hah. im soo sleepy..
must be that lazy afternoon heat.
anyway..
i hope next yr would be relaxing, smooth sailing and fun.
despite the TEEs (tertiary entrance exams).
because i will have sooo many commitments nxt yr...
cantate(choir), hale st marys band(those bands with trumpets clarinets and what have you's), st marys big band(the school's jazz band), assembly band.
but assembly band might not need me nxt yr after the gig..
which is on monday! which i am so so so so unprepared for.. AAH!!
back to my point, i would definitely want to join interhouse dance, IGSSA dance.. if i do get in..
and also i'll have ballet on fri evenings and sat arvos, OCF bible study on fri nights, church on sunday morns...
haha. this is crazy! but im still looking forward to nxt yr nevertheless x)
lalala.. GERALDINE GOH will be here! =)) my cuzziecuzzie
im excited for the hols already!
ive got lotsa packing to do tho. haha
MY ROOM! ITS FULL OF CRAP! =/
alritee. im going to cook =)

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say bye to exams and textbooks with me now..
everyone! GOODBYE EXAMS AND TEXTBOOKS!
haha so much for wanting to be more mature...
im so excited for the holidays...
i wanna
get a job
whip out my sewing machine and make stuff
cook
bake
swim
suntan- i wanna get a nice tan so i can wear a lime green gown for my yr 12 ball
heehee yeah im thinking far.

anyway i was just thinking...
many people can say oh im academically inclined or im musically inclined or wadeva..
i cant seem to find my inclination! and THAT IS WHY im rather undecided about my courses for uni. its only the yr after nxt but its still coming and it'll come faster than i expect it to..
remember how i used to complain that im not gonna be a teacher?
im thinking that its not all that bad now. haha like a kindie teacher or pri school teacher..
kids are so adorable!
ok what i think i might not mind doing as jobs..
tour guide
psychologist
teacher?hhee
some music stuff maybe
photographer

ok im on the phone with my sis now.
i'll update tmr =)
nites!

today is officially the last school day of year 11!
yipee!
now... exams.. yr 11 week, HOLIDAYS!
muahaha.
yay.
looking back at this year,
i think i've changed quite a lot...
i think i have become more mature (although i've always been =p)
i have become more independent
i've become more musical (believe it or not)
and i've become taller =D (nah. i didnt grow upwards actually.)
but i also regret when i think of things i could have done but didnt.
i could have enjoyed and cherished the first few weeks instead of complaining.
i could have been outspoken instead of being so silent
i could have spoken up for ppl being gossiped about
i could have gone to talk to the new and lonely people
i could have done so much more but its too late to be upset now.
i'll start doing them now =D

exams exams. its quite quick actually. didn expect it to come so quickly.
im gonna keep my nose stuck in textbooks, assignments, past year papers and all sorts of things that make u smart.

at night, i'll sleep with some exam guides on my face to let diffusion take place.

haha that reminds me of silly yurica. hahaha
we were doing some silly IPW project. or wassit studying for exams..
and she just plopped a book onto her face and lay on the ground
"i'll let the information diffuse into my brain!"
sigh. the good old days.
not that its bad now, but i cant say its the better new days.
you just cant compare it that way.

every moment in life spent is just so precious =)

guess what!! i had like 4 band practices and 1 choir practice in this week!
in 5 days... gosh that sounds crazy...
monday after school -cantate (choir)
tuesday night- band 1
wednesday morning- assembly band
thurs morning- jazz band
fri morning assembly band (we ended up not doin anything. BUT I STILL WOKE UP EARLY!)
speaking of which.. heh. i was going to be late and i had a million things on my to-do-list..
1. dorm slip
2. pack bag
3. empty bin
4. tidy up the room
5. wake kristi up
6. brush teeth
7. brekkie
8. bring bag to locker
9. get drum sticks outta the locker

so i RAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNN like some marathon runner to the locker to get stuff,
SPRINTED all the way to the Performing Arts Centre. it is SO far away esp when u are in a hurry and you are late...
and i reached there panting like some weird dog, got the drum kit up to set up for band practice.
then when i wheeled the kit into the room, mr moore was like 'forget it. we dont need it.'
*FAINTED* haha i gave a weak grin and a faint surprised silly sound and wheeled the thing back. and all the running made my brekkie in my tummy jump here and there and gave me a tummyache.
AND I POO-ED BEFORE BREAKFAST! so i like poo-ed twice in the morning...
and once at night. hahaha what a good digestive system....

OKAY! TIME TO STUDY!!!!
hey the Os ppl! you're finishing soon!!! how exciting!!
and those having prom/grad night wadeva u call them... HAVE FUN!!
IM EXCITED FOR YOU GUYS!! take photos! lots of them!

sometimes i can be such a hypocrite.
to my friends, i can give them all the patience in the world.
at home, im that annoying spoilt brat who thinks the world revolves around her.
I FOUND MY CAMERA!
details not that important. haha
exams are coming! peee-eew! x(

13th nov monday- music practical
15th nov wednesday- physical science
17th nov friday- english
21st nov tuesday- music
22nd nov wednesday- math
24th nov friday- media

its a pretty good timetable. but my studying timetable has gone haywire!
i've been busy with assignments that i cant get started with revision!
WHAT AM I DOING HERE!?
relaxing time. haha i need to take time off from slacking u noe.
nah. this is the post of the week. precious kay!

"Do unto others what you want them to do unto you."
i used to think this meant do good to others, so you can expect them to do good to you.
but i was thinking about it one day... what if they dont do it in return? then i realised it meant to put yourself in their shoes.
"if i were her, would i want that done to me?" instead of "if i want her to do that to me, i should do that to her first."

discipleship with kristi and glennabanana this week made me think of my life journey.
how obvious that God has been planning every single thing, never forsaking me.
moulding me, exposing me to new experiences and sending beautiful people into my life.
im so thankful for everything. how blessed x)

went to KENNY ARONOFF's drum clinic.
he's on his tour around the world and he went to singapore for one of them too! how cool.
anyway my drum teacher found out that their using our school's beautiful fantastic performing arts centre. "so you can just say that he's coming to your 'house'!" (because i live in the school boarding house)
haha apparently he is one of the world's greatest drummer!
haha HOW COOL IS THAT!
http://www.kennyaronoff.com/
he plays for lots of famous people but i only recognised one song...
MY HAPPY ENDING by avril lavigne. haha
anyway he was so cool!
and i was going deaf by the time we left.

BAND! rmbr how i told u i didnt really like band?
its getting better now (phew)
but only because i brought a pencil to the practise to write out alphabets above the notes.
i learnt to differentiate glocks,xylophones, marimbas, vibraphones.
do u know that xylophones are actually wooden??
well i always thought they were metallic until a few weeks ago. haha
oh and cus i joined HALE ST MARYS BAND 1,
mr harrison asked me to join ST MARYS BIG BAND (its a jazz band and its not big.at all.)
and cus i joined big band, mr moore asked me to join ASSEMBLY BAND!
and its not cus they heard me play. well if they did hear me play they may think twice abt getting me to play for them.
they are incredibly short of percussionists in school after the yr 12s have graduated.
so now they resort to taking in beginners. hehe.
well at least its worth the try. the most they can do to me is sack me. hehe

tonight, im going to a richard clayderman concert.
some fundraising thing by the church.

oh and to all those doin their Os,
KAMPATEII!!! JIA YOU JIAYOU!
ALL THE BEST!
I'LL BE PRAYING! i have been. =D

I LOST MY CAMERA!

"oh.. then now u cant take pictures of your beautiful feet anymore!" val
YES I KNOW! HOW DEPRESSING! =(
oh wells. its not good to be attached to materialistic things. so..
=) YAY I LOST MY CAMERA. -.-

this week is the yr12's last week! =/
im sure gonna miss them...
some of them. a few of them. hahah i dont know many of them.
imagine next year when its my turn...
gosh.. i still feel like a newbie.
im like the most silent person on earth when im in school.
and im gonna be a leaver nxt yr.... YAY?
heh. i think kristi might be blogging bout today so u can go read hers for what happened today.
hers is more exciting cuz i was having lessons while she was happily dancing in her pjs and bananas in pj frens.
BUT I'VE GOT NO PICS CUZ I LOST MY CAM. so sorry...

anyway... have u ever felt lonely? like u were not fitting in and u were never meant to?
or have u always been surrounded by many friends? always busy talking and laughing, never noticing the lonely ppl ard, cus u've been too comfy and too caught up with your own world?
i've had a taste of both worlds. now it makes me feel guilty.
i've been too busy making myself happy to stop and think for others.
i've been too selfish to spare some of my time to those who need friends.
i've been too judgemental, letting gossips get to me, affecting my impression of ppl.
i've been too insensitive, ignorant to a crying soul.
i've been too proud, thinking that the world revolves around me.

i've got to stop being selfish, judgemental, insensitive, ignorant, proud and attention seeking.
i've got nothing to boast about.

i want to bring joy to those sorrowful souls
i want to be a friend to the friendless
i want to be tolerant and love each and every person for who they are
i want to make people's days
i want to bring smiles to faces
i want to add colour to people's lives.

i dont want them to feel lonely and left out. i want them to be loved and feel loved.
because i know how it feels to be alone too.

when u feel like a stranger. when u feel invisible, unwanted, unwelcomed.
when u know u can talk to them but u are too tired to try, cuz they'll just think their too cool for you. actually u know they're not THAT cool. they just seem cool because they talk loud, they laugh loud, they think they're cool being loud. and they think they're so cool to talk behind ppl's back. that...cool? nah. not cool. who's cool? i think those that smile at you even if they dont know you, they talk to you and make u feel welcome, they love you for who you are, they dont judge you, and they do the same to everybody. they are the cool ones from my point of view =)
not the clothes, not the shoes, not the make up, not the hair, not the accessories, but the heart that glows and overflows with love for everyone.
<3>

hello hello squattie!
since school started, my life's been boring.
its so painful to have to look at books and assignments its killing me.
haha
i got thru band audition! YAY!
haha yay my foot la yay.
my first band rehearsal was such a nightmare.
gosh. i almost fainted. percussion. i was so lost and i didnt know what to do!
trust me choir is so so so much easier. no one hears u when u sing wrongly
but in percussion, actually in band.. esp when its ur first day...
every single wrong note can be heard so clearly!
haha
but it will get better!
i still dont know whats the diff between xylophone and marimba and glocks and vibraphone but it will get better! haha
(yeah i know... why so many of the same type of instruments???!)

for those havin Os,
all the best! you can do it! it'll be the hols after that so yay! =D
i'll pray for u guys! x))

i saw a purple tree outside church today. so pretty!
its a normal coloured tree with some leaves and many purple flowers. haha.
beeeeooooooteeeful. xD
love!

saturday sunday monday..MONDAY!!!
NOOOOO!!! *faints*
its back to school time...
time to hypnotise myself into the mood for school..
a new beginning! x)
summer dresses out.
the silly light low quality but unbelievably expensive flowy thing that flies in every tiny breath of wind!
its that day i dread.. gah..
but that also means im one step closer to december!
singapore! vivocity! hehehe. of course my loved ones too x)
but now, let me pull up my socks, stick up my chin, breathe in the fresh air and..
embrace the new term!
its gonna pass quick but its gonna be good =)
nothing can crush me down with God by my side!
I WILL SURVIVE! oooooooooooohhhhhhhhh... I WILL SURVIVE!
and that also means im gonna blog a million times less. so miss me okay!
uhuh.. that wasnt a question.. ;)

ozzie ozzie ozzie...

everytime i look back and think about how far i've come,
i really thank God for making this wonderful choice.
sending me to perth. =)
where i take a leap to independence.
but i wasnt thrown to the deep end like others.
my dad's here. which is good in a way..
im so much luckier than the other boarders.
i have someone to drive me around,
someone to bring me to places with nice food
someone to bring me to ballet lessons and bible studies.
someone to bring me out on weekends, where i can taste some real authentic asian food.
someone to teach me driving
and of course many more.. too much to list down.
coming to Perth has given me many new challenges and experiences.
like entering a world of animosity; you are an alien in this strange land.
but God has given me courage to step out of my little bubble,
to mingle with new people, forming new friendships..
at the beginning, it felt so weird mixing around with the uni people seriously speaking..
all my life, i've been spending all my time around ppl my age..
my schoolmates, balletmates, churchmates...
but putting me in this new environment has taught me that...
THOSE UNI STUDENTS ARE STILL VERY CHILDISH
hahaha. ok not very childish. young at heart ok? heehee
and the Ozzies... well what can i say..
mozzies do bite but ozzies dont.
in general the ozzies are more...sociable.
they dont get too caught up with their own lives..
they smile they wave and ask u how you doing.
placing me, and asian, here in perth,
means that im a minority in school.
i've learnt many things from it too...
i've learnt to feel how the newbies must feel.. apprehensive? nervous? frightened?
i've learnt to feel how the lonely ones must feel.. unnaccepted? unloved? different?
i've learnt to feel how it feels to be different.. being an asian in a western world..
i've learnt to feel how it is being away from home..
now when i think about my life in cedar back home,
i have been pretty selfish, too comfy and too caught up with my own life to stop and think for others.
' are the china PRC scholars settling alright? do they enjoy school? do they need help with anything?' ' should i have recess with that girl sitting alone over there?' 'maybe i should mix around more with the malays and indians as well...'
if i ever go back to sec school or jc in singapore now, these thoughts may probably come to me. just because i've been in their situation.
if i've never been put here, will i ever spare a thought for how they feel?
will i even know that people out there need more attention and love?
coming here also allowed me to discover my interests and brush up on skills.
like... actually, cooking is fun!
i never really enjoyed home ec. maybe it was the fierce teacher.. maybe it was too theoratical.
but i've been cooking almost everyday this holiday..
i will make a very fine wife i tell you. HEHE
i also like photography and music!
where did that i-hate-going-for-piano-lessons-and-music-lessons-jeannie go?
i dunno.. haha. i still hate piano lessons.
i took up piano lessons for my own enjoyment, in the end it killed my interests bcuz it seemed like im learning so i can pass piano exams.. NO THANKS.
anyway, coming here opened doors for me to perform, not only as a group, but individually as well.
just standing in front of many many eyes already freaks me out.
but God gave me chances to accompany aliya's singing by playing the piano with my half-way-there skills, to sing in large audiences with my barely-audible-silent-whispers
what is there to boast about those 'skills'? nothing at all. embarrassing moments.
they cant even be called skills really. hobby maybe. but im glad im not good.
im thankful for my half-way-there skills.. for if they were perfect and all,
what would i be? bigheaded, complacent, thinking i am the best...forgetting about God?
so im glad that while im still immature in spirit, God has given me plenty and plenty of room for improvement, that i may remain humbled and know that He is the ultimate in charge.

i remember the first few weeks i was here, i kept telling myself..
'God has a reason for placing you here. You may not know it yet, but u will know it some time.'
He has placed me here to mould me and refine me in all kinds of ways, so that from that worthless looking piece of carbon, i'll become more and more like Him, that shiny precious gem. =D

fishy bookmark from OCF just now. it says

' Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish. JOHN 6:9'

remember this: although what you have to offer may seem small, in the hands of the almighty God, it becomes big. like the boy's five small barley loaves and two small fish, in Christ's hands, fed thousands of people till they were full, and 12 baskets of leftovers mind you!

AMAZING. simply amazing x)

i love OCF. i love the people in OCF. it's like home... listening to singlish gives me a sense of homeliness. i wonder what OCF would be like when im in uni and all the old people have graduated and gone back home.. =( i'll be the old one then. x(( that means i've got to cherish the time when im young. HEHEHE. bully the old people more! haha no la. i never bully you guys rite...*bats eyelids and tries to look innocent*

http://inmotion.magnumphotos.com/essays/costlydream.aspx
check out that website.
for singaporeans..actually, for people with maids... they are equal humans, just like us.

JAMES 2:1-7

1My brothers, as believers in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don't show favoritism. 2 Suppose a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and fine clothes, and a poor man in shabby clothes also comes in. 3 If you show special attention to the man wearing fine clothes and say, "Here's a good seat for you," but say to the poor man, "You stand there" or "Sit on the floor by my feet," 4 have you not discriminated among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts?

5 Listen, my dear brothers: Has not God chosen those who are poor in the eyes of the world to be rich in faith and to inherit the kingdom he promised those who love him? 6 But you have insulted the poor. Is it not the rich who are exploiting you? Are they not the ones who are dragging you into court? 7 Are they not the ones who are slandering the noble name of him to whom you belong?

<------for those who have watched "it started with a kiss/ e zuo ju zhi wen" , does this remind you of WAN ZI waving to jiang zhishu desperately? HAHA (but thats vicky)









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1 John 4:18

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

thank you deborah! =D

this week is mugging-study-until-diedie-si-qu-huo-lai-brain-explode-week.

haha as if it would be.

but i have to get down to business.

jay coming to aussie to study! in brisbane. ahha

welcome! have fun!

ok. back to business!

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!

kampateii!!!