i was doing my work and then suddenly...

i started to miss my friends in Singapore!

i havent been a very good friend tho..

i havent been making an effort to keep in touch with them to ask them how they're going and stuff.

i've just been busy with my own matters the whole time i've been in Perth.

i need to start thinking about others and placing them before myself!!

so how are u my dearest friends?

hello qinyi my 14 years friend =)

have you been nice? =D im actually quite happy because im making the extra effort to be nice and patient and i can tell the difference.. it feels really good! i'll be praying for you my dear friend! and also i hope your tongue will recover soon so u can eat more good food instead of suffering with liquid-ish type ones! LOVE!

hihi nicoletham my pri sch fairy best friend =))

how's jc been treating u? i havent talked to you about my time at ur dad's student care.. it was really enjoyable and the kids are so cute although many a times i get stressed when they refuse to learn their spelling hahaha. anyway i hope u will recover frm the msn-lags-com phobia and download msn n then i can communicate with u more easily xP stop being an anti-social ok! hahahaha. i miss the times we left class to go eat in the toilet, or turned up late to supp lessons because we were solving mysteries at the computer kiosk! and doing silly catwalks across the corridors! and also just sitting down to talk till our butts get sore! hope you are well! HUGSS!

hihi audeedeechanmalichan my sec sch bestie/fellow rich taitai neighbour/ baichi

recently u have been posting vague blogposts and i havent got the chance to talk to u online yet! how are u audeedee? ur face is still as red as ever.. and i met someone in uni who also has sensitive skin and i think its worse than yours! i was only writing on her arm with a blue pen and the nxt thing i know, the words looked EMBOSSED and highlighted with pink!?!?! anyway, i want to go to ur house and eat ikan bilis! haha and tapioca chips! so rmbr to stock up ok! =D and my sense of direction is improving recently.. so one day i'll find my way to your house!!! oleh! i miss our LC days where we made up so many weird terms to replace other words.. heatwave, hydrocephalus, yiguaiyiguai, telephone... hahaha nice vocabulary! and visitin macs for 25cents ice cream or shaker fries. and tuition.. where we get tea eggs (HEH) and more ikan bilis (HEHE) and so much more food hahaha. and then mashed potato or mr softee frm 7eleven. thanks for always waiting with me till the bus arrives =) n i rmbr u had a bad influence on me.. when u felt like pangsai-ing, u passed that feeling to me! and we always seem to be talking rubbish but oh wells! I STILL LOVE YOU! x)

hello dear sticker/copycat/prissybutnotafool =D

how r u! i havent talked to u for so long!!! n i think i told u.. i accidentally deleted the photos we took when we met up.. ='( i miss choir practices and ballet and sec1&2 class chalet plus the journeys in between ^.^ i enjoy talking to u so much so much! i was watching our 'mtv's where u 'played' the 'drums' and 'guitar'.. oh my goodness u r the funniest la! how is Xctry and touch rug and odac! so busy ah u! but seriously Xctry is sooo boring. ahhahha. i mean u just run.. n run.... n run somemore n run outta breath but thats about it. hahaha but im so proud of u.. so versatile and flexible like rubber! how is ballet? so r u stayin with crestar? it would be kinda sad to come back n realise noone's in crestar! it gets so difficult to come together as we all grow and go our different ways =( but im always excited to see u sticker because i know we'll nv run out of things to talk to =D MWAH!

hihi clover! =) shushu, gerteo, rambutan ;)

shushu: i talked to u in the prev post already la but anyways... HI SHUSHU! xD wo ai ni!

gerteo: hi teoteoteo hows u n ur bf? =D havent been talking to u much too hav i.. haha haii but im still reading ur blog HEHE u better watch out! =P

rambutan: ok la u are mingming and i love u! dont keep stressing urself so much in school ley. i mean its good to be achieving but make sure u r enjoying the process ok! and eat properly! i hope i can email u soon! =D mwamwamwamwamwa!

my eyelids are seriously shutting. GOODNIGHT FRIENDS =))

one sunday, kristi n i decided on a camwhore session with a monkey she recently kidnapped for the weekend from josiah's car during our study break...the photos were posted on facebook and the comments cracked me up. HAHA



i used to find my identity as a dancer because i had ballet lessons
i used to find my identity as a muso because i joined band in high school and played the piano and did music in high school
i used to find my identity as a chorister because i joined choir n sec n high school
i used to find my identity as a sporty monkey because i was in track in primary school
i used to find my identity as a PL lite because i came from PL primary
i used to find my identity as a cedarian because i came from cedar sec
i used to find my identity as part of the "TWINS" gang because we hung out everyday from p1-p3
i used to find my identity as a SMAGS boarder because i experienced the recess dash and lack of cash, the sunday roast, vegemite on toast, the funny rice wasn much of a surprise...
i used to find my identity as part of Clover as they were a gigantic part of my life right before i left for perth and now n then i still find myself reminiscing n realising they've gone on n made new cliques n it seemed like i was left behind.
i used to find my identity in friendships i made. but what exactly happens when they start to fade?

all that's left is this boring, plain, normal, worse than normal, shy, quiet, selfish, self-obsessed and lost thing.

SHUSHUSHUSHUSHUSHUSHUEN! xD
im so glad i talked to u today! =) u r v a special friend! u give me tummyaches! u make me laugh till my mouth's sore and dry but we get so high =) u were such a great influence on me.. encouraging me to be closer to God, to pray more, depend entirely on God, to read the bible more basically just everything more! my happiest days are still those sec3 days where we "sing to the Lord I Love You" and danced on chairs, played catching around the pillar and reversed roles whenever. when we dreamed n wished for sentosa which we still haven gone together up till now! when i laugh at ur "messy look". when u da bao-ed fried bee hoon from ur house downstairs for us to eat in school, tryin to ignore the weird looks ppl gave us. where i learned the thumbs up so other ppl can say grace, where we often sat outside the class to pray with so many other classmates. when we met up n tried to set up The Fishermen. when we choreographed a weird dance to Dont Phunk With My Heart and Dare You To Move. When we celebrated ur bday n were freaked out by ur grumpiness at first HAHA. when we went to watch Oompa Loompas on national day eve n ur skirt was delicately secured by a pathetic safety pin which threatened to fall out ever so often. aah. at least i know im not reminiscing alone, that u too are stuck in the clover times. cheers my fellow silly clown! cant wait to see u soon <3<3<3

PS. although subject appears to be violent in visual images, she is actually quite alright in real life.

KRISTI!!!
hahaha u look like a tomato and a mouse at the same time in this photo! haha don't worry bout tmr =D do ur best n let God do the rest! rmbr that ur main purpose is to praise n worship God so don't let other stuff hinder you from doing that! You'll be fine and alive! hahaha. i miss our oval walks n talks in smags! and the sneaking from room to room past bedtime.. You have also been such a blessing. you really lent me ur shoulder to cry on when i was homesick and been a good listening ear, also sharing in all the laughter and silly antics.. like this one right here.. ahhah THANKS FOR EVERYTHING =D MWAH!

back to identity, while some come n go, there's always the few that stay with u for life.

one day, i'll lose my identity as a student

one day, i'll find my identity as an occupational therapist hopefully, who knows?

but its time to take up that part time casual cross carrying task to a full time lifetime job. I want to make that my main identity! MY IDENTITY IS FOUND IN CHRIST!

=D

HELLO QINYI MY FRIEND!!! =)

i'm glad God gave me a friend like you!

ITS TIME TO BE NICE!

JIAYOU!! =D

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!

sometimes i wish..........

sometimes i wish i wasnt so shallow

sometimes i wish i could be more mature and post more meaningful things up here

sometimes i wish i would be more appreciative of what i have and stop complaining

sometimes i wish i wouldn't be so self-centred and start sparing a thought for others

sometimes i wish i could be a better friend

sometimes i wish i would stop procrastinating

sometimes i wish i could be more dependent on God and walk closer with him

sometimes i wish i could be more sensitive

sometimes i wish i could be more patient

sometimes i wish i would not be so self conscious

sometimes i wish i would stop being so attention seeking and self-obsessed

sometimes i wish i was not so weird

sometimes i wish i would stop wasting time

sometimes i wish i would not be so judgemental

sometimes i wish i would not be so superficial

sometimes i wish i could be more generous and thoughtful

sometimes i wish i could be organised and on top of my work

sometimes i wish i could prioritise and be disciplined

sometimes i wish i would not be so petty and get annoyed easily

sometimes i wish i weren't so mean

sometimes i wish i would not be such a jealous person

sometimes i wish i wasn't so stupid

sometimes i wish i would be nicer

sometimes i wish i was more positive

sometimes i wish i would stop being so critical

sometimes i wish i could give in more

sometimes i wish, sometimes i wish

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sometimes i wish i would stop wishing and actually start fulfilling them.

i have a habit of being online when im not meant to.. my form of procrastination i suppose. bloghopping and msn chats, facebooking, checking out ppl's photos... im always so amazed by a few people though. the things they write in their blogs.. so meaningful, sometimes profound, allowing me to learn something each time i read it, be it about God or life in general. and then i start to think what actually is their brain made of... no i dont actually. but its so cool how mature these people are and its actually difficult to imagine myself ever reaching that stage of maturity ever in my lifetime (even though those people are around their 20s). haaiiya! i feel so !#*)(%$)#&()%*#($TGJ(#$!!!!!!!!!! I DONT KNOW! what have i been doing with my life!?!?!?

i've been such a lukewarm christian! D:

taking a break.....

i am just one person out of the many staying in east perth,

east perth is just one suburb out of the many in western australia,

western australia is just one state out of the many in australia,

australia is just one country out of the many on earth,

the earth is just one planet out of the many in the solar system,

the solar system is just one out of many in the milky way,

the milky way is just one galaxy out of the many in the universe,

the universe is so so so so so soooo huge that i really dont know much about it.

but it easily fits into the palm of God's hand.

and even though we appear so minute and insignificant, even negligible in comparison to the size of the whole universe which God has created, He still treats us as His precious children. He loves us more than we can imagine. He sent His only son Jesus Christ, whom He loved, as a sacrifice for our sins. So that we do not have to suffer the consequences of our own sins, but are able to look forward to eternal life with our Father in heaven..

so often this story of salvation is told and retold. so often it just entered through one ear and left through the other. i dont wanna become numb to God......

we are SO small

GOD IS SO BIG, SO PERFECT, SO MAGNIFICENT

and yet he chooses to love us, sinners, unworthy beings.

thank you Lord.

its been a long while. but i find myself feeling guilty again. or rather, still feeling guilty. so again, im sorry. hope u r happy =)
<3 jeannie

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close

So close
And still so far

Enchanted, So Close by Alan Menken, Jon Mclaughin

i've been spending much time listening to good music. =) they are so beautiful.. im now in the mood for nice old songs.. like moonriver! ah thank God for music! it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside..

check out my favourite website........zzz

say hello to the biggest nerd on earth!

and at the same time, the biggest procrastinator!

just came here to announce to anyone who's interested to know...

IM ALIVE! woohoo...

but im such a loser.. i took one whole week all focused on one stupid reading from one stupid unit just to finish a stupid summary of it. how am i going to survive the stupid semester if i am going to spend each week strangling myself to read the texts from just that unit and do nothing about my other units!? esp humaan biioooooo-oh no....................................

positive positive positive! =D

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

ok thus i end my complaints. i have things to give thanks for! =Dthank God for pretty scenery, the sky which keeps changing colour and never fails to make me go WOW WOW WOW cus its so grand and majestic..

thank God for a good timetable where i have wednesdays off (except on fieldwork days) and i have time in between to catch up on my sleep in the library while i catch up on huBio at the same time hurhurhur.thank God for the house in which we are staying in because its like the VIP seat to watch fireworks. i mean... right at your doorstep?? at first i thought it was gunshots and geri thought it was bombs and we looked out the window n saw red flashes of light and heard car alarms going off. somehow we decided it was fireworks so we opened the door and it was really really WOWIFYING.

thank God for these two people plus many other people who made this year so much easier. the transport, the meals, the laughter, the help with human bio, the concern, the help with other stuff, the company, the tv shows.. plus the discounts we get at il gelato when someone is a guild member hehehe. and on tuesday after campus prayer meet, after spaghetti by you yan, kristi esther geri and i headed to super subi and had super yummilicious crepes in il gelato... topped with yummy ice cream...............crunchy nougat crepe with ferrero rocher icecreamsome berry crepe with some berry yoghurt icecream... YUMYUMYUMYUMYUMYUMi thank God for wednesday offs when i got to visit uwa, caught up with friends =D went swimming, eating, prayermeet, studying... say hi to shonashah n hannahbanana! eating hannah's healthy crackers..and thank God for family =D they're coming this sunday hiphooray!quote of the day: "the toilet is over there!"