saturday was judy's birthday =D happy 21st birthday judy! <3

ocf lines up pinkily awaiting the arrival of judy goh something something


so cool right!
i duno y but i like this. hahaha they're so silly..

today, i got mail! =) =D xD

a birthday card! =D i like!!!

a female not so secret admirer expressing her undying love for me.

a lovely lovely baichi/ rich taitai neighbour who has been there for me since the sec 1 days.. the one who helped me remove the bug from my shoe, the one who doesn kill me for finishing her ikan bilis and tapioca chips, the one whom i had chi tuition with, ate tea eggs with, ate 25 cents icecream with when it was still 25 cents, ate mash potatoes from 7-11 with, the one who takes 156 to sengkang interchange with me so we can talk after tuition and then goes home, the one who waits with me for the bus to come even though its late and dark and scary. and many many more..... thank you dearest chan mali chan! x) WO AI NI HEN DUO HEN DUO! i just replied the email too HEEHEEHEE! loveletter!!! MWAH!

how does one become selfish?
is it when one grows older, having more responsibilities, thus not having time for others?
or is it when ur all cooped up with too much time with yourself that u forget about others?
or is it both?
learn to give, learn to give.
time and again i make a mental note to myself to stop being selfish
maybe its my narcixxxxxtic (gave up spelling) nature
maybe its my ignorance
maybe i just need to listen and talk to people more

WHY AM I EVEN HERE OH MANSXZXZXZXZXZX
assignmentzzszsxxzxszxsxszx
*faints*

in the middle of the peaceful neighborhood late at night,

dark streets lighted by street lamps along the way..

somewhere down the road, a group of people sing their hearts out with the joyful strumming on the guitar...

"the lion sleeps tonight..."

i don't know why but it makes me smile listening to them while im on my lappy blogging, fingers moving awkwardly round the keyboard to keep my freshly painted nails unblemished.

its a happy day today ;) praise Him, praise Him.

rejoice in the Lord always, and again i sing rejoice!

phil 1:6

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." =D thanks kristi princess evil twin!

i realised i don't have to be unhappy about not knowing what my spiritual gift is. because i know we are each given a spiritual gift, all i'm doing is waiting to find out what it is! SO I SHOULD BE EXCITED! and since spiritual gifts are meant to be used to serve God, and since i havent found out what it is, i could just make sure that im serving God in any way i can i guess! x)) and yes! to be confident that God will continue the good work in me until the day of Christ Jesus!

these few days have been quite interesting.. i think i've been talking more to people and knowing more about them instead of complaining and whining and thinking i am oh-so-poor-thing, in a way they've taught me to be less self centred =D hip hurray!

thank God for being able to attend uni (and obviously this will include the dreaded assignments and tests and lectures and tutes but they kinda make up the whole uni thing so i should learn to love them. and i'll probably start to enjoy them hehe! and one fine day i'll become excited to do assignments woohoo!) was emailing audeedee n she mentioned how lucky i am to be able to study something i enjoy.. i was thinking.. OH MY I AM! i chose the course but i still complain! but hey.. im free from math and english woohoo!

thank God for no midsems!

thank God for family and friends!

thank God that I can stay with geri! i was talking to molly n bonnie and i realised how blessed i am to be able to stay with a family member, that we can prepare meals together, go out together, eat together blablabla n i wont feel as embarrassed if i fart at home HAHAHA

thank God that i take public transport to school! those people driving always have to be stressed about parking, petrol, driving, getting in time for classes... stuff that dont really bother me much! bonnie only just started taking public transport cus she had 2 parking fines in a row.. so poor thing hahaha

thank God that i'm out of the b/h. thats y i can blog =D n have a choice of what i want to eat, n not be so restricted.. like being made to sleep at 10.30pm =( now i do it voluntarily ahahah no la! but i dont have to worry about handing in leave forms, not being able to get recess, queue for lunch in the rain etc =D

thank God that i know people with cars who can drive =D if not i wouldnt have a life. or i might get mugged one fine day.

thank God for people who make Perth life so much more enjoyable than it could have been x) at least now i dont feel so lost n lonely n helpless n new n shy (I STILL FEEL SHY ACTUALLY) n sad.. and i know that there will be people to turn to for help n encouragement =D

thank God for giving me so many killer weeks. it's like His reminder to me that when i am weak, then I am strong, because that is when i acknowledge my inability to handle all these matters and really hand everything to Him!

thank God i dont need to get a job =D i thank God that my parents have a stable income, so i have a choice whether or not i want to work. and currently i am looking at those working students, going "WOW... where do u find the time!?!?" but i might probably start one after i learn to drive..

thank God i'm gonna start my driving lesson tomorrow! when i start driving, we can stop worrying about the bus times or getting lifts although i quite like them hehehehe.

thank God for my 25/30 human bio test! the unit i have been most worried about turns out to be one im doing best in i think. =) n its a pretty cool subject actually. God is really amazing the way He creates everything. its so difficult to explain! its.. INDESCRIBABLE.

alright so the past few days...

very first discipleship breakfast of the year on saturday!!!

heartshaped-turned-buttshaped-kissing-faced pikelets, muffins, scrambled eggs, lemon, apple juice.. everything was so yellow.. hahahalasercorps on sunday hehehe! im gonna secretly practise my aiming at home n go back next time!

so while waiting for hsc to start, molly n i have planned a day to the perth zoo (OMG! HOW EXCITING I HAVENT BEEN THERE BEFORE LA!!!!!) and bubble tea at northbridge x) bubble tea seems such a perth thing to me now!

i have a sudden craving for soursop! anyway look at these zebras! how pretty are they! the patterns on their bodies look so meticulously painted.. zebras are so pretty! guess who designed them! =))and yes, im in the mood for christmas. RIGHT NOW! been listening to christmas songs.. I WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS ALL YEAR LONG~~~ WHY COULDNT IT BE CHRISTMAS EVERYDAY!!!!!! lalalallalalaaaaaaaaaa

i feel so hurrrrr now.
ocf today spoke about stewardship of spiritual gifts.
what is my spiritual gift?

argh i feel so hurrrrrrrrrr
think its pms. bleah.

thank God for my completed psych assignment =D
other than being good stewards of our spiritual gifts, we are also meant to be responsible in our management of resources like time, money, electricity, water etc.
how have i been managing them?
long showers.. leaving the computer on even when not needed, spending on unneccessary chocolate or iced coffee, staring into space or playing the rubiks cube while procrastinating...
i have lots of room for improvement..
what about the people He's placed in my life?
i havent been appreciative enough. i havent been making myself available enough to listen to what they need to say. i expect them to listen to my complaints and worries but what have i given them in return?
=(
HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

THE ROSE
some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed
some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need
i say love, it is a flower, and you, its only seed

its the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance
its the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance
its the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live

when the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snows..
lies the seed.. that with the sun's love,

in the spring... becomes.. the rose

what a pretty song! this was my all time fav during my cedar choir days! and it is quite meaningful too... being afraid of getting hurt and therefore unable to take risks, never taking chances, never learning to dance, never learning to live.. aww so sad..



one week of relaxation passes and its time to fight another killer week!
and another one next week!
and the week after!
unconsciously, killer weeks will become normal weeks and hopefully that means that i have truly learnt to prioritise and manage my time.
=D
to those having killer days in school or at work, do not worry or be disheartened, because WE CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS US!

HELLO STICKY STICKER! xD HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! NOT LIKE YOU READ MY BLOG, SO I WONT WRITE LONG STORY HERE! I'LL GO FIGHT WITH MY KILLER WEEK NOW! x) LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU MUMMY DADDY JODIE!! =D THANK YOU VAL AND STEF!
THANK YOU VALVAL VOONVOOOOooooOOOOoooN!
THANK YOU... I THINK ITS UNCLE JOSEPH AND AUNTIE EVELYN

THANK YOU GLENNA THE REAL STINKY POOPOO!!
XIEXIE GONG GONG!!
THANK YOU BANANA THORNTON!! =))
THANK YOU GOHBIAOMEI AND EVIL TWIN!

a substitute for a birthday tree, the birthday throne-since 2007
thank you edmen! I DONT HAVE EXCESSIVE CSF! HEHEHE
THANK YOU ESTHER DEBORAH AND YOUYAN!!! =D its a very pretty headless chicken!
THANK YOU EVIL TWIN!! xD

early 18th =D strawberry cheesecake by kristi my evil twin! <3 href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6d49FrKr65b1viu-721OjQ9Bx59oT1JttSyP55ngUAwrWfnR8vNfYXlna_f8TfoSs9Udrs6RBmZrHSGp6B5SmX4k49pn4urV323zIuHLu8lHNwaEqIOkEV75m3QlDygv87vqk/s1600-h/yumyumyum.jpg"> noon time 18th =D strawberry cupcake by gohbiaomei my biaomei!! <3 href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9zdbQOwZ8Pp8AmqOkxrRhEF4eRdu73YcU3VBffc-JekH-DXHSzWrRrlDW5YJXJkrwcAsfnPeknJOhTEsuwaxuI_pEylhksSKQtJcw28AXN0FxGPlkX1x5eSYxX7lmtRb8KbQM/s1600-h/happy+18th+me!.jpg"> night time 18th! rubiks cube cake by esther and joel my vvvv nicenicenice friends! <3<3

both of them always keep whispering and whispering and whispering. hahaha I WONDER WHY!

HELLO! so i turned 18 on the 23rd of April 2008 and it was a really really great day =)

not just a good day but a superduperspecialexclamationmark day! =D

im really really thankful that God has given me such sweet friends and family that i dont really deserve bcus i tend to take them for granted. i thank God for blessing me with love n joy despite being away from home =D and also for giving me an unforgettable 18th which i really didnt expect x)

so thank you to..

all the people who wished me happy birthday on facebook!

all the people who wished me happy birthday on friendster!

all the people who wished me happy birthday on myspace!

all the people who wished me happy birthday on email!

all the people who wished me happy birthday on text message!

all the people who wished me happy birthday on msn!

all the people who wished me happy birthday on blogs!

all the people who wished me happy birthday when we met!

all the people who wished me happy birthday over the phone!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

also thank you for all the presents and cards! i used to be only interested in presents but now i find myself being so excited to read cards HEHE i can feel the love! or also cus I AM MATURING x)

anyway im doing such a horrid job at showing how happy and grateful and touched i am but seriously im very very very happy and grateful and touched ok! maybe i'll share about what happened during the day. =)

so in the morning, banana thornton brought me out (well actually we met up at the city) and presented me with a frangelico (mm hazelnut!!!) and a card x) thank you! then we went shopping around and we got 2 nail polish- boysenberry and pixie pink! then we went back to my house at 11-ish..

the door opened and geri popped a party popper in my face HAHA i thought she was alone n being weird n mad. but then i saw amanda and then i saw balloons and then i saw the big rubiks piniata and i heard music playing AWWWW so sweet! its a surprise birthday party!! along came jess n anth hannah(jago) and we had a bit of a house tour, talking, phototaking, eating, games and stuff like that =D

this one's funny... geri n amanda were popping the poppers.. everyone was blinking at the same time HAHAHAHAHAH look at amanda!!! (far left looking like a winking cheekopehHAHAHA)I HAVE TO SAY! GERI'S COOKING REALLY IS SUPER IMPRESSIVE x)playing with makeup is fun! hehehehproof!!! our masterpieces! HEHE

HAHA its so kiddish BUT STILL!! i like i like! x) so nice and colourful oh if u havent guessed, its the RUBIK'S CUBE THEMED PARTY! hehehe! thank you tedjemulja for doing invitation cards (where's mine?! ahhaha) and blowing balloons... in my toilet??! hahaha thank you banana thornton for taking me out and making me laugh! thank you jess for the beret and for coming to let us picaso-fy you! and hannah thank you for the pouch and for dressing up so colourful! x) of course, most of all, THANK YOU GOH BIAO MEI for preparing all the food and deco and piniata and ribbons and sacrificing so much time and effort into this party! i know i've stressed u out (BUT UNINTENTIONALLY) these few weeks by asking difficult questions n everything but it was really a surprise and a wonderful one tooo =) and u really cook good food xD

then jess n hannah jago left n kristi came n we watched nodame while painting our nails with the new nail polish we got.. then kristi hannah n i left for uwa cuz hannah had to go back to college for dinner while kristi n i had bs leaders/lc prayer meet at judy's.

so at prayer meet we shared about our bs groups and our experiences and stuff.. when it was my turn to share i almost cried la! i think i'd been feeling lousy about myself n feeling im too ignorant and my knowledge of the bible is too low. plus i am extra sensitive and get discouraged easily by low turn outs and lack of response from members. the more i thought about it the more moody i became la so i was like secretly crying hahaha so stupid! anyway, thank you for the encouragements jason, joy, judy, raymond, esther and kristi! =) i really need to thank God in every circumstance and have more confidence! anyway everyone left while raymond talked to me bout ribbons and streamers and esther waited to drive me home n we had soup from judy's mum. TASTES LIKE HOMEE!!!!!! its like pork x) yumyum then judy said she wanted to visit my house for a bit so yay we all hopped onto esther's car n off we went to east perth =D

i realised i forgot my keys so i called gohbiaomei (she sounded v frantic HEHEHE) and i heard voices in the background! HAHAHA! n she came out to the balcony to open the gate while the lights in the kitchen went off HAHAHAH. i was looking at the kitchen window n asked the ppl around me if i was meant to pretend that i didnt know i could see heads moving around in my kitchen... HAHAHA. so ya birthday surprise number 2 with OCF!! AND I HAD THE COOLEST CAKE EVER! it was a RUBIKS CUBE! HEHEHE woohoo!! n kristi n joel made a birthday video (which i watched over n over n over n over again HEHE). ah im so touched!! THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS! and im so sorry to make u guys wait for like an hour.. but u knew how to entertain urselves.. like this...

haha and this....HAHA

thanks guys for putting in so much effort and time and money and stress for this surprise! i really really really loved it!!! xD im sorrry that u guys now have less time to chiong assignments/study for tests n exams or other stuff more interesting and productive and enjoyable! i wont bother u now! HEHE! try! =p JIAYOU PEOPLE! MANY MANY LOVE!!!

especially you gohbiaomei! busy with cooking n decorating n planning AND STALKING HAHAHA. the secret's even harder to keep since we're under the same roof but u did it! =D HEHE u must b so reliefed now! HAHA LOVELOVELOVELOVE YOU YOU YOU YOU! x)

i really wanna write a list of names to thank but i dont wanna miss out anyone so basically EVERYONE, THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH! x) REALLY REALLY! THANKS A LOT!!!! MWAH!

Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.

Without You- Mariah Carey

No i cant forget this feeling
nor your face as you were leaving
but i guess that's just the way the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
yes it shows..

no i cant forget tomorrow
when i think of all my sorrow
when i had you there but then i let you go
and now its e only thing that i should let you know
what you should know

cant live, if living is without you
cant give, i cant give anymore
cant live, if living is without you
cant give, i cant give anymore

kenleeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! dulibu dibu douchooooooo!
kenleeeeeeeeeeee! ken leee meju mo!

kenleeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! dulibu dibu douchooooooo!

kenleeeeeeeeeeee! ken leee meju mo!

i was thinking of my first days in perth, new, helpless, frightened. i was thinking about how i always felt when im in a strange new situation- new, helpless, frightened. i was thinking about how lonely i was till people stepped forward and welcomed me and made me feel accepted and wanted, having somewhere to belong to. i was thinking how i would expect people to come talk to me because i am new. i was thinking how much i wanted to be included in conversations. i was thinking how i wanted to fit in, hoping someone talked to me, invited me to this and that not just once or twice but consistently, like i AM part of them. then i was thinking about myself now, how i always just stick to the people i now. i was thinking how i only talk to the people i know. how i just walk past newcomers thinking 'the friend who brought them here would entertain them'. how im being so stuck up n gross. how i am so insensitive, not thinking that it actually takes so much courage and effort to participate in an event where u didnt know anyone except for the friend that brought u.

i am thinking i have so much to learn and change..

Your Grace Still Amazes Me by Phillips, Craig and Dean

My faithful Father, enduring Friend

Your tender mercy’s like a river with no end

It overwhelms me, covers my sin

Each time I come into Your presence

I stand in wonder once again

CHORUS:

Your grace still amazes me

Your love is still a mystery

Each day I fall on my knees

Your grace still amazes me

‘Cause Your grace still amazes me

Oh, patient Saviour, You make me whole

You are the Author and the Healer of my soul

What can I give You,

Lord, what can I say

I know there’s no way to repay You

Only to offer You my praise

It’s deeper, it’s wider

It’s stronger, it’s higher

It’s deeper it’s wider

It’s stronger, it’s higher than anything my eyes can see

look at everything around you. the skies the stars the clouds the sun the moon the trees the flowers.. are they not enough to prove that there is some great supernatural being at work? can you see? SEE??? OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEEE!!!!!!!! i pray that He'll open the eyes of your heart.

so once again i'm here to share about how God brought me through my killer week. although huB exam was crap, i thank God for sending me a reminder that 23/30 for the mcq test doesnt mean acing (or even passing) my other stuff because seriously, my human bio knowledge needs lots of work. and that prac exam was an excellent example bcus i think to pass would be a veryvery big miracle.. apart from that, i had 2 assignments due and being such a slow pig i always went past my personal deadlines by like 24 hou (rs. but thank God i got them done! =D on the morning its due! ahhahaha but also thank God for taking away my stress this week! like although i kept saying how its a killer week, it wasnt strong enough to kill me who has God's help! =D so yesh.

He will carry me home.~

'holidays' or a more accurate way to put it, 'study break' is this week. liz n i celebrated the beginning of school-free week with Han's thai green curry chicken (yumyumyum) and Baskin Robbin's Rum Raisin and Cashew thingy. aaaaaah good food xD

saturday saw ocf out with YWAM (youths with a mission) for MISSIONS DAY! where we went out to houses of people who were old/sick/not coping/need help and cleaned their houses and prayed for them. =) its such a purposeful event i think we should have it more often! and it was a joy to help the family we visited.. they had 6 kids! (that's why! how do they manage!!!??) and the kids were just beaaauutifull. xD

sunday today.. HAPPY BDAY VAL VOON! =D i so wanna go buy relighting candles. hahahahaha

aaaaaaaah. im so happy today =D im gonna go assignmenting tomorroww xD KAMPATEI! I CAN DO IT!!

been doing a BIT of work.. got to catch up with some friends over msn =) Thank you Lord for EVERYTHING.