these days, waiting for my school email inbox to load feels similar to sitting in the cinema watching a horror movie... the suspense and uncertainty of events about to unfold makes your heart thump faster and faster and almost knocks you out.

it kicks in when you first log into the school account and notice a new message in your inbox. "what can it be? results? a notice saying that you have failed your unit? a fine?" only expecting the worse and bracing yourself for the blow of terrible news, you CLICK and wait for the inbox to upload. it is this time where the theme music from Alfred Hitchcock's PSYCHO drills itself into your head. high-pitched, hair-raising and ear-piercing, it brings on the possibility of an anxiety attack as you wait... and wait.. and freak out and wait.. and because the internet's a bit slow, you wait some more.. and bits of the screen starts appearing, you start to feel its hard to breathe...

then the email appears.. sometimes it's relief, sometimes it's an anti-climax (like an email that's not school related), sometimes it is the worst case scenario as you've expected. but unlike during the horror movie where you scream and pass out at the sight of the monstrous creature, you just get on with it.

God's holding your hand and there's nothing that He can't handle. Nothing happens without God's permission and if God brings you to it, have faith that He will bring you through it. Maybe He has something installed for you in this phase of life. a purpose, a lesson, a time for His glory to be revealed. Not something you'd have expected, but this is just one of life's surprises, choose the way you'd want to respond to them. Thankful, humble and gracious, or devastated, depressed and hopeless?

+++ don't forget your real purpose on earth!

Matthew 28

16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."