the neighbours! haha i miss watching flintstones!!!!
not me.my cousin.

THE ALIENS HAVE LANDED!!!

Another weekend spent in the B/H! 2 more of these and it’s the long awaited long weekend!!! Things are not so bad once you get used to it I guess. They just seem ever so normal. Like how people go “xi2 guan4 jiu4 hao3”… it does make sense. This term we’ve had room changes down our wing. This girl in our wing plays her music really loudly. She lives next to geri, who is one room away from me and I can still hear her music! Im fine with it. Hehe cus I get to hear lots of songs I used to listen to.. songs I haven’t heard for years. It brings back so much memories. Does anyone feel like that? When u suddenly hear this song u used to always listen to, u get reminded of that period of time, the things happening around you… im brought back to the first few years of my secondary school life.. a new home, a new room, new school, new friends, MOELC (third language), long bus rides home, my cedar uniform, new to SF, the period when Avril Lavigne was still quite cool. When I always played her song “Im with you” on repeat. The SARS period, Stacie orrico’s “there’s gotta be more to life”, Hilary Duff’s “Yesterday”, Busted and simple plan, Backstreet Boy’s “guilty”? or is it BLUE. Hahaha. My mood then also comes back together with the song. Fascinated, happy, young, nerdy, shopping, heeren, taking the train everywhere.. sometimes the bus, lots of msn, chatting on the phone, the SF musical “Heaven in my Heart”, my obsession with black shirts (seriously I didn realize how many black tees I had!) neon orange, lime greens, hot pinks… so many memories… it’s such a nice but funny feeling. How young I was then… stupid enough to eat fast food regularly… after having to read Fast Food Nation for English, the discussions in class, I think my mindset’s starting to turn. I smell oil instead of the food sometimes. Back to that period, lots of neoprints, went out with audeedee and her bball friends a lot, yurica and rach teo and jess khong and lelin too, jaslyn teresa xianglin Fiona xiuqi beishan, the third lang clique Jolene me caroline audeedee xiuqi qinyi nadia jinhuey wenyi xingyi cherlia which started to disappear as each year passed… the first class chalet and the most fascinating one as well, where someone actually kicked the lamp head by accident and caused a blackout, where we had coloured hairspray, swimming, bowling, class bonding! How I miss those days.. pushing that trolley thingy, sitting on it to substitute Escape’s roller coasters. First taste of freedom. Haha. Maybe that was what fascinated me.




Dumdeedumdum… MOCKS ARE FINALLY OVER OVER OVER! I jump for joy.. haha. But that means TEE’s round the corner *hyperventilates* I’m rotting in my hole here waiting for Geri do her physics exam because my last paper was ytd! Hehehe. Anyway… next year’s gonna be interesting. No more b/h! more asian food! Muahahha. I’ve decided that packing is my least favourite thing. Activity. Whatever catergory its meant to be under.. I don’t like it. Space constraints time constraints.. grr. N I have so much stuff its unbelievable. Bleah. I love holidays. Haha they smell so good. xD. Its been so long since I last used the internet properly. Haha. But its not that bad actually. Aha. Lalalala. That’s it for now. Till then! Toodles!

this is the way you left me

im not pretending

no hope no love no glory

no happy ending

this is the way that we love

like its forever

and live the rest of our lives

but not together

blablabla. this song is so sad. but its such a pretty tune. tho the words dont really relate to my life in anyway, its my current fav.EHEH.

sigh. weekend's ending. back to school and all.but hey its not too bad... =)

seems like a miserable year... maybe its my mood swing. and all the changes..

i'll make it lovely n exciting just wait and see.

sigh. somehow i still feel i prefer last year. maybe its the stress. maybe its the not going to ocf. complaining wont bring me anywhere........... bleah

so many thoughts but i dont know where to start so i wont bother trying. gonna watch 'ROCK SCHOOL'

say hello to my awesome 14 years friend qinyi lim. she is very nice to nice people like me. HAHA. she gave me bak kwa when she used to work in bak kwa shop and she always sends me off when i go back to perth together with some 1724 champs and my family. we were in the same pri school and were classmates in P5 P6 and were in the same 3rd lang class in sec sch. on that note, i really dont remember much bout 3rd lang other than the rapidly shrinking class size as the year progressed. oh wells. HELLO QINYI! hahaha im proud to have u as my super AWESOME x10000000000 14 yrs friend! x)

and the long awaited long weekend is here again but it wont be that long.
just when i got really excited over blogposting sites being unblocked, they blocked it again. quite annoying, but in a way it is to my advantage. keeps me distraction free!
so yes. had an awesome dinner in a 5 star hotel (yeah right) ahha we went to the supermarket to get some cooked food. green chicken curry beef rendang dahl potatoes. yumm.
being deprived of internet, geri n i had our eyes glued onto the screen for quite a while...
was free dress in school today n it's the most spectacular thing ever. since it was bookweek we had to dress up as a storybook character. the yr 12s were dressed in where's wally outfits. my link teacher was willy wonka and he really did look like willy wonka plus he was giving away chocos and lollies it just freaks me out. my english teacher was winnie the pooh! there were some alices in wonderland, pigs, cats, many harry potters.... cutest school day! unfortunately i forgot my camera. was rushing for band prac which didnt last really long cus of poor turnout but anyhows...
had interhouse dance on wednesday night. its my 2nd and last interhouse dance! devo... had good fun n meaghan did a fantastic job with all the choreographies as the dance captain.
only a few weeks till mocks. this thought sends shivers down my spine but never enough to smack my bum and get me going all motivated. right now im just tired out. soon band will stop. big band will stop. choirs will stop. dance has stopped. so i guess i'll well be in the mood. hopefully. if only they could turn off the tap of work to do... rah.
im excited because i can finally attend OCF after a million years! yay.

first you're loved, then you're missed, then you're forgotten. poof. just like how chocolate becomes coco crunch. but oh wells. coco crunch is good. just full of emptiness. feels too long since i've had a good talk with a close friend that i start to wonder whether i still have one. like a boat drifting away from the fleet. aimless? dragged? for the better? for the worse? does anyone care? other boats just carry on their journey sailing, sailing. who cares?

sometimes the smallest thing someone does/doesnt do annoys me, hurts me, disturbs me, put doubts in me, but who am i to judge? how do things get better if i continue being so selfish and self centred the whole time? uhoo! wake up call.

what i've been up to this week. nerding. nerding. extra nerding
something i miss. tauhui. and my friend: kristi in the tauhui bowl. that's why she's good friends with me. i hav my magic lamp or bottle while she has her tauhui bowl.
sometimes being noisy is not that bad i guess... xD
the butterfly and the flower. how cute. how cute.
keith's farewell lunch with the BS group which i havent had BS with for 72million years

comparing the lengths of our tongue.. ya i win.
trinnie,jeannie,corinnie hehe i look so angelic standing between the black dresses
toilets are the best inventions. u can rest like nikita (sitting down under hannah banana's arm), wash hands like hannahbanana, scratch your forehead like geri (haha ok la do your hair), or what everyone normally does.. TAKE PHOTOS! TAKE TAKE
or you can scratch your mouth like geri, kiss the air like nikita, or belt out your favourite opera in your most opera-est stance.
on the way back from the rivercruise CAPTAIN COOK

the busiest week of my whole entire month is over! WEE-OOOH!

imagine this..

monday: math test before school, drum lesson during school, cantate(choir) after school

tuesday: voice lesson before school, dance after school, band after dance

wed: the only free day! STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!! why? 2 tests the next day and oral presentation the day after!

thurs:big band before school, music test, physical science test, chorale(choir) after school

friday: dance before school, oral presentation, boarders' ball

oh my goodness. at the beginning i was so stressed. i thought i was going to die (no, not literally)

but i felt like just pushing everything aside and go: OK! I GIVE UP!

but then after much prayer, i knew i just had to do my best and let God do the rest!

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you."

Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

although quite overused that sometimes i get numb to the message their trying to present to me, these 2 verses kept me going, knowing that MY GOD IS SO GREAT, SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY, THERES NOTHING MY GOD CANNOT DO! FOR YOU! i was again reminded that life is so full of challenges. if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it! =D so yes, everyone, I SURVIVED! oleh oleh oleh!

its quite shocking honestly, studying so much is really no good for your social life. whenever i had free time, i would be studying for my science test or music test or rushing on my english oral, isolating myself in the dear little library, or my room, or one corner of the band rehearsal room. whenever someone enters me room, guess what i will be doing? surprise surprise! working or studying! and so i have no time to entertain them and they leave after a few brief seconds since i've got my nose stuck in my work.

boarders ball last night wasnt as fun as last year's. i think the best so far was the MLC international students' social. i knew and like most of the songs. last night... i think u can actually count the songs that i know with one hand. haha. but still, it wasnt too bad. i always enjoyed the getting ready bit the most anyway. i like helping people do their makeup whether they like it or not, doing their hair.. haah makes me feel like some professional i dunno what.

so yes. this wednesday im watching the school production: GREASE lightning!

the wednesday after, i've got the dreaded Senior Recital Night and many more things that follow.

6 weeks more to mocks. time really flies. its scary...

before i know it, TEE will be here!

3 more weeks to mid term break! oleh oleh oleh!

although its just a long weekend... I HAVENT BEEN OUT OF THE BOARDING HOUSE (overnight) for ages! ok just 2 weeks but still! and GUESS WHAT! i will be able to go to OCF then! YAY YAY YAY!

i will save the world!
roses from judy the "florist"
the nerdy "scientist" jeannie and meant to be nerdy but not nerdy "scientist" kristi
nerdy "scientist" jeannie and miss universe aka birthday girl glennabanana!
the noisy jailbirds Raymond and Lenard with noisy policeman Will

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so i'm back to school again.


nose back into books again.


won't be able to go out for OCF and weekends till i don't know when.


yea how i love it..


but i guess it's a blessing in disguise.. very very big disguise.


this term's a pretty busy one for me anyway...


boarder's ball next friday


watching the school's GREASE production


senior recital night


multicultural assembly


hale governors' concert


interhouse dance


capaf


interhouse singing


mock exams


UWA expo


Curtin open day


busy busy busy. so i guess i'll just wait till TEE's over (yea like nov 19!??!?!?)

i feel bad for being so grumpy these few days but i feel so stereotyped.
its so annoying. just because i hang out with a very hardworking person im seen as a lazy-easily-get-distracted bum. ok lor. anything lor. go on stereotyping. i just decided i wont care. why should i care. if i am a bum, i shall unbum myself. if i am not, then i'll continue not being a bum.
bleagh.
i'll live happily in the boarding house doing nothing but study and work and eat and sleep.
i've got my own priorities and just because someone thinks that something else should be my priority doesnt mean that it will automatically become my priority.
what if you study very hard for your future and care about nothing but studies and before you reach the future that you were studying very hard for, u suddenly die? and all u can be proud of is that u successfully studied very hard without distraction.
not because you managed to make sad people smile
not because you helped someone
not because you have been a great friend/a listening ear
not because you have created an impact in the world.
you had no time to do that because you were busy studying for your future and you dont want to be disappointed about that.
"live like there's no tomorrow" if i knew there was no tomorrow, i would find something more meaningful than studying. but that doesnt mean i dont think its important!!!
it is important of course! but its not the most important thing in the world!

ok enough of my rantings.

emo post. dont read.

im so sad

im so sad to go

im so sad to go back

im so sad to go back to school

im so sad to go back to school to do homework

i havent even unpacked my luggage and i need to start packing.

outside i hear the mosquitobuster i see the white smoke and the stench of it hits me bad.

its rather disgusting. ok very. like eew.

so back to my emo post...

like how i was telling everyone in school, i would enjoy my hols even more than last time cus i havent been back for ages. thats exactly how i feel right now. but i never thought about how bad it would be when it comes to leaving the place. (oh my gosh the mosquito buster thing is making me suffocate..) my favourite churchmates, ex-schoolmates, balletmates, family...

made my holiday so enjoyable and unknowingly made it more difficult for me to leave...

*turning point*

hahahhaha im not emo anymore! hehehe. i think God just knocked my head and i was reminded.. IM COMING BACK IN NOVEMBER! hahahha.

yeah i know u must be thinking i am weird. yes go on im used to it. hhaha weird then weird lor! just because u cant be weird and cool at the same time doesnt mean u have to be jealous you know. ahahha. ok ok stop knocking your head against the wall.. i stop i stop. =p

but seriously, thank you all of u for making my holiday so pleasant and AWWWEESOME and exciting. u are my favourites! =D

keep thinking of me! AHAHHAHAAH

<3

A DEDICATION TO:

you better read it from top to bottom dont anyhow skipskip k! i'll giv u comprehension test!

oh thats shu being her usual violent self. hahhaha always making me cry and have stomachache from laughing too much. SIAOTINGTONG.we went to watch a movie together! i remember it was willy wonka!!
airport...
feather earrings! yayy!

an early happy birthday to Rambu aka liming ! a snapshot of a touching moment! mingming and shushu
another touching moment! nienie and teoteo
shuen has successfully hypnotised herself. oh my she hypnotised gerri into thinking she's a tree as well!!
I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED THE WAFFLE WASNT CLOVER SHAPED! IT WAS WHEN I SAW IT IN THE MENU!! but its still yummy =p

this is the thinking stance. position your hands this way to maximise your brain power. try it! it works. ahhaha
yay happy birthdayy!!!
hahaha stupid shuen.. can u believe she called a pigeon a chicken! GASPS! the next jessica simpson! ahaha
teoteo's hand holds the phone every second... haha. did i hear someone say NICKY!? =P

time flies when ur enjoying urself most...

ive been keeping myself rilli occupied these few days... meeting up with friends, reminiscing bout the good ol' days... haah. having fun..

but now im approaching the end of the rainbow. its not a pot of gold i see... it is clearly a big white shiny stinky toilet bowl thats unflushed. school,homework,assignments,exams... yuck.

i dont know why.. but ive been so pessimistic n bitter this year. so critical and unloving..maybe cus my walk with God hasnt been that consistent n strong anymore. im so much less motivated to do anything. walking around with shuen ytd, we were recalling how sec3 was our fav happiest yr. although we didnt go out to gaigai as much, i think the company i was in helped me with my walk of faith, like liming said, we exchanged little notes just to show our care n concern.. and occassionally a random "gundu"- i have no idea why.. but its all for the sake of laughter peace n joy...

i guess there were a few occassional petty quarrels... but it was one of my happiest years in sec school. SEC3! these people made school so bearable and exciting. they make me like to go to school. i miss the saying grace together at mealtimes, trying to spend as much time as a group as possible, being stupid, writing notes on post its, our lifelong dream of going to sentosa together...not yet fulfilled. ahah. doing the silliest stuff... SIGH. the good ol' days. brings not only a smile to my face, but giggles n laughs as well.

i was reading letters from friends that ive kept in a box... so many memories, how i wish i could relive those funny moments again and again. if only life was a tape recording, rewind it to undo your mistakes, fast forward to skip those silly challenges and awkward moments, replay to live your favourite periods of your lives. but isnt it because of this that make us appreciate life more? being unable to go back to the past, that's what makes memories so precious. replaying your life will only make u take it for granted, when the novelty wears off, you wont feel that those moments were that great after all.

sometimes it feels so difficult to keep moving forward and leaving behind what u love, although aware that there might be happier times ahead, it feels so much more comfortable to stick with what you know, what you've grown to live with, what you've grown to love and has become a part of your life. y move on when u can just stay like that forever.. press that pause button... maybe after a while life will become stagnant i guess. i dont really know y. but most of the time its for the better... God didnt plan you life for nothing! :) the letters and cards i read kept reminding me about God's divine plan for me in Perth. i don't really know it yet, but i hope i've been helpful in contributing to that plan... although we've all moved on, walking on different paths, think of them as parallel roads. we're still side by side =D sounds rather corny but our friendship will withstand all the "wind blow rain beat"-(go figure). although we dont get to meet as often, im always thinking of you guys. you left me with a lovely memory in secondary school... trying to choreograph 3 dances in one day, for the good times to keep it simple. and the love. =))

always remember i'll stand by you, walking on that road parallel to yours. when u are weary, i'll whip out my cowboy lasso from my pocket and drag you along the road that's parallel to mine until your butts are sore and u decide to start walking again. quoted from liming: BEST BUTTs forever. my beloved stupid silly kickass clovertingtongs. the fairy the pixie the guardian of sun moon and stars the angel. hahahaha lets hit the play button with much enthusiasm, dance to life's music, as we draw nearer and nearer to God's marvellous plans for us. until we meet again to do the dance. the chicken dance. next tuesday? i'll try ok!