something's wrong but i dont know what.
>:(

Phil 3:7-9


7But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.

Paul- a true disciple, dying to self but alive in Christ. his worry doesn't lie in being out of shape or not being able to gain favour from the people he meets, not about having the jackets and watches of his favourite brands, not about impressing girls or becoming rich, not about visiting his favourite holiday places. His mind is set on pleasing Christ and Christ alone, no matter how smooth sailing or rocky the journey turns out to be.

with regards to his ministry in Thessalonica: (1Thess 2)

2We had previously suffered and been insulted in Philippi, as you know, but with the help of our God we dared to tell you his gospel in spite of strong opposition. 3For the appeal we make does not spring from error or impure motives, nor are we trying to trick you. 4On the contrary, we speak as men approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts. 5You know we never used flattery, nor did we put on a mask to cover up greed—God is our witness. 6We were not looking for praise from men, not from you or anyone else.

as what people call "second generation Christians", there is a danger of thinking we are Christians just because we attend church every Sunday. do we really believe in Christ as our Saviour who died for our sins and reconciling us to God our Father? what does being a Christian mean?

Luke 9
23Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. 24For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. 25What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? 26If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels. 27I tell you the truth, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the kingdom of God."

Ephesians 5
1Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children 2and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

do we even know who Jesus Christ is?

are we even TRYING to know who He is?

or are we just treating Him as our "divine Santa Claus" whom we just go to request for whatever we want or need, whenever we want?

welcome to the first week of 2010. the todo list is already neverending but now's the time to get working! no more bumming around!

SELF: regular QT catch up with people muay thai classes? jogging swimming call mrs toh buy presents/make cards burn sermons to cd summarise discipleship 1-2-1

OCF: read up on alpha reflection from convy prepare for LC meet think of returnees officer contact list for predep seminars ocf guild rego form

CURTIN: return to good standing template register for classes

ISAIAH 9



6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, [b] Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
7 Of the increase of his government and peace there will be no end. He will reign on David's throne and over his kingdom, establishing and upholding it with justice and righteousness from that time on and forever. The zeal of the LORD Almighty will accomplish this.

it's been a pretty full on summer break ever since i landed in sunny/rainy singapore.. family time, meet ups, church, prayer buddy meetings, sisters day and then off to pj with michy hoe for a night then to klang for AGM and melaka for convy! back to singapore with barely enough time to unpack and pack and onto another flight to kota kinabalu, sabah!

absolutely amazing moments! and definitely, all glory to no one else but God alone (:

things i've learnt/experienced:

- lovely people who are so generous and ever ready to offer help and love and care. sometimes i dont want to be friends with such people because i always feel i cant give enough in return.. but they are really examples of unconditional love, like God's love for us and his efforts to reconcile us to him. i think the most i should do is just to pay it forward :))

- the amazingness of holiday prayer buddy meets :D got the privilege to catch up with minmin and yilin for a prayer buddy meet and i couldnt stop thinking what a great idea it is! holidays are usually dangerous days for my spiritual walk with God because everything else seems more exciting than reading the bible and praying. but God's making me realise what better things i can spend my time on in the holidays instead of mindless useless matters and i reallly thank God for that!

- i thank God for more courage and less fear of awkwardness when talking about God to my family, being able to read our daily bread with jodie :D

- i fell in love with a 3 month old husky called blitz! proudly owned by melody, mervyn, auntie and uncle cheebeng- the kind family that hosted kristi, steph and i during agm in port klang :D blitz has a butt of a kangaroo!

- AGM and convention which was a great learning experience once again, renewing my passion for overseas students ministry after rubbing shoulders with people who have had, or are working towards the same goal in other parts of australia.. young and old..

- i learnt from AGM the importance of our attitudes in ministry, the importance of follow up with returnees, being encouraged by other centre reports, TO TAKE THE TIME TO SEEK GOD'S FACE, to understand our generation in order to effectively reach out to them (: and that it takes time and effort to get to know people

- i learnt from convention that we are doing all things in the presence of God, to preach the gospel in and out of season, to commit our actions to God in prayer, like Nehemiah, importance of unity, to have hearts of thanksgiving, perseverance in faith!

- ocf thanksgiving gala night was great in many ways. being part of the dance team, cheah hooi taught us more than dance moves, but to commit all we are to God, remembering that we are dancing for God alone and no one else. that was one big lesson! cheah hooi's such a blessing! so lively even when she's pregnant. another thing was the encouragement i got from what ocf has done in the lives of many people from 1959 up to now and it motivates and compels me to want to give more to the ministry!

- kota kinabalu is my new favourite place, esp manukan island! i think i can be friends with the fishies.. it's so cool how they just swim up to you rather fearlessly just to get the bread from your hands. hide and seek with the clownfishes in the sea anemone was the best though :D they are the cutest things alive!!

these days, waiting for my school email inbox to load feels similar to sitting in the cinema watching a horror movie... the suspense and uncertainty of events about to unfold makes your heart thump faster and faster and almost knocks you out.

it kicks in when you first log into the school account and notice a new message in your inbox. "what can it be? results? a notice saying that you have failed your unit? a fine?" only expecting the worse and bracing yourself for the blow of terrible news, you CLICK and wait for the inbox to upload. it is this time where the theme music from Alfred Hitchcock's PSYCHO drills itself into your head. high-pitched, hair-raising and ear-piercing, it brings on the possibility of an anxiety attack as you wait... and wait.. and freak out and wait.. and because the internet's a bit slow, you wait some more.. and bits of the screen starts appearing, you start to feel its hard to breathe...

then the email appears.. sometimes it's relief, sometimes it's an anti-climax (like an email that's not school related), sometimes it is the worst case scenario as you've expected. but unlike during the horror movie where you scream and pass out at the sight of the monstrous creature, you just get on with it.

God's holding your hand and there's nothing that He can't handle. Nothing happens without God's permission and if God brings you to it, have faith that He will bring you through it. Maybe He has something installed for you in this phase of life. a purpose, a lesson, a time for His glory to be revealed. Not something you'd have expected, but this is just one of life's surprises, choose the way you'd want to respond to them. Thankful, humble and gracious, or devastated, depressed and hopeless?

+++ don't forget your real purpose on earth!

Matthew 28

16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

why get angry, mr grumpy?

it's total unneccessary nonsensical oversensitivity

God guide our minds

teach us love and forgiveness

teach us graciousness and humility

teach us to be quick to listen and slow to anger

teach us to be understanding and non-judgemental

Take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will, I surrender

Take my fears and inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

I hope it's not too small

I trust in You, I trust in You

-five loaves and two fishes, Corrinne May

I think i'm ready to be a granny

im missing some very lovely people :)

“Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever. Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever.”- Psalm 136:1,26

1 Thess 3

6But Timothy has just now come to us from you and has brought good news about your faith and love. He has told us that you always have pleasant memories of us and that you long to see us, just as we also long to see you. 7Therefore, brothers, in all our distress and persecution we were encouraged about you because of your faith. 8For now we really live, since you are standing firm in the Lord. 9How can we thank God enough for you in return for all the joy we have in the presence of our God because of you? 10Night and day we pray most earnestly that we may see you again and supply what is lacking in your faith.
11Now may our God and Father himself and our Lord Jesus clear the way for us to come to you. 12May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. 13May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.

my first day in LOGOS CHRISTIAN CHURCH in almost a year :D was definitely great to be back, seeing familiar and new lovely faces :D i made some new friends! the P6's joined us for the first time today too (INCLUDING JODIE!) i've always seen this day as something very distant.. but yess the time has arrived.. jodie's finally in student fellowship (geez im old).. i hope this new chapter of her life will draw her closer to God! the whole family as well :D that'll be super exciting! ((:

youth service was really really good too. we had a super cute and funny guest speaker who talked about living a life of FAITH and LOVE which was really well illustrated with her real life experiences with youths and what they went through in present society.. persecutions while living a Godly life isn't something that we can avoid. it is the cross that we've agreed to take up daily - being honest with schoolwork, choosing church on sunday mornings, not piercing your ear because it breaks your parents' hearts and you love them even when you really want to have a piercing... so difficult, yet so simple. only God can provide us with the strength to stand firm in face of the tempter. and also it is in Him that we have salvation (: Thank You Jesus!

my friend sara ong ting tong is very brave. (: keep marching for Christ, soldier! love you! <3

qinyilim! welcome back! hope msia's been good!

byebye kristi langkawi and janesa langkawi! dont come back looking like lobsters!

i got joy in my heart (:

im meeting prayer buddies minyap and yilin on tues! WOOHOO! yakun kaya toast :D

you know when ur home in singapore when
- u need extra effort to breathe in the humid air
- the toilet flushes automatically in public places
- there are mama shops all around
- u smell the familiar fragrance of nasi lemak, hokkien mee etc etc
- your room is still very packed with ur stuff, ur mum's stuff, ur dad's stuff, ur sister's stuff
- your many years friend strolls into your apartment when u just woke up

:D

Lord, please help me to focus on what needs to be done and spend my time here meaningfully!

hmmm..........................................................................................................

the sun will come out tomorrow

(:

at least i have an umbrella on my rainy day

God, please help me... where's the rainbow?

it isnt very long to the next exam.

neither is it very long to the end of exams

:D

learning to put worries aside because i have Christ in my vessel, so i can SMILE AT THE STORM :))

God knows me well. He knows that internet can be my best friend and worst enemy, so He sent me to ongtingtong's home (=curtin student housing) and it was major concentration plus information cramming non stop for like 3 days :) and we had peaceful hearts when we went for our neuropsych exam heehee

i was looking for excuses to not go for my exam.. hahaha ongtingtong (she has a new name: sara ong hot dog) made these splints for ORTHOSES & HAND REHAB, which i'll be doing next year. interestinnggg. i like the black one a lot.. it's my favourite thing in her room.. well maybe the guitar first then this splint. my routine when i enter sara's room: first to the guitar, next, put on the black splint haha.

but then my finger became stripey cus i strapped my fat finger too tight and it couldnt breathe

i really hope i can remember everything i've studied not just for the exams but forever and ever and ever and ever. i shall laminate my beautiful colourful notes. everytime i look at them, i don't really read it.. i think i spend more time admiring its beauty. hurhurhur

MUST BE A GOOD OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST TO HELP SERVE PEOPLE! GOD LOVES EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!!!!!

:D

November 14, 2009
Joy In The Midst Of Grief
ODB RADIO: Listen Now DownloadREAD: Ezra 3:10-13
The people could not discern the noise of the shout of joy from the noise of the weeping. —Ezra 3:13
After only a few art lessons, 10-year-old Joel decided to try his hand at painting a flower. By looking at a color photograph of a Rose of Sharon, Joel was able to paint a beautiful mixture of blue, purple, red, green, and white. This made the flower, which had been photographed on the day Joel’s aunt died, seem to come to life. To the family, his painting symbolized a bittersweet mixture of feelings. While it provided a lasting reminder of the loss they had suffered, it also carried a celebration of Joel’s newly discovered artistic gift. The painting gave joy in the midst of grief.
When the people of Judah returned to Jerusalem from captivity in Babylon, they too had a bittersweet experience. As they began rebuilding Solomon’s temple, many in the crowd sang songs of praise. At the same time, some older people, who had seen the beauty of the original temple that had been destroyed by war, wept aloud. We are told that “the people could not discern the noise of the shout of joy from the noise of the weeping” (Ezra 3:13).
Grieving can be like that. While there is sadness in looking back, it also includes a promise of joy in trusting God for the future. Even in a devastating loss, we have this hope: The Lord provides joy in the midst of grief. — Dennis Fisher
We sorrow not as others do,Whose hopes fade like the flowers;There is a hope that’s born of God,And such a hope is ours. —McNeil
Even in the bleakest times, Christians have the brightest hope.

jeaaannniieeeee aahhhh why you so stoooppiiiddd!!!!
aiyoyoyoyooooooooooooo
gong tutu mong chacha!!!

a lifetime's worth of laundry was piled up on my parents' bed, waiting to be folded and put back into my shelves for the longest time ever. finally they got to go back to where they belong after a long long time of procrastination. but then again, sorting my laundry and vaccuuming/sweeping the house was also procrastination. hehehehe im going round in circles!! im talking to jodie right now and she just threw me her powderful bombastic chinese four words: (i tried to copy n paste but it didnt work) wen1 gu4 zhi1 xin1. WOAHHHH. my baby sister... its so difficult to be cleverer than you nowadays hehehe.

i like the fact that my house is getting cleaner slowly :D and that kristi lives nearer now :D

AND AND i just restocked my refweegeelatorr MEHEHEHEH with youtiao(!!) tangyuan (!!!!) thai fish cake (!!!!) meat balls (!!!!!!) wegeetabers!!!! mantou!! good shtufff :)

i need to write down impt shtuff so i can remember..

celebrated choochootrain's girly bday at hanami and met new friends on wed, went to kings park and the city lights were so pretty :D and suling shared her testimony with me when i was sending her home... God never fails to amaze :D

took over choochoo's babysitting job on thurs morning at whitehousecommunitychurch. MATTHEW IS THE CUTEST AND BIGGEST 2 YEAR OLD IVE SEEN! he melts peoples' hearts very easily!

God spoke to the JEANmuggers (sokjhin, jeanyi, jeannie) on friday morning through devotion and reminded us to love and offer hospitality without grumbling :)

joined murdoch for thanksgiving on friday night and sally lee, an OCF supported missionary came to share with us about how God called her to missions. She is one devoted disciple, i must say.. i was very touched by her mime to the song "Lord, I offer my life". i always have this tendency to sing without thinking but her mime was bringing the words into life and challenging my thoughts of what it meant to offer my life to the Lord. it was also a great encouragement to see people sharing and thinking back to when i first met them, knowing that they have indeed grown so much in the Lord.. it's like watching flowers bloom or plants bearing fruit :) it's a great motivation to perservere in OCF's ministry of reaching out, building up and sending back!

Saturday afternoon i met harry and it was love at first sight. hehehe harry is Mez's new puppy. I WANT HIM!!! and i met little elisa (a human) who's probably almost 2, who keeps "patting" (more like whacking.. the way toddlers cant fully control their movements smoothly) harry and asking him to "SIT!" and squeezing harry, asking for "CUDDLE!". awwwwww. her cheeks are extremely chubby and she was so happy that day.. she's such a beautiful little darling who loves wearing everyone's shoes hahhaa.

Saturday evening i went over to uncle joseph's and auntie evelyn's for dinner. they had some family over and the HOHOs were there too :D their grand niece, nicole, 8 was such a lovely girl! i pray that God will speak to her through her bible and the song that she tried to learn on the piano.. :)

This morning God amazed us once more through the generous hearts of the people at Subi church when we took up a love offering for OCF convention. It is really heartwarming to know that there are people out there who are so supportive of this ministry! WE SHALL CONTINUE TO SERVE THE LORD WITH PASSION!!! :D

Galatians 6
Doing Good to All

1Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. 2Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 3If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, 5for each one should carry his own load.
6Anyone who receives instruction in the word must share all good things with his instructor.
7Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. 8The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature[a]will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. 9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.

i think i have a phobia of receiving phonecalls from angmoh ladies now.

the last time i sent a message to the CEO instead of a staffworker of this organisation by accident and got told off.

now everytime i receive a call from an unknown number or hear an angmoh lady's voice my heart just starts pounding faster and faster.

ITS A PERMANENT SCAR hahahaha

got my new passport! i look like a freaking chipmunk/hamster but oh wells. ahaha.

i really thank God that it got done.. the lady said i wasnt supposed to smile in the photo (and i obviously was smiling like an idiot), then she went to check with her manager and her manager said i wasnt smiling AHAHHA (IT WAS SO OBVIOUS I WAS SMILING LA!) *phew* if not it'd been the third time i'll have to take the passport photo.. THANKS, BUT NO THANKS.

anyway, QT today was quite a thought provoker.

Bondservant of Jesus

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me . . . —Galatians 2:20

These words mean the breaking and collapse of my independence brought about by my own hands, and the surrendering of my life to the supremacy of the Lord Jesus. No one can do this for me, I must do it myself. God may bring me up to this point three hundred and sixty-five times a year, but He cannot push me through it. It means breaking the hard outer layer of my individual independence from God, and the liberating of myself and my nature into oneness with Him; not following my own ideas, but choosing absolute loyalty to Jesus. Once I am at that point, there is no possibility of misunderstanding. Very few of us know anything about loyalty to Christ or understand what He meant when He said, ". . . for My sake" ( Matthew 5:11 ). That is what makes a strong saint.
Has that breaking of my independence come? All the rest is religious fraud. The one point to decide is— will I give up? Will I surrender to Jesus Christ, placing no conditions whatsoever as to how the brokenness will come? I must be broken from my own understanding of myself. When I reach that point, immediately the reality of the supernatural identification with Jesus Christ takes place. And the witness of the Spirit of God is unmistakable— "I have been crucified with Christ . . . ."
The passion of Christianity comes from deliberately signing away my own rights and becoming a bondservant of Jesus Christ. Until I do that, I will not begin to be a saint.
One student a year who hears God’s call would be sufficient for God to have called the Bible Training College into existence. This college has no value as an organization, not even academically. Its sole value for existence is for God to help Himself to lives. Will we allow Him to help Himself to us, or are we more concerned with our own ideas of what we are going to be?

we always hear about having to "discover yourself" or "BE yourself" and "find out who you are", "search for your identity", but surrendering yourself to Jesus means finding identity in Christ alone and nothing else, because isn't that what we're living for? To glorify Him in every context and circumstance and trusting in His provision and deliverance?

i realised that surrendering isn't as easy as i thought it'd be.. for one of my units in school, we had to clock 30 hours of service learning with a person with a disability and by the time the last week of school came, i was tired, exhausted and so over it, but i was 5 hours short. i got my timesheet signed and was contemplating adding a few hours here and there so it would have added up to 30hours altogether before i handed it in because i was feeling desperate and oh-my-goodness-get-me-out-of-here-i'm-done. what shocked me was my ability to rationalise my actions so quickly when just a week ago i was saying it was a dishonest act and i would not do it. i made up reasons like- i can include travelling time, i have no more time, im too busy, there's nothing else i can do etc., to make myself feel better and giving myself a valid reason to alter my timesheet. after breakfast with serene and jerm that day, i started to feel increasingly guilty when driving home. is it really the best way to resolve the matter? isn't it equivalent to lying? how can i teach my kids in sunday school not to lie when that is the very thing im doing? how can i expect to be an example in OCF if im not glorifying God with my actions? how can God be glorified in this very sin i'm committing? then another voice went: "but there's nothing i can do, reallly.. i just want to hand it in and forget about it, the end", thank God that we can pray to Him anytime and anywhere, and He listens and answers. I prayed that He'll show me a way out, one in which would be honest and glorifying to Him. He showed me that I could email angus for an "extension", and complete it this week, and so I did, and was granted an extension. THANK GOD. surrender- it's not about making life easy for yourself, but living your life as a worship to the one who loved you and died for you so that you could be forgiven. it's so easy to veer off track and make up reasons and excuses to comfort yourself, but so often the areas are either black or white, no grey-unless we smudged them ourselves.

in saturday-sunday school, chris was illustrating the point of being SALT AND LIGHT in the world with a torchlight which could not be turned on. we unscrewed it and found a piece of paper on the battery which said "i was lying", so we removed it and tried again, but it still didnt work, so we unscrewed it again and found another piece of paper saying "i was rude". we got rid of that too and tried again... finally the torch was shining brightly! it really hit me hard and taught me that when sin gets its way into us, we can't shine God's light, because God doesn't tolerate sin. Thank God for chris! everytime she comes to teach, i feel like i become one of the kids, because i learn so much! :)

study week commences!

NO FB

NO YOUTUBE! i can spend forever watching happyslip and mugglesam argh

feels so good to sleepppp

thank God for family and friends

i need to blog about something!
but i need to go to class now!
this thing is a reminder

HELP

its the final lap! you've got to run the race and end it well!

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace;

where there is hatred, let me sow love;

where there is injury, pardon;

where there is doubt, faith;

where there is despair, hope;

where there is darkness, light;

and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;

to be understood, as to understand;

to be loved, as to love;

for it is in giving that we receive,

it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen

- prayer attributed to Francis of Assisi

been a long time since i've entered level 6 of RobertsonLibrary. First time in this semester i think. its a good place.. there's the study vibe hovering around.

still can't believe this sem's over just like that. what have i accomplished? what have i learnt?where has all my time gone into? when i think more about it, i can't believe i've been in Perth for 4 years already. and i'm nineteen. already. have i grown at all? it's so easy to push and postpone things and when u decide to look back, its as if those years weren't spent well at all. but why is it that i dont ever learn.. :/

HALLELUJAH

one down!

LAST ONE TO GO!!!

ongtingtong was very nice and cooked me dinner today :D

i want to learn korean! sang nee chu ka hamidaaaa!

crazy monkey days

it's like a pattern. but in a few weeks, pattern cant continue anymore! MUAHHAHAHAAHA.

jiayou jeannie. ezpz.

can't wait for pracs.. that will be next next NEXT year. what have i done! im taking forever to complete this degree haha. i better nail them. NEXT SEM U BETTER WATCH OUT! IM ON FIRE!! AND I WILL STILL BE! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

i can't wait for home! :D

leowpeiting and soochiewoochie skyped me just now! been a million years since i last saw them! :D at least i know i still have friends in singapore hahaha and they are still so rubbish! im going to visit your college! its like another cedar hahaha SO FUN!!!

byebye! :DDDD

July 4, 2009
One of God’s Great "Don’ts"

Do not fret— it only causes harm —Psalm 37:8
Fretting means getting ourselves "out of joint" mentally or spiritually. It is one thing to say, "Do not fret," but something very different to have such a nature that you find yourself unable to fret. It’s easy to say, "Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him" ( Psalm 37:7 ) until our own little world is turned upside down and we are forced to live in confusion and agony like so many other people. Is it possible to "rest in the Lord" then? If this "Do not" doesn’t work there, then it will not work anywhere. This "Do not" must work during our days of difficulty and uncertainty, as well as our peaceful days, or it will never work. And if it will not work in your particular case, it will not work for anyone else. Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God Himself.
Worrying always results in sin. We tend to think that a little anxiety and worry are simply an indication of how wise we really are, yet it is actually a much better indication of just how wicked we are. Fretting rises from our determination to have our own way. Our Lord never worried and was never anxious, because His purpose was never to accomplish His own plans but to fulfill God’s plans. Fretting is wickedness for a child of God.
Have you been propping up that foolish soul of yours with the idea that your circumstances are too much for God to handle? Set all your opinions and speculations aside and "abide under the shadow of the Almighty" ( Psalm 91:1 ). Deliberately tell God that you will not fret about whatever concerns you. All our fretting and worrying is caused by planning without God.













God I hear You! :)

hhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrr :(
im always like this
let me sleeeeepppp. fly fly fly away!!!
tomorrow please dont come!

life is too amazing sometimes.

1) bec's a lovely tutor
2) assignment due date is one day later woohoo

thank God! :)

heal my heart and make it clean

open up my eyes to the things unseen

show me how to love like You have loved me

break my heart from what breaks Yours

everything I am for Your kingdom's cause

as I walk from earth into eternity

the past few days has been so dramamama. so exhausting. so scary..

it's not as serious as it sounds.. but they just don't mix well with a weak minded person and period. :(

apart from those, it's also heartwarming to know that God has sent angels to watch over me and support and encourage me, always ready to listen.

mum keeps reminding me that i can always find aunties and uncles that can help me

kat's listening ears when i sleptover

the sunrise to remind me of His sovereignty

OCF makes me happy :)

sleepover + mugging + chatting with meow was really encouraging. Her child-like faith, her prayerfulness, her readiness to listen and linking everything back to God, her love and her big heart for people. Thank God for placing Meow in the team! Meh's also another girl that encourage me. Her big heart for God, her love for OCFers, her silly faces, her clear calling to serve God so passionately at such a young age.. Their family is so nice too. God bless meow & meh's home :)

bern reminded me that i make bad excuses for being late. that's so true. i was a bit upset and taken aback because it seemed quite harsh, but i did pray that God will show me my weaknesses that I should work on. and thank God for her honesty. Bernie is one encouraging sister in Christ who's so disciplined and ready to listen and put things into practice and it's such a privilege to have her on the team :)

Campus Unity Prayer with OCFers- praying with different people, fellowshipping with them, watching people grow. God has been really kind to OCF. Thank God for Stephen who stood up for what's right, God please reveal Yourself to him and touch him with Your love! thank God for manly men who also stood up for their faith! God bless them!

Sunday school on saturday- thank God for siong, alex and chris! they bring much joy to my life and teach me so much in different ways. looking forward to more sunday/saturday schools! :) +MINYAPteagirl!

the interesting exciting journey from subi to burns beach to oceanreef to burns to ocean reef to burns (many time). Thank God for alex, maximilo and siong. getting lost together with sunflowers and bananas and strawberries and a nikon and songs of praise was fun :)

thank God for sokjhin my faithful passenger who's always understanding and listening and entertaining. God bless her and guide and grow her when she returns home after graduating!

my lovely OT friends are also a blessing in my life.. i feel so undeserving of such love and support. always calling/texting/msning me to see how i am, asking if im alright and if i need help, encouraging me when i feel like dying from assignments :) what would i do without you all!

there's also glenna who calls to check up on me to see if i am doing any work. and kristi who gives me hugs. God bless them in their lives as they serve You!

it's so important to list these things down because i always seem to dwell on things that are upsetting/overwhelming. and these remind me of blessings from God during my difficult times.

You are SUPERNATURAL :D

hello squatsquat,
i managed to go to the beach yesterday. :) but when i reached there, it wasn't warm and sunny. it was breezy, slightly chilly and the sun was setting. i read matthew24-28 and i learnt many things.

the end of age comes like a thief in the night. will you be ready for it? or will you be caught unaware? our present mindset always looks towards the far future, what we should do now to achieve our dreams- get married, have children, live here, live there, travel here, travel there, earn xxx amt of money by what age, own a company, be a taitai, i don't know what else.. but the idea that the end of age is near doesn't quite sink in as much to make us vigilant and prepared to welcome the return of our King.

4Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,[a]' and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.
9"Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

44So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

the parable of the talents made me think- am i being that shrewd servant who received one talent and hid it underground? what have i been doing with everything God has blessed me with?

41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'
44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

i'm actually not as good as i think myself to be.. there's the old man that sits outside subi and asks for a couple of dollars whenever we walk past. He's always ignored.. the people who need to eat and drink much more than i do.. i'm not doing much about it. those that need clothes much more than i do.. do i think of helping them at my own expense or am i only considering them when i have leftovers? when people go to prison, are they condemned by the church for being a sinner (aren't we all?) or are they visited and loved and supported, encouraged as they attempt to start life anew and seek forgiveness?

i was reminded that Jesus' last days were not only physically painful, they were emotionally quite hurtful too.
Judas, one of the disciples that Jesus loved, decides to betray Jesus and joins in the plot to kill his own teacher

when Jesus asked His disciples to pray while He also prayed at Gethsemane, when His soul was "overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death", He came back and found them asleep. How lonely and unsupported it must have felt to be in that position- to know that you are dying, and you're the only one praying. and the people you love, that you have spent so much time teaching and serving, are sleeping instead of praying with you. so painful..

Jesus did no wrong, but had to bear the weight of the world's sins by dying on the cross. As God in human body, he was sorrowful and troubled. He feels emotions as much as we do. at Gethsamane, before the time He knew He'd be taken away, Jesus prayed for God's will to be done despite His physical self feeling so distressed. Dying on the cross is nothing He had done to deserve, Him being all powerful and all knowing, yet He submitted to God's will out of love for us. 3 times He prayed "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done." . this hurt isn't just a 'my gf dumped me,' or 'i failed 2 units' kind of pain.. but being sentenced to death on the cross, nails piercing through His hands and feet because He acknowledged being Christ, the son of God. He could always choose to say no He wasnt and escape that pain but He knew it was written that all these were to happen in order that we are saved from sin.

Despite their promises that they will never disown Jesus even if it means death, "all the disciples deserted him and fled" when he was captured. Peter denied being Christ's follower 3 times.

Jesus was mocked, whipped, nailed, spat at, made fun of, humiliated by the people He was dying for.

and He went through all these, just so we can be saved. How amazing is that

SUNNY SUNNY BEACH DAY

there is actually plenty to be thankful for but i dont know why my attitude's so smelly sometimes.

i've been sucha grumpy bratty ratbag, queen of procrastinator.

but maybe because God sent the sun to shine so brightly today, it is my happy day :D

which reminds me of this song Chris taught us in sunday school on saturday (saturday school?)

It's a happy day

and i thank God for the weather

It's a happy day

Livin' it for my Lord

It's a happy day

things are gonna get better

Livin' each day with God's promises in my heart

so simple but so timely and beautiful :) Chris is an amazing Sunday school teacher and she has 6 kids of her own.. 7 grandkids i think... so she's had plenty of experience. and she names her guitars! good ol' Jethro is my fav because he looks so vintage. and he looks like a giant violin. heehee. the lesson was on prayer that day and i realised that i havent been praying as often. and i havent been putting much faith in the Lord.

BUT! praise God for His faithfulness.

midautumn fest went great! it is amazing to see so many nationalities celebrating with lanterns and singing chinese worship songs to Jesus. :)) and meow&meh's parents were so generous to open up their house and help us with cooking and cleaning..

lc prayer meet at burns beach! :) i love my dearest lc! ateamosupremo's like my new family haha. we're so different.. just like different body parts playing their roles with Christ as head :)

combined bible study! im so encouraged by the bible study leaders that volunteered to lead :) it was also a good time of fellowship among the three centres. Murdoch did well with preparing everything.. all glory to God!

lovely people! i need to learn to appreciate people more! thank God for the loveliest people in my life.

my lovely parents who dont throw tantrums like i do when i call them after they've fallen asleep, asking me to jiayou because i was unmotivated to do my assignment.

siong & meow's encouraging smses

maximilo's chinese dances and chipmunk voice HAHAHAHAHHAHA

caleb's encouragement and wealth of knowledge

sara's loving calls

christie and haniksha's love dramas ahha

kat's vege curry delivered to my doorstep

kristi's company and her handmedown clothes WE LOVE MAO'S LAST DANCER!!!

sylvia's generosity (tookbegi yumyum) i will come with honeydew milk tea no pearls soon :)

sok jhin my faithful passenger hahahaha she listens and share share things with me

chris who prayed with me

alex's suakuness (how can u not know what a papadum is? HAHAHA)

skype with stickerfu in illinois! msn with malichan in london! gohbiaomei i got ur postcard from milan!

sean your photos are amazing!!!! can open shop!!

so many more people i can thank God for!!

anyway, yes thank God for people that keep me sane when the insanity wave comes rolling in, for pushing me to remember to put God in the picture..

God sees the giant picture and we're only looking at this small tiny fraction of it. Lord I pray for wisdom to know Your will and serenity to accept things that can't be changed, and the courage to change those that i can. In Christ's most precious name, AMEN!

“How great you are, O Sovereign LORD! There is no one like you, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.”- 2 Samuel 7:22

1 Thessalonians 5
1Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. 3While people are saying, "Peace and safety," destruction will come on them suddenly, as labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.
4But you, brothers, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. 5You are all sons of the light and sons of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. 6So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled. 7For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. 8But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. 9For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.













it's so easy to slack off and be sloppy in the things that we do. take our own sweet time. leave important things to tomorrow and then tomorrow again and again. what if Christ returned tomorrow? will you be ready to account for what you have done in your life?

stupid.
why are you so lousy!
slowpoke! use your brain!
you're late late late!
lazybumbum where's ur spirit?!
why do you always give up?

something wrong!

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!??!?!?!

after neuropsych lec yesterday, i concluded that i have ADHD minus the hyperactivity because im a bum. ADD?

youtube=evil

chocolate=evil

STAY AWAY!!!

its beach weather in oz once again! :D and i realised i havent been to the beach to swim in perth. AT ALL. its been like what.. 4 years? what's going on!!! (1st 2 years my parents decided not to sign the beach permission form from the boarding house.) the other 2... i dont know. always so full of excuses. i see a trend somewhere here.

but its homework time its homework time. ITS HOMEWORK TIME

squatting on your chair actually gives your legs muscle ache

roots to fruits? yes no?

1. i need to be more appreciative & grateful
2. i need to say more things that build people up
3. i need to be bold and step out of my bubble

God, i know you're moulding me.

sometimes its weird. when the person you think you'd have so much to share with feels so distant. when your patience runs low and expectations go rocket high, when a small issue makes you flare up, when you know you ought to sit down and pray with that person, but you don't know what to say.. and love seems to run low. when you cant help but compare yourself with that person, be annoyed and feel inferior.. the crack appears and slowly but surely it widens. and then we drift. what am i supposed to be learning from this, God?

i had a pimple in my left ear and i got rid of it
the next day i had a pimple in my right ear and its still here. :O

so the highlight of the week was definitely lc retreat during the weekend that has just passed! still recovering from a week's worth of lack of sleep right now haha but really, thank God for His sustenance and providence :)

- there was kristi who dropped by to collect her book and gave me bbt to keep me awake in the days prior when i had to chiong assignment
- there was muimui who lovingly volunteered to help me clean up the house to prepare for retreat :D
- there was cheryl who prayed for me at maccas at the night of the retreat and came to join us in our discussions
- there was aunty carol who brought fried rice and hid it in the fridge so we wont be tempted until dinner time, and providing great advice on different issues and teaching us about olive trees :) jesus' cross was made from the olive tree!
- there was ben who came to help and support us
- there was patrick who came to show us his and maxwin's matching tie hahaha
- there was puan who came during her spare time to help us with discussions n helped us feel less stressed

there was pretty east perth, plenty of honeyjoys, french toast, pancakes, late night talks and giggles, youtube imitations, interesting discussions and lots of bonding :D

gogogo a-teamo-supremo! i love you all! let's continue to follow Christ's leadership and be united in our vision!

today for prayer meet we shared about someone that we took for granted.
i take so many people and things for granted.
so easily.

thank You Lord for the opportunities to learn from the rest of the LC :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH BYEBYE

My Utmost for His Highest (Oswald Chambers)
http://www.rbc.org/devotionals/my-utmost-for-his-highest/09/21/devotion.aspx?year=2009

September 21, 2009
The Missionary’s Predestined Purpose

Now the Lord says, who formed Me from the womb to be His Servant . . . —Isaiah 49:5

The first thing that happens after we recognize our election by God in Christ Jesus is the destruction of our preconceived ideas, our narrow-minded thinking, and all of our other allegiances— we are turned solely into servants of God’s own purpose. The entire human race was created to glorify God and to enjoy Him forever. Sin has diverted the human race onto another course, but it has not altered God’s purpose to the slightest degree. And when we are born again we are brought into the realization of God’s great purpose for the human race, namely, that He created us for Himself. This realization of our election by God is the most joyful on earth, and we must learn to rely on this tremendous creative purpose of God. The first thing God will do is force the interests of the whole world through the channel of our hearts. The love of God, and even His very nature, is introduced into us. And we see the nature of Almighty God purely focused in

John 3:16 — "For God so loved the world. . . ."

We must continually keep our soul open to the fact of God’s creative purpose, and never confuse or cloud it with our own intentions. If we do, God will have to force our intentions aside no matter how much it may hurt. A missionary is created for the purpose of being God’s servant, one in whom God is glorified. Once we realize that it is through the salvation of Jesus Christ that we are made perfectly fit for the purpose of God, we will understand why Jesus Christ is so strict and relentless in His demands. He demands absolute righteousness from His servants, because He has put into them the very nature of God.

Beware lest you forget God’s purpose for your life

as a substitute for my current bbt/boost juice craving, i dug out this tub of ice cream that has been waiting patiently in my freezer for months since i last ate out of it. i was glad to see it only expires in december :D but when i read the 95% fat free, i don't know if it's believable.. and and and... i just finished it... :O but if you think about it.. eating a quarter tub of ice cream = 250 ml of ice cream = 250 ml milkshake. its like a normal cup of drink. and its 95% fat free. if they're tellling the truth. hahaha.

i hope more people move to east perth so i can find more makan buddies hehehe. i know some ppl that are in east perth already + some that may be moving.. YAY. i better help them look out for rents at the beginning of the year and make sure they become my neighbours.

WHY IS IT SO TOUGH TO GET STARTED WITH MY ASSIGNMENT! >:(

i cant wait to go back to singapore for prata and teh halia! stickerfu!! come back to singapore! 7eleven mashed potato with malichan! but i bet she'll be enjoying life on oxford st. teh bing opposite church! hokkien mee! beard papa cream puff! tomato express! curry naan from breadtalk! ahhh

i can't decide on where i'd like to go with my family in the holidays..

chicago/illinois to find stickerfu?

uk to find malichan?

europe to find geri n sean

msia to find ongtingtong?

singapore the whole time to spend a lot a lot of time with my fav singaporeans?

hainan island/japan?

HMMM. always seems as if there's not enough time to do everything. but then again there'll be times when i just sit and watch the world go by (or appear to be because im actually asleep).

there seems to be a recurring theme. hmm.

HAHA i received this email a while ago from lynnmama:

THERE ARE 2 BASIC TYPES OF YOGA:

1. YOGA FROM INDIA

2. YOGA FROM AUSTRALIA

oh my it's quite funny. but with that said, it reminded me of Jesus' teaching regarding narrow and wide gates.

Matthew 7:13-14

13"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."

it is a constant struggle we are facing in this world. to choose something that gratifies the human nature/desire OR to choose something that pleases God. to be "ONE of them" or "ONE with God". to be accepted by culture or do things accepted by God. recent experiences/witnessing of encounters has reminded me of different lives people can choose to live.

one who doesn believe in Christ may think that we are absolutely out of our minds/ weird/ eccentric when they hear that

- Dr Omar Djoeandy chose to be a missionary whose income was dependent on love offerings from the church, spending most of his time in run down countries preaching and teaching people about God when he could have a) inheritted his family business, b) worked as a doctor and earn big bucks - afterall, isn't that what the 6 years of mugging in university was for?

- Christians choose to go to church every Sunday instead of sleeping in/partying late from saturday night

- some choices we make in life aren't for the sake of being able to lead a good, well-to-do life, luxurious, wealthy, comfortable, free, successful, popular, legendary etc.

Ephesians 2

Made Alive in Christ
1As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. 4But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. 6And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. 8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Christ is the reason for all the choices we make in life. and it is because of the gospel that we want to do all these things!

when sin entered the world, it separated man from God, because God is perfect and holy.

but God loves His people and wants us to be reunited with Him, spend eternal life with Him,

so because the wages of sin is death, Jesus came to earth and lived as a man, faced trials and temptations, showing the perfect example of love for the Father and love for people. He received the punishment that we deserved so that our sins were forgiven, our debts were paid for when He hung on that cross with nails in his hands and feet. He died. but 3 days later He rose again, overcoming death and sin. whoever believes in Christ and accepts Christ into his/her life acknowledges what He'd done out of His love for us and accepts this gift of salvation.

This is grace. something that we don't deserve or earn. it is a gift from God. it is not through good works that we get to heaven, but through Christ's death on the cross that our sins are forgiven and we can go to heaven. and it is because of that love we are given that we are compelled to do the things we do.

Luke 9

23Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. 24For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. 25What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? 26If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels. 27I tell you the truth, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the kingdom of God."

If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has gone, the new has come! 2 Cor 5:17

choose God.

so my first week of my term in OCF curtin LC has begun and is almost ending. haven''t really done much other than prepare for worship and send emails and praying and planning for meetings.. but i thank God for an amazing team. it's amazing how God brings people with such different personalities together, and im excited already :)

i'm still doing some stuff as perth's ex mission rep but as lenard mentioned we shouldn just be dumping our portfolios into the hands of the new LC members and expect them to do everything without a clue about the past events.. not that yans and ah coln won't do a good job (because they are capable passionate meddies who are ever ready to serve God!) BUT OH WELLS :D I LIKE DOING THE STUFF THAT I WAS GIVEN TO DO HEEHEEHEE.

basically tmr night (aka later) perth and murdoch are holding an evangelistic meet (EM) themed: HOW MUCH ARE YOU WORTH

http://www.ocfmurdoch.org/images/How-much-are-u-worth.swf

click on that thing!! its soo cool.. done by xiuyi from murdoch!! :D

i feel so blessed to be able to be part of it even though im now in ocf curtin because it's such an encouragement reading the testimonies of fellow brothers in Christ, listening to the enthusiastic responses of people HEHEHE

AND to be able to be part of the take home gift production team! MEET THE TEAM... of.. 2! with the goal of completing 20 bookmarks in one evening, each one given much attention and thought, handmade with tender loving care even when ink smudges on our hands or superglue sticks to our fingers like superglues do, prayed over so that God may use it to bless it's blessed and loved owner-to-be :D

TADA!!! despite the sore knees/hands/fried brains/superglued fingers/aching neck, it was a joyful experience and a good break from school work!

oh and i have something to confess. i didn just go to curtin to study OT. i did vet in murdoch too. and i just graduated tonight.. see...

n last sem i graduated from canning college but i shared my degree with sara so we had to share a regalia too hurhurhur.

i wish man.. i've got 3 more years! WEEEEE. this was chuanbee, hazel and yingxian's graduation :)

:) God, your love is unfailing! Please show that to the people that come in tomorrow! <3

maybe its the adolescence-trying-to-be-cool-phase

i blame myself for not knowing how to instruct in love
i blame myself for closing a blind eye
i blame myself for being incapable of teaching obedience

you probably think nothing of it, but it is big to me because i know it doesn't please God and i don't know how to tell you. you might just see me as another fuddy duddy naggy waggy if i had anything to say. and right now all i can do is stop talking and think.. and continue the blame..

God, how do i do this? where do i start? what do i say? God, reveal yourself so she may know.

hurts.

i am weak but YOU are strong.

i have sin but YOU are holy.

Lord, reign in me.

my life, my dreams, my relationships, my committments, my resolutions, my decisions, thoughts, speech, actions.

may they reflect the glory of Your love.

reign over every bit of my life. especially those that hurt.

this is how much power schoolwork has over me.

perth is windy. super windy right now.

it seems as though monsters are throwing themselves at my windows.

if i had no assignment to do, i would be outside, tying myself to pieces of cardboard and attempting to fly.

with someone.

because if you do it by yourself, people say you have a problem

but if you do it with your friend, people say you're having fun

although i would think that over the years, i've grown to accept doing things alone and being less conscious of what i think people think of me, im not ready to look like a loony oversized chicken by myself. yet.

with more assignments and crazy deadlines to meet, maybe soon.

but then again its not all bad. it's during these times i have a reason to stay home in bad weather, i get txt msgs and calls from sara to encourage me on. i get msn msgs from haniksha to tell me i can do it. i get alanna sitting next to me in izone making me laugh at her silliness. i get car rides and catch up chit chats and snacks (if she brings any) from christie. i get to smile at bek's forever-amused-and-happy greetings. i get a doughnut from kelvin who's so professional at getting it from the free breakfast table. i get to huddle with kate cus its cold. i get to listen to howard's attempts at making cheesecake and hoping that one day he'll actually bring something for me to eat. i get to indulge in european hot choc. i get to eat 2 for 1 pasta with garlic bread and play connect the dots and figure out which strand of pasta leads to chef-i-duno-whats-his-name with sara and discuss how they cooked the pasta (conclusion: they dipped it in butter and sprinkled ham pieces on it) and drink $1 milkshakes.

i think about the months of dreading uni at the end of year 12, afraid i wouldn't make any friends and bombarding glenna with questions here there everywhere and get freaked out and dread uni even more..and i look at it now... and i realise how blessed i am indeed :)

and thats just a piece of ham out of the whole plate of pasta of blessings that God has showered upon me.

mm.. yummy

http://www.more4memovie.com/
CLICK ON IT! I DONT KNOW HOW TO PUT YOUTUBE LINKS UP HERE ANYMORE

why do we live the way we live? why do we identify ourselves with our cars/expensive watches or shoes or jackets or clothes?
this is just a trailer, but the way the film director juxtaposed the answers from different people when asked "what is the most important thing you can't live without?" whacked me hard on my head. we may start thinking of that dream car, luxury food, more dresses more shoes, better bigger house, aircon
.. and then you hear the people from Africa say: water.

btw.. the filmmaker's a parent of one of the sunday school kids in subi hehehe SO COOL MANZZ

i love wiki more than textbooks
i hate it when dodgy people peepee in the carpark staircase in northbridge. its so difficult to hold your breath and climb up the stairs from level G to level 2 and realise you are actually on level 3 so you breathed in peepee unneccessarily for a period of time. and i dont understand why there's peepee smell on every level.. :(

HELLO GONG GONG!

happy birthday bimbo-siaosiao-ahpui-garangguni-copycat-kissmon modie loi wen bian! porridge brudder!

(sorry i cant really pass you the chocolate. i'll eat it for you ok?)

you are truly a gift from God

i did pray for a sister when i was young, because i wanted to be able to tie my sister's hair

God probably had other plans, because many times i dreaded tying your hair. mummy had to plead me to tie your hair. BECAUSE YOU NEVER COMBED YOUR HAIR. i dont comb my hair either. but you monkey, always hopping around rolling here and there with your super long and fine hair, it'll always get tangled so quickly. it takes two people and a bottle of johnsons kids strawberry anti-tangles spray to get your hair combed and tied up INTO A PONY TAIL. every time i try to do something fancy, you take it off :(

but yes. gift from God :)

because of you, i have someone to exercise my authority over HEHEHE.

because of you, i found something better to hug to sleep than a bolster or soft toys.

because of you, i feel so much joy when you reach your various developmental milestones, eg.:

- the first time you stepped on dog's poo on the way to kindy (much earlier than i did :D)

- when you dared to put ur head under the shower

- when you dared to put ur head underwater in the pool (after bribing you with chips)

- when we took the public transport home from school

- when you started camwhoring

- when your knowledge of technology suddenly overshot mine

- when your chinese became better than mine :X

- when you started drawing on yourself

- when you stuck bandaids all over yourself

- when you cried because i told you that your body will start growing hair if you put shampoo on your body HAHAHA

- when i tricked you when we took turns in the shower by counting backwards so we end with you being number 1. because you liked being number 1. (when in fact you were number 10)

10. jeannie rinse body

9. jodie rinse body

8. jeannie put shampoo

7. jodie put shampoo

6. jeannie wash off shampoo

5. jodie wash off shampoo

4. jeannie put conditioner and soap

3. jodie put conditioner and soap

2. jeannie rinse off everything and get out of shower (i finish showering here)

1. jodie rinse off everything and get out of shower (see, you actually were'nt exactly no.1)

because of you, i dont need paper to do art..

because of you, i learnt that i am a very flexible person.

because of you, i get to see what pocahontas is like if she's chinese. TAKE CARE OF MY KOKOKRUNCH. dont kiss it k.. its mine..I DONT WANT THIS ON MY KOKO KRUNCH OKAYmummy n daddy said i put on weight... they didnt tell me you put on weight too! look at you...HAVE YOU BEEN EATING BEARD PAPA CREAM PUFFS BEHIND MY BACK??!!i dont know if i told you before, but i was so touched by your generosity when you whipped out $10 for me to buy food/top up my ez-link card when i had no money.i pray that God will mould you into a God-fearing young lady seeking His heart. i pray that He'll use your talents and passions (art, friends, generosity, courage, boldness, love, selflessness, technosavvy-ness, cooking, baking etc etc) to glorify Him and His great love :)

thank you for being so lovely in an annoying way. i love you!