this is how much power schoolwork has over me.

perth is windy. super windy right now.

it seems as though monsters are throwing themselves at my windows.

if i had no assignment to do, i would be outside, tying myself to pieces of cardboard and attempting to fly.

with someone.

because if you do it by yourself, people say you have a problem

but if you do it with your friend, people say you're having fun

although i would think that over the years, i've grown to accept doing things alone and being less conscious of what i think people think of me, im not ready to look like a loony oversized chicken by myself. yet.

with more assignments and crazy deadlines to meet, maybe soon.

but then again its not all bad. it's during these times i have a reason to stay home in bad weather, i get txt msgs and calls from sara to encourage me on. i get msn msgs from haniksha to tell me i can do it. i get alanna sitting next to me in izone making me laugh at her silliness. i get car rides and catch up chit chats and snacks (if she brings any) from christie. i get to smile at bek's forever-amused-and-happy greetings. i get a doughnut from kelvin who's so professional at getting it from the free breakfast table. i get to huddle with kate cus its cold. i get to listen to howard's attempts at making cheesecake and hoping that one day he'll actually bring something for me to eat. i get to indulge in european hot choc. i get to eat 2 for 1 pasta with garlic bread and play connect the dots and figure out which strand of pasta leads to chef-i-duno-whats-his-name with sara and discuss how they cooked the pasta (conclusion: they dipped it in butter and sprinkled ham pieces on it) and drink $1 milkshakes.

i think about the months of dreading uni at the end of year 12, afraid i wouldn't make any friends and bombarding glenna with questions here there everywhere and get freaked out and dread uni even more..and i look at it now... and i realise how blessed i am indeed :)

and thats just a piece of ham out of the whole plate of pasta of blessings that God has showered upon me.

mm.. yummy