

so weird to blog nowadays... because there's so much i can say but they don't exactly matter. hahaha.

family returns to perth tomorrow evening-hip hurray! could do with some noise and *poot*pause*hello!* moments :D

thank God for 6.30am brekkie with XL! mee goreng from HAIBRO *flexes muscle*! butter cake from hair and butter cake and pandan cake and eggtart and etc etc cake buddy! starburst and entertainment from polarbear! laughter and tea from cecilia jiejie! oh man too much.. God is so generous....

this is an opportunity to love. don't be mean and speak before you think! patience, patience, humility, love and gentleness!!!!!!!!!

God our loving Father sends His love in various forms

- in my lovely family who whisper "i love you"s over the phone when I'm the one in the library

- in my lovely study buddies/schoolmates

- in my lovely friends who scribble on my wall (fb.)/send fb messages/text messages

- in providing us with a study room 6 times the size of the stuffy library room we were in a few minutes before

- in the form of boxes of free dinner from a church we dont even attend

- in the knowledge that we can speak to Him anytime, anywhere

- in knowing that we dwell in His presence and can seek Him for strength

- in having the privilege to intercede in prayer with people and for people

- in the super quiet room that i've recently discovered where i'm learning to listen to Him

Hebrews 11:6

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

http://au.news.yahoo.com/thewest/a/-/world/7332299/blinded-mountaineer-left-to-die-on-everest/

i just read the news of a mountaineer who was blinded and left to die 250m from summit of Mt Everest...

It took four hours for the fellow climbers and sherpas to help the stricken mountaineer down to Mushroom Rock at an alitutde of 8600 metres, but they never managed to clear him of the 8000-metre "death zone".
Mr Kinloch is the 30th climber to die on the mountain in the past five years. He lies now with the many bodies now scattered on the upper slopes.
It is not uncommon for climbers to perish in the "death zone" on Everest, and more than 200 of the 4000 people that have made the summit have died in the attempt.
Mr Kinloch’s father, Peter Senior, told the Daily Mail: "We can take comfort in that he achieved one of his lifetime's ambitions.“How many people can say they stood on top of the world?"

it MAY be comforting to some that Mr Kinloch did reach the summit of Mt Everest- something that many people have not done. but why is it that we value so much being the FIRST or the ONLY or ONE OF THE FEW to have done something which many others haven't? i mean... if it is going to cost you your life....why choose to die doing that.. of all things? i suppose he didn't expect to die.. obviously....

it broke my heart though, when i realised how many of us are blinded by our desires to achieve, to succeed and to earn ourselves a name, to gain glory.. and have somehow missed the main point of the purpose we were created for. Is it worth it to have much passion about something, and put all your heart and soul into perfecting that skill to gain a crown that does not last?

Have you ever wondered why we're here?

Hohum.

On a brighter note, guess who's here! ((:

the loveliest people in the world!!!!!

Thank You God for

a mummy who wakes up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for me

a daddy who stays up till late trying to fix my computer for me

a sissy who cleans the house and does some laundry

:D

feels like a piece of singapore in perth. havent had my home so lively in a while!

Psalm 25:4-6

Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Saviour, and my hope is in you all day long. Remember, O Lord, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old.

owh pain. i shall faint.

breathe...............

don't know why but someone seems cold today ): maybe i think too much.

anyway, DID YOU FEEL THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLE TODAY :D
it was Global Day of Prayer on sunday and I think the angels' prayer baskets are overflowing right now! (:

God says do not worry!

there's so much more i could do... Lord, open my eyes to your plans and opportune moments! Teach me to be sensitive.

geez man.. ONE YEAR?
it sounded fine to me in the beginning. but its the second week now and im starting to feel a bit "tak boleh tahan"

patience is a virtue jeannie, they are gifts.

yay for an exciting life
GOD HELP ME LOVE AND BE PATIENT

interesting how i never fail to end up in this situation.. its like a fact.. predictable.. quite tragic. even more so now that i've decided to visit blogger.com OF ALL TIMES.....

whats ur problem jeannieloi...!!

i officially have.. 14 hours to..:

12.30am -read 5 journal articles

3.00am -fill in 5 review forms

5.00am -write 400 x 5 words worth of annotated bibliography

8.00am -write a 1 page professional looking piece of proposal to tell my "boss" that Snoezelen is a waste of money.

12.30pm -check font and font size, print assignment, print coversheet and marking rubric, manila envelope it

1.00pm -run to car, drive to school and pray for parking, park, run to ot school, scan, DROP IT IN THE BOX!!

even more exciting news, daddy arrived last night, mummy and porridge brother coming on the 28th! :D (daddy vaguely resembles a watermelon here. the colour of his shirt.. and i don't know why both my parents put their hands on my right shoulder like it's gna fall or something.. interesting..)

being a student is an occupational hazard to your mental and physical health.. I LOVE ASSIGNMENTS! YAY YAY YAY

Love...

is patient,

is kind..

1 cor 13:4a

Love..

must be sincere..

Romans 12:9

16This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 17If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? 18Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. 19This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence 20whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.

1 John 3

loving not with words or tongue but with actions and in truth is a challenge. talk is cheap. and its getting cheaper. Dear God, teach me how You love.

hello everyone, meet barnslig park, aka pandie, my panda-sausage-dog-frog looking bolster. he helps me sleep well. too well.

my utmost for His highest, 29 April 2010

Gracious Uncertainty

. . . it has not yet been revealed what we shall be . . . —1 John 3:2

Our natural inclination is to be so precise— trying always to forecast accurately what will happen next— that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We think that we must reach some predetermined goal, but that is not the nature of the spiritual life. The nature of the spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty. Consequently, we do not put down roots. Our common sense says, "Well, what if I were in that circumstance?" We cannot presume to see ourselves in any circumstance in which we have never been.

Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life— gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, not knowing what tomorrow may bring. This is generally expressed with a sigh of sadness, but it should be an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. As soon as we abandon ourselves to God and do the task He has placed closest to us, He begins to fill our lives with surprises. When we become simply a promoter or a defender of a particular belief, something within us dies. That is not believing God — it is only believing our belief about Him. Jesus said, ". . . unless you . . . become as little children . . ." (Matthew 18:3 ). The spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, just uncertain of what He is going to do next. If our certainty is only in our beliefs, we develop a sense of self-righteousness, become overly critical, and are limited by the view that our beliefs are complete and settled. But when we have the right relationship with God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy. Jesus said, ". . . believe also in Me" (John 14:1 ), not, "Believe certain things about Me". Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in— but you can be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him.

God knows best! (:

stuff stuff stuff stuff stuff after stuff. when people ask me how i am, its same ol' busy but good. but it is :D now i just need to take away distraction time and maybe learn to walk faster or just do things faster in general so i can save time there too. i... need.... more....hours.............

- book flights

- organise accommodation

- reply + write emails

- assignments

- tests

- exercise

- plan dg

- ketchup

- aaahh

the night before i turned twenty, the dining table was a warzone of books, my head was heavy, my laptop knew i was going crazy.

at midnight when i turned twenty, i had my mobile on my left ear listening to special delivery of indian music and chipmunks singing happy birthday, then siums and joel singing happy birthday. on my right ear, i hear my family singing and eating my awfully chocolate birthday cake all the way in singapore.

thank you for the texts and calls and hugs and fb msgs :D it's v heartwarming to receive email notifications in the wee hours of the night/morning while im chionging my assignments

God bless you all!! <3