sometimes its so sad.. when i talk to a friend i used to be close to, knowing we have drifted apart, but he/she doesn't seem to care... sometimes i feel as though i've forgotten how to make friends, forgotten how strangers can become close friends, forgotten how my close friends became my close friends.. and thus being able to make new friends but knowing that we'll never become close friends.

but sometimes my stomach goes funny, and my heart feels warm and fuzzy, when i talk to those far far away but close to my heart, knowing that they still care, and making me feel that im actually not that far away. or when new friendships are made and i just know that God will work in it and make it grow and grow.

a guest speaker came to speak at our foundations of ot lecture today. she spoke of her bad experiences with occupational therapists while recovering from stroke and what we should not do.

what annoyed her was how the OTs were sympathetic when she wanted them to be empathetic and treat her like a normal smart 20 year old instead of a stroke patient. "the only difference between you and the client is bad luck". and really, that's it. aren't they just like one of us? i feel so guilty for looking at people with disabilities and feeling sorry for them. now im starting to get worried that i'll end up becoming one of those OT's that talk to the patients as if they're stupid, when really, many of them are much smarter than i am. how offended would you be if it was you in their position? from being treated normally like any other person to being felt sorry for, with people thinking that u can't do much, all overnight because of a stroke or an accident. with just the presence of a wheelchair would already bring all eyes to you when all the difference there is between the person on the wheelchair and people watching, is bad luck. i really really hope i wont offend anyone when i start working! GOD BLESS ME!!!!!!!!

today is.. the muffin day! the muffin day! the muffin day!

ongtingtong's house is on campus and it is the coolest! its really like a house! not like boarding house or college! so homely! and she shares it with 5 other people from curtin. her housemate did that thing on the wall. it's made up of A4 sized paper! how cool is that! n i think that dinosaur is that dinosaur..

this is so scary......the bakers: sara ong ting tong, christie goh yo yo and me!it was just pre-mix HEHE but it was still good kay!

am i living the life God wants me to?

bs@1724 yesterday talked about God's test for Abraham.
God told Abraham to use his only son, Isaac, whom he loved dearly (and he only had Isaac when he was finally 100 years old mind you!!), as the sacrifice for the offering.

WILL YOU DO THAT IF GOD ASKED YOU TO?

Although Abraham loved his son soooooo much (plus he only had Isaac when he was 100 years old), and although it would have been so much pain to sacrifice his son, Abraham trusted in God. He trusted that God will keep His promise of many descendants even when what he was offering was his ONE AND ONLY son whom he only had when he was 100 years old.. and so before he really killed Isaac, God's messenger came to stop him and God had already provided a lamb for Abraham which he then used as a sacrifice. Abraham has passed the test!

more often than not, i let my own selfish desires get the better of me. i forget about obeying God and forget about living my life as a worship for God. Abraham showed true obedience and trust in God, willing to even sacrifice his own son, but i struggle with even the smallest matters like tithing one tenth consistently.Obviously, I have a long way to go...

OBEDIENCE! TRUST! GOD IS IN CONTROL!