maybe its the adolescence-trying-to-be-cool-phase

i blame myself for not knowing how to instruct in love
i blame myself for closing a blind eye
i blame myself for being incapable of teaching obedience

you probably think nothing of it, but it is big to me because i know it doesn't please God and i don't know how to tell you. you might just see me as another fuddy duddy naggy waggy if i had anything to say. and right now all i can do is stop talking and think.. and continue the blame..

God, how do i do this? where do i start? what do i say? God, reveal yourself so she may know.