when you're not feeling well, when your stomach's churning and you really need comforting... look out for this... slide down the rainbow.. and there it is.. the toilet bowl all ready for you... hahaha

time check 5.17am. i cant sleep!! >:( mebbe its the coffee grande ice cream at uncle joseph's or the cup of coffee at uncle fong's... or the maltesers and kitkats i had in the morning.. or its the feeling that i dont need to wake up early to study tomorrow. hehehe. I DONT KNOW. maybe i just miss the internet too much.

i miss the times when we were young and innocent (im still so innocent but innocent sounded nice with young so i put it there =p) i miss the times when all we had to worry about was if the hopscotch thing was 'chopped' by other people.. or your spelling and dictation and mental sums and ting xie were under 10/10... i used to do so well in school... in primary school. especially p1,2 and 3. i cant believe its been 10 years.... 10 WHOLE YEARS! i did my work and studying ever so diligently to please my parents. they always said i don't have to buy them birthday presents. i just have to do well in school and that would be the best present. "...but my exam is not on your birthday!" hmm.. i was rather stupid at the same time aye...
i dont know since when.. but it was quite clear when i entered secondary school i wasn't as motivated... i cried the first time i did badly for a test or exam and was quite amused my parents didnt look angry at all. my results continued plummetting nonetheless. hmmm. interesting.

i miss being in sec 1.. being in a new school.. getting lost even though it wasn't big at all.. thank God jolene was in my class.. she was like my compass! i miss the class enthusiasm, the childish streak still in us, before the stress came n drowned us.

my goodness the sun is actually rising. its 5.38am

I WANNA BE YOUNG AGAIN!

i miss blowing out people's birthday candles for them. i think i have a talent for blowing them out in a breath. maybe its the choir exercises...

ahh.. those were the days...

...when i carried the popular plastic bag around, reading chinese books with hanyu pinyin. maybe that's y i was smart when i was small.. i read so much. lalala

y isnt there anyone online...

SIGH.

i dont know what's this feeling... maybe its the "i think its bedtime" mood setting in.. good morning/night i let u choose...

oleh oleh, its a wonderful day!
exams no more and it's time for singapore!
eating chilling and shopping and more
jump for joy n drop dead on the floor!
happy happy joyful joyful
i think this rhyming thing is quite fun and quite cool

vicki did my nails today:bright pink and bright blue
how excited i am for summer hols, u wouldn have a single clue
the long awaited plane trip to the place i call home
in the pool i'll take a dip and the whole of compass point i'll comb
my dear friends and family i've missed so much, i just can't wait to return!
so many stories to tell, so much calories to be burnt
talking, haircuts, shopping, egg tarts,
jogging, dancing, singing, queuing
swimming, beaching, tanning, screaming
hugging, kissing, kicking, punching
so much laughter so much fun.
but right now i've got to run.
i've got no more brainpower to try to rhyme
so yeah. byebye poem!

i heard a song this guy made up on the radio..
its so funny... its this song that he sings for his children on halloween when we dresses up as...

THE PUMPKIN MAN!
I'm.. the pumpkin man, the pumpkin man!
I bring all the candy that I can.
I'm not scary, I'm not mean,
I only come on halloween,
I'm the pumpkin maaaaann!
I WANNA BE YOUR BEST FRIEND!

hahaha how cool is it. i love it!

the time is here again..

where we leave our beautiful wall ..

where we leave our beautiful staircase..
and disappear from the face of the earth, back to 'prison', nose to books 24/7.
exciting exciting. see you again in november, when TEE's over.
by then i will be jumping for joy.
yayness.

LITTLE KIDS ARE SO CUTE THEY MAKE MY HEART MELT!!!
thank God for kings club! cant wait for tomorrow! WHEE!

saturday out in the city.. this is the chinese new year tree! haha
some cool expensive touch and see but too expensive to buy stuff shop.
us and o0ur pork friends
lovelove sunnies from the touch and see but too expensive to pay money shop
a random pizza photo from the isc yr 12 farewell.. YUMM

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10. Not only he did it from 1 to 10, he did it backward from 10 back to 1.This is what he came up with..... 1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away. 10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. I called my boss and told him I was 6. He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1.

it's a beautiful day today. =) God has blessed me many many. too many that i can't use the word 'many' but 'much'.

thank God that although the train was down n i kinda got lost again, i managed to reach school on time. thank God for pizzas and cakes. thank God for Ms Groom who came to tell me she was impressed with the written part of my media exam. this meant so much to me and made me so happy the rest of the day because IM SO BAD AT MEDIA.. ESPECIALLY THE WRITTEN BIT. thank God for Lauren and Chantelle who sat beside me as they brought chips and twisties hehe. thank God that the bus driver let me take a free ride to the city from school (which saved me the trouble of taking a bus to Stirling train stn and taking a train to the city) which also meant the ride home was free! thank God that the bus driver was so friendly. thank God for the lady who sat beside me on the CAT. SHE SAID MY BAG WAS VERY NICE. hahah. thank God that geri's mum is here to fatten us up although i dont really need fattening up but once in a while... GOOD FOOD can't be avoided. heheh. THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING! =) n thank God for Geri who's cooking a 3 course meal tonight. hahahaha

WITH ALL I AM

Into Your hand, I commit again

With all I am, For You Lord

You hold my world in the palm of Your hand

And I am Yours forever

Jesus I believe in You

Jesus I belong to You

You’re the reason that I live

The reason that I sing

With all I am

I’ll walk with You wherever You go

Through tears and joy I’ll trust in You

And I will live in all of Your ways

And Your promises forever

I will worship You

I will worship You

Forever

my bible study group of 2007, which i havent really got the chance to interact with much.. see how fuddy duddy they are.. i was like "LETS POSE!" they replied "POSE WHAT? I DONNO HOW TO POSE!" hahahaha siao tingtongs... that's more like it! hahaha the ASIAN PRIDE POSE! heehee see how much we're enjoying ourselves... hahah ok u cant really tell from the photo but we did enjoy the bs very much =D
top (left to right): jae ann, edmen, esther,
bottom (left to right): geri, jeannie
mmm... pork.. hahaha. this was enough to satisfy my craving for mooncake! i ate the butt and hung the head on geri's door because she owed me money. hahah no la as if. i ate everything up! SO YUMMY!
another lollipop flower...

ALAS, my long awaited bible study in a million donkey years last night and also the last of the year!

im so sad that its over but very glad we could attend!

and guess what? it was at our house! hahaha even better =D

we had the honour of cooking dinner for our dearest bs group. chicken rice and bbq chicken! and esther cooked yummy vegies and beancurd skin sweet soup. YUMMY.

so during bs we studied James5 and sorta summed up the whole of James. it made me think a lot and i just loved the feeling of having bs again! the sharing, discussing, bonding, praying... miss them so much! now im happy. heehee.

today we made our way to the city.. it was fun. that was where we found that piece of 'pork'

ok i need to go shower now. we spring cleaned the house. its sparkling clean but i m dirty. hehe

ai4 xin1 chao3 fan4!

... and i think to myself...WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD!

lalala. spring's here again!

less rain, less cold,

more sunshine, more warmth.

flowers blooming, leaves growing.

the botak trees start growing some hair.

soon enough, purple trees will line the streets.

pretty flowers jump out to greet you.

cotton candy n lollipops. that's what they remind me of. the pink n white ones.

the white n yellow ones are sunny-side-ups. eggs.

its such a happy season. SPRING!

even that word has beautiful connotations..

springrolls... yumm... or spring.. boing boing.

the beauty of God's creations. =) it's so hard to understand how people dont believe that God exists. can't you hear them all singing praises to Him? the rainbows, the stars, the flowers, the trees, the clouds, the sun... how does it make sense that they are the products of a big bang?

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW??!!?? i really dont know. its a very interesting theory but ridiculous at the same time.

what made God take so much care to make creation glow

He could have made it black and white and we'd have never known

and what made God send Jesus to die on calvary?

...

That's the love of God.

the neighbours! haha i miss watching flintstones!!!!
not me.my cousin.

THE ALIENS HAVE LANDED!!!

Another weekend spent in the B/H! 2 more of these and it’s the long awaited long weekend!!! Things are not so bad once you get used to it I guess. They just seem ever so normal. Like how people go “xi2 guan4 jiu4 hao3”… it does make sense. This term we’ve had room changes down our wing. This girl in our wing plays her music really loudly. She lives next to geri, who is one room away from me and I can still hear her music! Im fine with it. Hehe cus I get to hear lots of songs I used to listen to.. songs I haven’t heard for years. It brings back so much memories. Does anyone feel like that? When u suddenly hear this song u used to always listen to, u get reminded of that period of time, the things happening around you… im brought back to the first few years of my secondary school life.. a new home, a new room, new school, new friends, MOELC (third language), long bus rides home, my cedar uniform, new to SF, the period when Avril Lavigne was still quite cool. When I always played her song “Im with you” on repeat. The SARS period, Stacie orrico’s “there’s gotta be more to life”, Hilary Duff’s “Yesterday”, Busted and simple plan, Backstreet Boy’s “guilty”? or is it BLUE. Hahaha. My mood then also comes back together with the song. Fascinated, happy, young, nerdy, shopping, heeren, taking the train everywhere.. sometimes the bus, lots of msn, chatting on the phone, the SF musical “Heaven in my Heart”, my obsession with black shirts (seriously I didn realize how many black tees I had!) neon orange, lime greens, hot pinks… so many memories… it’s such a nice but funny feeling. How young I was then… stupid enough to eat fast food regularly… after having to read Fast Food Nation for English, the discussions in class, I think my mindset’s starting to turn. I smell oil instead of the food sometimes. Back to that period, lots of neoprints, went out with audeedee and her bball friends a lot, yurica and rach teo and jess khong and lelin too, jaslyn teresa xianglin Fiona xiuqi beishan, the third lang clique Jolene me caroline audeedee xiuqi qinyi nadia jinhuey wenyi xingyi cherlia which started to disappear as each year passed… the first class chalet and the most fascinating one as well, where someone actually kicked the lamp head by accident and caused a blackout, where we had coloured hairspray, swimming, bowling, class bonding! How I miss those days.. pushing that trolley thingy, sitting on it to substitute Escape’s roller coasters. First taste of freedom. Haha. Maybe that was what fascinated me.




Dumdeedumdum… MOCKS ARE FINALLY OVER OVER OVER! I jump for joy.. haha. But that means TEE’s round the corner *hyperventilates* I’m rotting in my hole here waiting for Geri do her physics exam because my last paper was ytd! Hehehe. Anyway… next year’s gonna be interesting. No more b/h! more asian food! Muahahha. I’ve decided that packing is my least favourite thing. Activity. Whatever catergory its meant to be under.. I don’t like it. Space constraints time constraints.. grr. N I have so much stuff its unbelievable. Bleah. I love holidays. Haha they smell so good. xD. Its been so long since I last used the internet properly. Haha. But its not that bad actually. Aha. Lalalala. That’s it for now. Till then! Toodles!

this is the way you left me

im not pretending

no hope no love no glory

no happy ending

this is the way that we love

like its forever

and live the rest of our lives

but not together

blablabla. this song is so sad. but its such a pretty tune. tho the words dont really relate to my life in anyway, its my current fav.EHEH.

sigh. weekend's ending. back to school and all.but hey its not too bad... =)

seems like a miserable year... maybe its my mood swing. and all the changes..

i'll make it lovely n exciting just wait and see.

sigh. somehow i still feel i prefer last year. maybe its the stress. maybe its the not going to ocf. complaining wont bring me anywhere........... bleah

so many thoughts but i dont know where to start so i wont bother trying. gonna watch 'ROCK SCHOOL'

say hello to my awesome 14 years friend qinyi lim. she is very nice to nice people like me. HAHA. she gave me bak kwa when she used to work in bak kwa shop and she always sends me off when i go back to perth together with some 1724 champs and my family. we were in the same pri school and were classmates in P5 P6 and were in the same 3rd lang class in sec sch. on that note, i really dont remember much bout 3rd lang other than the rapidly shrinking class size as the year progressed. oh wells. HELLO QINYI! hahaha im proud to have u as my super AWESOME x10000000000 14 yrs friend! x)

and the long awaited long weekend is here again but it wont be that long.
just when i got really excited over blogposting sites being unblocked, they blocked it again. quite annoying, but in a way it is to my advantage. keeps me distraction free!
so yes. had an awesome dinner in a 5 star hotel (yeah right) ahha we went to the supermarket to get some cooked food. green chicken curry beef rendang dahl potatoes. yumm.
being deprived of internet, geri n i had our eyes glued onto the screen for quite a while...
was free dress in school today n it's the most spectacular thing ever. since it was bookweek we had to dress up as a storybook character. the yr 12s were dressed in where's wally outfits. my link teacher was willy wonka and he really did look like willy wonka plus he was giving away chocos and lollies it just freaks me out. my english teacher was winnie the pooh! there were some alices in wonderland, pigs, cats, many harry potters.... cutest school day! unfortunately i forgot my camera. was rushing for band prac which didnt last really long cus of poor turnout but anyhows...
had interhouse dance on wednesday night. its my 2nd and last interhouse dance! devo... had good fun n meaghan did a fantastic job with all the choreographies as the dance captain.
only a few weeks till mocks. this thought sends shivers down my spine but never enough to smack my bum and get me going all motivated. right now im just tired out. soon band will stop. big band will stop. choirs will stop. dance has stopped. so i guess i'll well be in the mood. hopefully. if only they could turn off the tap of work to do... rah.
im excited because i can finally attend OCF after a million years! yay.

first you're loved, then you're missed, then you're forgotten. poof. just like how chocolate becomes coco crunch. but oh wells. coco crunch is good. just full of emptiness. feels too long since i've had a good talk with a close friend that i start to wonder whether i still have one. like a boat drifting away from the fleet. aimless? dragged? for the better? for the worse? does anyone care? other boats just carry on their journey sailing, sailing. who cares?

sometimes the smallest thing someone does/doesnt do annoys me, hurts me, disturbs me, put doubts in me, but who am i to judge? how do things get better if i continue being so selfish and self centred the whole time? uhoo! wake up call.