did i say something wrong?

sometimes i feel like a kindie kid on the first day of school

arms hugging mum's legs, hiding my face in her thigh

pulling her away from the school gate with all my might and just wanting to go home.

sometimes i feel like a loner/loser who's forgotten the skills to start n maintain conversations.

like the most boring person to ever step foot on earth

like im invisible or horribly minute

i cant remember how it was when i was loud crazy caring confident happy loving loved

i dont know how come D:

i look at the sea of faces, all familiar..

but yet somehow, so distant and foreign

i cant help but compare myself to those around

and wonder how they get along with people so easily

wonder how come i cant be like them

n y im so easily irritable

simple things seem to be getting more difficult.. maybe i have a degenerating brain.

and i've forgotten to let God sit on the throne of my life