This is our God (Hillsong-Reuben Morgan)

Your grace is enough, more than i need
at Your word i will believe
i wait for you, draw near again
let Your spirit make me new

i will fall at Your feet, i will fall at Your feet
and i will worship You here

Your presence in me, Jesus light the way
by the power of Your word
i am restored, i am redeemed
by Your spirit i am free

freely You gave it all for us,
surrendered Your life upon that cross,
great is the love poured out for all,
this is our God

lifted on high from death to life, forever our God is glorified
servant and king, rescued the world
this is our God

it's CHRISTmas eve, it's great to be home, it's heartwarming to see familiar faces and places, my room, my bed, my piano.. even the heavy rain sounds so comforting. so yes, Christmas is almost here, hip hurray! ive always been hyped for Christmas year after year, there's even excitement all around the streets of singapore, with all the fancy lightings and dangling lollipops, technicolor-forever-changing decors and bling blings wrapping the malls.. mega sales, discounts, offers, huge crowds and long queues of last minute christmas shoppers. "chestnuts roasting in an open fire..." christmas tracks play, choirs carolling, eager eyes waiting for the clock to strike 12 before attacking the beautifully wrapped gifts and then complaining that it wasnt the gift they wanted.

christmas has become yet another excuse for piling the home with more gifts and for retail stores to make money.. yea maybe attend a church service, have a family gathering.. but where has the real meaning of Christmas gone?
do you still remember that many years ago, someone was born into this world, though He was God, He lived as a man and endured pain and hardship. He taught the world to have faith, to have hope, to have love and He demonstrated the greatest love of all on the cross. that's what Christmas about.. the greatest gift from God: Christ Jesus, who saw us sinners and not only had compassion on us, but loved us unconditionally.
so what are you giving to God this Christmas?

Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. Romans 15:13

MERRY CHRISTMAS, JESUS LOVES YOU

i feel like i've just returned to planet earth after a long long time when actually it's just been a week in adelaide. Overseas Christian Fellowship Convention 2008 was super, awesome, great, fantastic.. i-want-to-go-back-there-right-now kinda good. the camp only went on for 5 days but it was 5 days of intensive learning and 'awakening', which i would usually take maybe a semester to digest.
camp theme was THE KING'S RETURN, GET READY. it's basically reminding us to be ready for Christ's return.

2Peter3 explains everything...
10But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare.[a]
11Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives 12as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.[b]That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. 13But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness.
14So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. 15Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. 16He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.
17Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position. 18But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

it just made me think.. if the Lord were to return tomorrow, would i be ready to welcome Him, and be accountable for what I've done with my life? what have i been wasting my life with? when i come into His presence on the day of His return, what will matter most to Him? is it the same as what matters most to me? i haven't been putting in much effort in spreading the message of power and salvation to the unreached countries.. i havent even been putting in effort to spread the message to those around me. maybe its fear of rejection and being mocked and being left out, maybe its the feeling of inadequacy, maybe because i need to make sure my own life is fine and cared for, my needs are met, my goals are reached before i can start on anything that does not benefit me. but does that make God happy? is that what He wants? am i picking up the cross daily and following Him? hurhur.. big fat no.. and no i dont want to live like that and feel guilty when God asks me about my life!
i want to live my life totally surrendered to God, availing myself, my time, my energy to His works and His kingdom, standing firm in this faith, encouraging others, reaching out to others. and i'll need your prayers! and remind myself to do so everyday!!!!!!

PFFFFTTT.

whee exams are long over and out of the window and i havent been on msn much (well.. uhm compared to last time) because my laptop burnt. like.. really it burnt no joke. it was the last exam day and i was reading anatomy lectures when i saw this white feather float past.. and i realised it was smoke (this is when u go "OMG! WO DE TIAN AH! ZHEN DE MA!!?!"). yes. zhen de. so yea i switched it off and it nv turned on again. and God is really amazing because He made it tahan till my last exam which is really cool =)

so yes. been out and around doing stuff. my first shopping in a long while.. RED DOT STORE, BIG W, SUBI MARKET with my dad. HEHHE. really.. retail therapy works even in grocery stores.. its amazing. i feel happy. red dot store's the coolest it has many santa claus things heehee and there's lotsa cheap stuff I LIKE CHEAP STUFF HOHOHO.

and ive been bz packing stuff and chucking stuff out too.. therefore having to try on old clothes.. its quite depressing when it comes to jeans.. my leg goes in easily now (they used to be too tight) but when it goes all the way up, its impossible to even move the zip by 1mm =( i used to have problems squeezing my thigh in and then there's all these excess butt space.. but now its the other way round.. dammit.. ahahha OH WELL.

lalala adelaide tmr hip hurray =D

My Time With You (by David Choi and Kina Grannis)



We're going to the beach today
We're gonna laugh and sing our cares away
The sun is shining on our face
We can take it in and let it out and say...


La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la


I do enjoy my time with you
Making the best of everything we do
We're gonna try on something new
And we'll make it ours before the day is through


And now the sun has said goodnight
Just want to say I had a real good time
I think I really feel all right (all right)
I don't ever ever wanna say goodbye


La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la


listen to it here!
http://ai.xanga.com/mp3/mytimewithyou.mp3
ah.. good music =) this song is so happy. =D



ON THE OTHER HAND, happiness seems so far away...
how many hours more till the long awaited thursday!!!!



that song's stuck in my head now. lalalalalalala...lalalalalalala...



HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTIE AH GOH GOH YO YO
may your wishes come true =) MWA!

nerve injuries..neuropraxia.. axonotemesis..neurotemesis..
bone healing.. hematoma, inflammation, callus, consolidation, remodelling
*nods and dozes off* *snores* *drools*
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

=D weehoo

end of my lifelong (1 semester) struggle with human bio depression (less than a semester actually.. lets say, a fraction of the exam period. ahhaha)

i watched Enchanted! xD

aww its so funny and cute.

(HEEHEE they're on a dayung sampan!)

i love how giselle always manages to break out into songs, and make pretty dresses from curtains and floormats, and how prince edward is so dramamama..HOHO

but my favourite's pip the chipmunk =D

how he imitates nathaniel and giselle's poison apple scene was the cutest thing ever!

AAWWWWW. and how he squeaks.. AWWW!! SO CUTE!! *heart melts*

morgan's a cute kid too.. =D she learns karate haha and i love how she comments on stuff in such a -duh- manner.. HEEHEEHEE sho cutee

sigh. it's amazing how my mood swings from longkang low to skyhigh.

i feel like a kid who throws tantrums and screams for attention, ignorant to the needs and moods of others. so selfishly expecting the world to revolve around her again and again. i've been such a crybaby (its seriously stupid human bio..), it's really annoying. but i thank God for placing such mature and encouraging souls close to me. thank you all who shared, prayed for, listened and encouraged me even though im unreasonably grouchy, even though there's enough stuff to worry about. thank you for time spent lazing in the sun or labs or libraries or the study desks at home or msn or karrawarra and coles =)

this week's devotion from subichurch's oneheart.onemind.oneLord talks about community, how we should have an attitude of a humble servant, selfless and honouring others above ourselves, compromising and giving, encouraging and building each other up, for we are members of ONE body, united in Christ. and I suddenly realised that I do have a lot to work on.

hmm. selflessness.. others before self. i remember wenzhen telling us about a friend who was a really good example of a selfless person. as a mentor to his mentees, he really did put them before himself, willing to sacrifice his time for them even though it was exam period. and of course, the perfect example that Jesus set: "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13. if im not even willing to give up a little bit of my time to people, how can i even learn to love like Jesus? if im not even willing to venture out of my little bubble for others, how can i? it's so easy to say: be selfless be selfless.. but what exactly is being selfless? the more i think about it, the more i see how selfish i am.. it's so ugly..yuck. and then i think about what Christ did again. there was nothing He did that deserved such a painful death, and so much humiliation.. but so that we sinners could be reconciled with God, he suffered the pain and gave his life. and then He rose to life on the third day after He died! =D but think about it.. how selfless was that? He could have easily went "but that's none of my business" and avoided all the unneccessary pain, like how we go "but i don't have time for that" and leave people feeling lonely and upset.. or "it's not safe for ME" and leave unreached people overseas clueless that there is a God who loves them. or "they will think im a weirdo" and therefore choose to keep quiet about being a Christian and not share about Christ's great act of selflessness. ive gotta get off my bum and get this selflessness thing started!!

there's something with this season. quote glenna: SPRING.. the season of love.

never believed it, but this year, so true. they strike the people around me in the form of boy problems and long phone calls and hankypanky and i dont know what else. like all of the people i hang out with.. geez.. where's mine?

so to all those cute guys out there, call me. *bats eyelids* AHHAHAHAH
and while i'm at it, i thought i might help bananathornton out too...

ok im just kidding. hahaha. ive been listening to kinagrannis lately. she's really good! go youtube her! i love her voice. and listen to her sing the 1234 song by feist. its so cool how she grew up singing 3 part harmonies with her sisters while washing dishes. i should make my kids do that too heeheehee. oh but she is really talented. REALLY. GO LISTEN RIGHT NOW!

bedtime! gnight!

im feeling grumpy
D=
everything seems to annoy me so easily.
human bio gives me major depression
WWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i need to play wii
i need to play guitar heroes
i need to scream n whine
i need next thursday to come quickly

then i'll be FWEEEE TO FLYYYYY

hello spongebob, im ur number one fan =D
ur songs make me happy!

F is for friends who do stuff together
U is for U and ME
N it for NEwhere, NEtime at all
down here in the deep blue sea!

F is for frolick through all the flowers
U is for ukelele
N is for nosepicking, sharing gum and sandlicking here with my best buddy

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i wasn having a laughing fit.. it was part of the song.

3 main arteries that supply the gut: [CSI] Coeliac trunk, Superior mesenteric, Inferior mesenteric
external salivary glands:
parrot sits on the upper molar.. Parotid, located near the 2nd upper molar
subway man beside my fren.. submandibular gland, located lateral to lingual frenulum
sob and sit on the floor.. sublingual, located at the floor of mouth

HEEHEE SARA ONG TING TONG I REMEMBER!

i've planned my 2nd year timetable! whheee.
i end school at 6 on mondays n tuesdays =(

IM ANNOYEDDDDDDDD >=(

My soul is downcast within me.

Yet this I call to mind

and therefore I have hope:

Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed,

for His compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:20-23

He's the one who turns the caterpillars into butterflies, the tiny seeds into flowers and big trees, the carbon into diamond the tiny sperm and egg into a human being. He causes the blind to see and the weak to become strong. WOW WOW WOW!!! =D

1 Corinthians 1:18-31

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written:

"I will destroy the wisdom of the wise;

the intelligences of the intelligent I will frustrate."

Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe. Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom, but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness. holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord."

the God who

used little David to defeat the enormous Goliath with just a sling and a stone [1 Samuel 17]

the God who

chose to let Jesus be born in a manger with animals around instead of a royal birth with big celebrations [Luke 2]

the God who

chose Mary and Joseph, a carpenter, as Jesus' parents [Matthew 1]

the God who

sealed the mouths of the beasts when Daniel was in the lion's den [Daniel 6]

and gave Daniel the wisdom to interpret the king's dreams [Daniel 4]

the God who

chose fishermen and tax collectors (tax collectors were despised by many in those days) as disciples [Matthew 4:18, 9:9]

the God who

fed thousands of people using a child's basket of 5 bread and 2 fish [Mark 8]

the God who

gave "unschooled, ordinary men" Peter and John the power to heal the sick and courage to speak of salvation, even when it meant going to jail for them [Acts 4:13]

the God who

used Paul, (who used to be Saul, who "[breathed] out murderous threats against [His] disciples" -Acts 9:1) as His "chosen instrument to carry [His] name before the Gentiles and their kings and before the people of Israel" -Acts 9:15, who became a great testimony of God's amazing grace, planting churches and building many people up in God's words.

He's not just ANY chapalang God with a "made in china" sticker stuck to Him.

Acts 17:24-29

"The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. 'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.'
"Therefore since we are God's offspring, we should not think that the divine being is like gold or silver or stone—an image made by man's design and skill.

He's so real, so great, so amazing, so wise that even His foolishness is far to wise for us. And yet of all people, He chooses to use the lowly ones who are looked down upon, the despised, the weak and the foolish to show His power, His grace and the wonders of His love. Many times I'm overwhelmed with feelings of inadequacy and weakness and the lack of capability to serve: as missions rep (being clueless about how to get ppl aware of the importance of missions since i have much to learn myself), teaching in Sunday school (when the kids seem so unresponsive or when i can't seem to get them to stop crying), playing the conga for worship (going off beat or having weird hand spasms or dropping the shakers and the tambourines), getting upset about the poor turn up in discipleship or bible study group meets or just being a good example as a Christian and plucking the courage to speak about God and juggling everything with school work, assignments, tests, exams.. sometimes i just feel like dropping everything so i don't have to be so stressed and feel so small and helpless, which i actually do by facebooking and checking my email a million times a day even when there's nothing new.. i keep running away even though i know i'll have to come back to face it eventually. How timely it is indeed, right at the point when i think im going bonkers because i cant get any human bio to stay in my brain, and stressing about how unprepared i am for exams, feeling like the stupidest person ever to walk on planet earth, at least i know that God will still use me.

and make the smartypants look stupid hurhur.

ok forget the last sentence haha.

HOW DO YOU THINK YOU CAN LET GOD USE YOU? =))

yay. all the best A levels people =) and exams and assignments people. and working people. and bumming people.

GOD LOVES YOU!

So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
Colossians 2:6-7

dear daddyy,

happy (secret number) birthday =D

thank you for being so extremely loving, for calling me a million times a day no matter which part of the planet i reside in, for still being jovial even when im grumpy, for always giving in to me, for being able to find things to say even when its the millionth time u've called in a day, for loving the family so much, although im always grumpy and annoyed, you know i still love you =) (because the cake says so...)

because of you,

i know where my silliness comes from

i know where my habit of falling asleep anywhere and anytime comes from

i know where my silly photo poses come from

i know where my wild sense of imagination comes from

i know where my youthfulness *ahem* immaturity *ahem* comes from

last but not least, i know where my interest in guys came from..

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hurhurhur. take care daddy.

love, jeannie