look at everything around you. the skies the stars the clouds the sun the moon the trees the flowers.. are they not enough to prove that there is some great supernatural being at work? can you see? SEE??? OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEEE!!!!!!!! i pray that He'll open the eyes of your heart.

so once again i'm here to share about how God brought me through my killer week. although huB exam was crap, i thank God for sending me a reminder that 23/30 for the mcq test doesnt mean acing (or even passing) my other stuff because seriously, my human bio knowledge needs lots of work. and that prac exam was an excellent example bcus i think to pass would be a veryvery big miracle.. apart from that, i had 2 assignments due and being such a slow pig i always went past my personal deadlines by like 24 hou (rs. but thank God i got them done! =D on the morning its due! ahhahaha but also thank God for taking away my stress this week! like although i kept saying how its a killer week, it wasnt strong enough to kill me who has God's help! =D so yesh.

He will carry me home.~

'holidays' or a more accurate way to put it, 'study break' is this week. liz n i celebrated the beginning of school-free week with Han's thai green curry chicken (yumyumyum) and Baskin Robbin's Rum Raisin and Cashew thingy. aaaaaah good food xD

saturday saw ocf out with YWAM (youths with a mission) for MISSIONS DAY! where we went out to houses of people who were old/sick/not coping/need help and cleaned their houses and prayed for them. =) its such a purposeful event i think we should have it more often! and it was a joy to help the family we visited.. they had 6 kids! (that's why! how do they manage!!!??) and the kids were just beaaauutifull. xD

sunday today.. HAPPY BDAY VAL VOON! =D i so wanna go buy relighting candles. hahahahaha

aaaaaaaah. im so happy today =D im gonna go assignmenting tomorroww xD KAMPATEI! I CAN DO IT!!

been doing a BIT of work.. got to catch up with some friends over msn =) Thank you Lord for EVERYTHING.

Oceans will part- Hillsong

if my heart has grown cold

there Your love will unfold

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

when i'm lost in my way

there Your Spirit will pray

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

oceans will part, nations will come

at the whisper of Your voice

hope will rise, glory shown

in my life Your will be done

present suffering may pass

Lord Your mercy will last

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

and my heart will find praise

i'll deligt in Your way

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

geri's cupcakes! deborah unites with her deborah chair!
housewarming one year late hahaha
cardboard mountain!
uncle billy's supper YUMYUM sotong super!
God makes nice skies x)

my early bday present!
i was waiting for liz to pick me up hahah n i was bored...
geri's handrolls =D

these few weeks have been killer weeks..
last week on thursday alone i had 2 presentations and a psych test on 2 long chapters and i was so sure i would die. but God once again amazed me by how real He is, pulling me through those days. the test which i hardly got to study for until half an hour before (BECAUSE OF THE 2 PRESENTATIONS) which i was frantically flipping through the pages hoping diffusion takes place in some way, trying to memorise the definitions and bla. AND I GOT 80% for that test!! i was talking to my mum about it and she said "wa! good! clever girl!".. as much as i want to give myself all the praise, it is so obvious that it wasn't me, but God showing His power through me. as Paul mentions in 2Corinthians12:10 :

That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I'm weak, then I am strong.

and how true it is, that when we know and admit our weaknesses, humbling before God and giving Him full control over our lives, FULLY depending on Him and allowing Him to work through us, then we become strong. we become strong with God's power! =D

instead of praying that God take away all my stupid assignments and tests, I should learn from Paul.. 2Cor12:8-9
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take [the thorn in my flesh] away from me. But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

THEREFORE, I WILL BOAST ALL THE MORE GLADLY ABOUT MY WEAKNESSES, SO THAT CHRIST'S POWER MAY REST ON ME!
i am hopeless in human bio i have poor time management i hate writing and researching so basically im not cut for this uni thing i am a slow reader and we need to do readings ALL THE TIME i cant summarise and we need to do summaries quite often.. but somehow, i always survive and every week im always so amazed by how it happens! WOW WOW WOW!

and sometimes in human bio or psychology, i start to realise how we are so wonderfully made. How God actually created us with so many cells of different purposes, how they can function without us having to think about it, how our hearts beat by themselves.. imagine if we had to function them ourselves.. we would be so busy pounding our chests like gorillas to admire the other things He has created. the homeostatic mechanisms.. how we sweat to reduce body heat when we feel warm.. we dont even have to consciously tell ourselves to sweat!
i remember playing with you yan's stethoscope in kristi's house one day.. as i put it to my heart, i heard it beating (DUH) but the body sounded like this huge mechanism with so many things going on at one time. the blood gushing, me breathing.. it sounded like a very busy place.. and all i was aware of was that i was listening! i wasnt telling the blood to gush, i wasnt telling the heart to beat, i wasn telling myself to breathe, i wasn asking my stomach to digest the food, nor was i asking the mitochondria to produce ATP but they just happen!

God is AMAZING. like totally! x)

early 18th! thanks ppl =D kristi baked the cake! (its cheesecake with strawberry jam and crunchy thingy base. yumyumyum)

funny thing happened last night...
geri n i cooking in the kitchen when we started hearing really soft "exploding" sounds
me: oh there's fireworks again!
geri: ya
me: it sounds like its very far away today..
[pause]
me: oh my goodness.. theres no fireworks! its the rice cooker!
HAHAHA

oh and we spent the whole night screaming and hoping from foot to foot because a stupid cockroach came into the house >=(
its dead now woohoo!

i was doing my work and then suddenly...

i started to miss my friends in Singapore!

i havent been a very good friend tho..

i havent been making an effort to keep in touch with them to ask them how they're going and stuff.

i've just been busy with my own matters the whole time i've been in Perth.

i need to start thinking about others and placing them before myself!!

so how are u my dearest friends?

hello qinyi my 14 years friend =)

have you been nice? =D im actually quite happy because im making the extra effort to be nice and patient and i can tell the difference.. it feels really good! i'll be praying for you my dear friend! and also i hope your tongue will recover soon so u can eat more good food instead of suffering with liquid-ish type ones! LOVE!

hihi nicoletham my pri sch fairy best friend =))

how's jc been treating u? i havent talked to you about my time at ur dad's student care.. it was really enjoyable and the kids are so cute although many a times i get stressed when they refuse to learn their spelling hahaha. anyway i hope u will recover frm the msn-lags-com phobia and download msn n then i can communicate with u more easily xP stop being an anti-social ok! hahahaha. i miss the times we left class to go eat in the toilet, or turned up late to supp lessons because we were solving mysteries at the computer kiosk! and doing silly catwalks across the corridors! and also just sitting down to talk till our butts get sore! hope you are well! HUGSS!

hihi audeedeechanmalichan my sec sch bestie/fellow rich taitai neighbour/ baichi

recently u have been posting vague blogposts and i havent got the chance to talk to u online yet! how are u audeedee? ur face is still as red as ever.. and i met someone in uni who also has sensitive skin and i think its worse than yours! i was only writing on her arm with a blue pen and the nxt thing i know, the words looked EMBOSSED and highlighted with pink!?!?! anyway, i want to go to ur house and eat ikan bilis! haha and tapioca chips! so rmbr to stock up ok! =D and my sense of direction is improving recently.. so one day i'll find my way to your house!!! oleh! i miss our LC days where we made up so many weird terms to replace other words.. heatwave, hydrocephalus, yiguaiyiguai, telephone... hahaha nice vocabulary! and visitin macs for 25cents ice cream or shaker fries. and tuition.. where we get tea eggs (HEH) and more ikan bilis (HEHE) and so much more food hahaha. and then mashed potato or mr softee frm 7eleven. thanks for always waiting with me till the bus arrives =) n i rmbr u had a bad influence on me.. when u felt like pangsai-ing, u passed that feeling to me! and we always seem to be talking rubbish but oh wells! I STILL LOVE YOU! x)

hello dear sticker/copycat/prissybutnotafool =D

how r u! i havent talked to u for so long!!! n i think i told u.. i accidentally deleted the photos we took when we met up.. ='( i miss choir practices and ballet and sec1&2 class chalet plus the journeys in between ^.^ i enjoy talking to u so much so much! i was watching our 'mtv's where u 'played' the 'drums' and 'guitar'.. oh my goodness u r the funniest la! how is Xctry and touch rug and odac! so busy ah u! but seriously Xctry is sooo boring. ahhahha. i mean u just run.. n run.... n run somemore n run outta breath but thats about it. hahaha but im so proud of u.. so versatile and flexible like rubber! how is ballet? so r u stayin with crestar? it would be kinda sad to come back n realise noone's in crestar! it gets so difficult to come together as we all grow and go our different ways =( but im always excited to see u sticker because i know we'll nv run out of things to talk to =D MWAH!

hihi clover! =) shushu, gerteo, rambutan ;)

shushu: i talked to u in the prev post already la but anyways... HI SHUSHU! xD wo ai ni!

gerteo: hi teoteoteo hows u n ur bf? =D havent been talking to u much too hav i.. haha haii but im still reading ur blog HEHE u better watch out! =P

rambutan: ok la u are mingming and i love u! dont keep stressing urself so much in school ley. i mean its good to be achieving but make sure u r enjoying the process ok! and eat properly! i hope i can email u soon! =D mwamwamwamwamwa!

my eyelids are seriously shutting. GOODNIGHT FRIENDS =))

one sunday, kristi n i decided on a camwhore session with a monkey she recently kidnapped for the weekend from josiah's car during our study break...the photos were posted on facebook and the comments cracked me up. HAHA



i used to find my identity as a dancer because i had ballet lessons
i used to find my identity as a muso because i joined band in high school and played the piano and did music in high school
i used to find my identity as a chorister because i joined choir n sec n high school
i used to find my identity as a sporty monkey because i was in track in primary school
i used to find my identity as a PL lite because i came from PL primary
i used to find my identity as a cedarian because i came from cedar sec
i used to find my identity as part of the "TWINS" gang because we hung out everyday from p1-p3
i used to find my identity as a SMAGS boarder because i experienced the recess dash and lack of cash, the sunday roast, vegemite on toast, the funny rice wasn much of a surprise...
i used to find my identity as part of Clover as they were a gigantic part of my life right before i left for perth and now n then i still find myself reminiscing n realising they've gone on n made new cliques n it seemed like i was left behind.
i used to find my identity in friendships i made. but what exactly happens when they start to fade?

all that's left is this boring, plain, normal, worse than normal, shy, quiet, selfish, self-obsessed and lost thing.

SHUSHUSHUSHUSHUSHUSHUEN! xD
im so glad i talked to u today! =) u r v a special friend! u give me tummyaches! u make me laugh till my mouth's sore and dry but we get so high =) u were such a great influence on me.. encouraging me to be closer to God, to pray more, depend entirely on God, to read the bible more basically just everything more! my happiest days are still those sec3 days where we "sing to the Lord I Love You" and danced on chairs, played catching around the pillar and reversed roles whenever. when we dreamed n wished for sentosa which we still haven gone together up till now! when i laugh at ur "messy look". when u da bao-ed fried bee hoon from ur house downstairs for us to eat in school, tryin to ignore the weird looks ppl gave us. where i learned the thumbs up so other ppl can say grace, where we often sat outside the class to pray with so many other classmates. when we met up n tried to set up The Fishermen. when we choreographed a weird dance to Dont Phunk With My Heart and Dare You To Move. When we celebrated ur bday n were freaked out by ur grumpiness at first HAHA. when we went to watch Oompa Loompas on national day eve n ur skirt was delicately secured by a pathetic safety pin which threatened to fall out ever so often. aah. at least i know im not reminiscing alone, that u too are stuck in the clover times. cheers my fellow silly clown! cant wait to see u soon <3<3<3

PS. although subject appears to be violent in visual images, she is actually quite alright in real life.

KRISTI!!!
hahaha u look like a tomato and a mouse at the same time in this photo! haha don't worry bout tmr =D do ur best n let God do the rest! rmbr that ur main purpose is to praise n worship God so don't let other stuff hinder you from doing that! You'll be fine and alive! hahaha. i miss our oval walks n talks in smags! and the sneaking from room to room past bedtime.. You have also been such a blessing. you really lent me ur shoulder to cry on when i was homesick and been a good listening ear, also sharing in all the laughter and silly antics.. like this one right here.. ahhah THANKS FOR EVERYTHING =D MWAH!

back to identity, while some come n go, there's always the few that stay with u for life.

one day, i'll lose my identity as a student

one day, i'll find my identity as an occupational therapist hopefully, who knows?

but its time to take up that part time casual cross carrying task to a full time lifetime job. I want to make that my main identity! MY IDENTITY IS FOUND IN CHRIST!

=D

HELLO QINYI MY FRIEND!!! =)

i'm glad God gave me a friend like you!

ITS TIME TO BE NICE!

JIAYOU!! =D

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!

sometimes i wish..........

sometimes i wish i wasnt so shallow

sometimes i wish i could be more mature and post more meaningful things up here

sometimes i wish i would be more appreciative of what i have and stop complaining

sometimes i wish i wouldn't be so self-centred and start sparing a thought for others

sometimes i wish i could be a better friend

sometimes i wish i would stop procrastinating

sometimes i wish i could be more dependent on God and walk closer with him

sometimes i wish i could be more sensitive

sometimes i wish i could be more patient

sometimes i wish i would not be so self conscious

sometimes i wish i would stop being so attention seeking and self-obsessed

sometimes i wish i was not so weird

sometimes i wish i would stop wasting time

sometimes i wish i would not be so judgemental

sometimes i wish i would not be so superficial

sometimes i wish i could be more generous and thoughtful

sometimes i wish i could be organised and on top of my work

sometimes i wish i could prioritise and be disciplined

sometimes i wish i would not be so petty and get annoyed easily

sometimes i wish i weren't so mean

sometimes i wish i would not be such a jealous person

sometimes i wish i wasn't so stupid

sometimes i wish i would be nicer

sometimes i wish i was more positive

sometimes i wish i would stop being so critical

sometimes i wish i could give in more

sometimes i wish, sometimes i wish

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.

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sometimes i wish i would stop wishing and actually start fulfilling them.

i have a habit of being online when im not meant to.. my form of procrastination i suppose. bloghopping and msn chats, facebooking, checking out ppl's photos... im always so amazed by a few people though. the things they write in their blogs.. so meaningful, sometimes profound, allowing me to learn something each time i read it, be it about God or life in general. and then i start to think what actually is their brain made of... no i dont actually. but its so cool how mature these people are and its actually difficult to imagine myself ever reaching that stage of maturity ever in my lifetime (even though those people are around their 20s). haaiiya! i feel so !#*)(%$)#&()%*#($TGJ(#$!!!!!!!!!! I DONT KNOW! what have i been doing with my life!?!?!?

i've been such a lukewarm christian! D:

taking a break.....

i am just one person out of the many staying in east perth,

east perth is just one suburb out of the many in western australia,

western australia is just one state out of the many in australia,

australia is just one country out of the many on earth,

the earth is just one planet out of the many in the solar system,

the solar system is just one out of many in the milky way,

the milky way is just one galaxy out of the many in the universe,

the universe is so so so so so soooo huge that i really dont know much about it.

but it easily fits into the palm of God's hand.

and even though we appear so minute and insignificant, even negligible in comparison to the size of the whole universe which God has created, He still treats us as His precious children. He loves us more than we can imagine. He sent His only son Jesus Christ, whom He loved, as a sacrifice for our sins. So that we do not have to suffer the consequences of our own sins, but are able to look forward to eternal life with our Father in heaven..

so often this story of salvation is told and retold. so often it just entered through one ear and left through the other. i dont wanna become numb to God......

we are SO small

GOD IS SO BIG, SO PERFECT, SO MAGNIFICENT

and yet he chooses to love us, sinners, unworthy beings.

thank you Lord.

its been a long while. but i find myself feeling guilty again. or rather, still feeling guilty. so again, im sorry. hope u r happy =)
<3 jeannie

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close

So close
And still so far

Enchanted, So Close by Alan Menken, Jon Mclaughin

i've been spending much time listening to good music. =) they are so beautiful.. im now in the mood for nice old songs.. like moonriver! ah thank God for music! it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside..