hello cardboard mountain, long time no see...

i used to find joy in cheering people up/ listening to their problems but of late its always not working. so.. sorry people

does anyone have a joke please.

can someone bishi bashi with me please.

i need a trampoline please.

i wanna dance again please.

i wanna laugh at xiangqin and zhishu in ISWAK please.

i wanna live my sec3 life again please.

perth is coming so soon. lalala i will survive i will survive

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, [a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

im sorry for being insensitive. so much for making it my new year resolution to be selfless.













how?

i know this is so very late, but nevertheless, happy new year everyone =)

2008's gone past like a gust of wind, and its time to welcome 2009! its weird how quickly time flies. its been 3 whole years since i left Singapore, every return trip has comforting yet foreign. new shops appear, places change, people change, relationships change.. some are strengthened while others slowly and unnoticingly diminish. each vacation brings different experiences but this would be considered the busiest one by far. OCF OCF OCF OCF OCF OCF. sometimes it may be upsetting that it takes up so much of my time in singapore when i should be spending time with my family and friends.. but my main new year resolution is to be SELFLESS. i keep forgetting about it so i havent been very selfless yet.. anyway, i know God has an amazing year planned for OCF (overseas christian fellowship). it may be just me, but somehow, God has been reminding us that OCF is about campus outreach. its not merely a place for singaporean/overseas christian students to hang out and chit chat, but an opportunity for us to bring God to people and people to God, especially those on campus. so EASTER CAMP and DISCOVERY GROUP will be up and running in no time and i pray that God will equip the members involved with the right tools and knowledge and ability to fulfil their roles, for unity within the committees, for open hearts that are ready to receive the love of God, for boldness and courage, passion and enthusiasm for people, and the right mindset and focus - all for God. it's been a busy beginning to a going-to-be-busy year, but im hyped and im excited =D

Romans8:28

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. i am yellowsandals' long time friend.. 15 YEARS WoOoo

2. i recently cut my hair short after 7 years of long hair

3. i put on 7kg ever since i left for Perth

4. i am very square and not creative and boring

5. i am shy and quiet

6. really. i nv bluff you.

7. my father has an annoying moustache that i always dream about shaving..

8. my mum is the one in the family who catches cockroaches

9. my sister is a scary slobbery kiss monster

10. i used to love centre parting with hair clips on both sides

11. i have a hello kitty phone. dont laugh at me. but the phone's cool okay.. dont playplay!

12. almost every day of my holiday has been filled even though im not working. its rather amazing.

13. i made lips, ducks, cows, faces, stars, hearts out of pineapple tarts yesterday

14. i live with my cousin when i'm in perth

15. i like the sky the clouds and the stars

16. i've had ballet lessons, piano lessons, drum lessons, voice lessons, guitar lessons and percussion lessons but i never seem good enough to play anything

17. my bedroom in singapore has no bed. im edward cullen hahahaha

18. i didn't know 25 is actually a very big number. im running out of things to say.

19. im married to kristi facebookly and we had a rockmelon for a baby which we ate.. we were hungry.

20. my mum has facebook

21. i think jogging is boring. i prefer team sports. but i dont play them. im a bum.

22. i duno how to make friends

23. my gmail is jeannieloister@gmail.com. i think i should start using it.

24. this is damn embarrassing but i am clueless about what goes on in the world.. i thought obama was a soccer team (that was last year when he won the election thing)

25. i saw smoke coming out of my laptop and thought it was a feather.

i don't know who reads this blog la (other than qinyilimlim and my mummy..) so i wont tag anyone..

bertha told me to write 10 things that i want to but i won't ever say to 10 different people and make no mention of any names.. it's so difficult! maybe cus i have nothing to say to anybody. or maybe i'll say anything.. or im not honest with myself.. or everything. but u guys can try it. i've been thinking about it for many days and i still cant start on my number one. hurhurhur. someday someday i will.

This is our God (Hillsong-Reuben Morgan)

Your grace is enough, more than i need
at Your word i will believe
i wait for you, draw near again
let Your spirit make me new

i will fall at Your feet, i will fall at Your feet
and i will worship You here

Your presence in me, Jesus light the way
by the power of Your word
i am restored, i am redeemed
by Your spirit i am free

freely You gave it all for us,
surrendered Your life upon that cross,
great is the love poured out for all,
this is our God

lifted on high from death to life, forever our God is glorified
servant and king, rescued the world
this is our God

it's CHRISTmas eve, it's great to be home, it's heartwarming to see familiar faces and places, my room, my bed, my piano.. even the heavy rain sounds so comforting. so yes, Christmas is almost here, hip hurray! ive always been hyped for Christmas year after year, there's even excitement all around the streets of singapore, with all the fancy lightings and dangling lollipops, technicolor-forever-changing decors and bling blings wrapping the malls.. mega sales, discounts, offers, huge crowds and long queues of last minute christmas shoppers. "chestnuts roasting in an open fire..." christmas tracks play, choirs carolling, eager eyes waiting for the clock to strike 12 before attacking the beautifully wrapped gifts and then complaining that it wasnt the gift they wanted.

christmas has become yet another excuse for piling the home with more gifts and for retail stores to make money.. yea maybe attend a church service, have a family gathering.. but where has the real meaning of Christmas gone?
do you still remember that many years ago, someone was born into this world, though He was God, He lived as a man and endured pain and hardship. He taught the world to have faith, to have hope, to have love and He demonstrated the greatest love of all on the cross. that's what Christmas about.. the greatest gift from God: Christ Jesus, who saw us sinners and not only had compassion on us, but loved us unconditionally.
so what are you giving to God this Christmas?

Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. Romans 15:13

MERRY CHRISTMAS, JESUS LOVES YOU

i feel like i've just returned to planet earth after a long long time when actually it's just been a week in adelaide. Overseas Christian Fellowship Convention 2008 was super, awesome, great, fantastic.. i-want-to-go-back-there-right-now kinda good. the camp only went on for 5 days but it was 5 days of intensive learning and 'awakening', which i would usually take maybe a semester to digest.
camp theme was THE KING'S RETURN, GET READY. it's basically reminding us to be ready for Christ's return.

2Peter3 explains everything...
10But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare.[a]
11Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives 12as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.[b]That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. 13But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness.
14So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. 15Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. 16He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.
17Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position. 18But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

it just made me think.. if the Lord were to return tomorrow, would i be ready to welcome Him, and be accountable for what I've done with my life? what have i been wasting my life with? when i come into His presence on the day of His return, what will matter most to Him? is it the same as what matters most to me? i haven't been putting in much effort in spreading the message of power and salvation to the unreached countries.. i havent even been putting in effort to spread the message to those around me. maybe its fear of rejection and being mocked and being left out, maybe its the feeling of inadequacy, maybe because i need to make sure my own life is fine and cared for, my needs are met, my goals are reached before i can start on anything that does not benefit me. but does that make God happy? is that what He wants? am i picking up the cross daily and following Him? hurhur.. big fat no.. and no i dont want to live like that and feel guilty when God asks me about my life!
i want to live my life totally surrendered to God, availing myself, my time, my energy to His works and His kingdom, standing firm in this faith, encouraging others, reaching out to others. and i'll need your prayers! and remind myself to do so everyday!!!!!!

PFFFFTTT.

whee exams are long over and out of the window and i havent been on msn much (well.. uhm compared to last time) because my laptop burnt. like.. really it burnt no joke. it was the last exam day and i was reading anatomy lectures when i saw this white feather float past.. and i realised it was smoke (this is when u go "OMG! WO DE TIAN AH! ZHEN DE MA!!?!"). yes. zhen de. so yea i switched it off and it nv turned on again. and God is really amazing because He made it tahan till my last exam which is really cool =)

so yes. been out and around doing stuff. my first shopping in a long while.. RED DOT STORE, BIG W, SUBI MARKET with my dad. HEHHE. really.. retail therapy works even in grocery stores.. its amazing. i feel happy. red dot store's the coolest it has many santa claus things heehee and there's lotsa cheap stuff I LIKE CHEAP STUFF HOHOHO.

and ive been bz packing stuff and chucking stuff out too.. therefore having to try on old clothes.. its quite depressing when it comes to jeans.. my leg goes in easily now (they used to be too tight) but when it goes all the way up, its impossible to even move the zip by 1mm =( i used to have problems squeezing my thigh in and then there's all these excess butt space.. but now its the other way round.. dammit.. ahahha OH WELL.

lalala adelaide tmr hip hurray =D

My Time With You (by David Choi and Kina Grannis)



We're going to the beach today
We're gonna laugh and sing our cares away
The sun is shining on our face
We can take it in and let it out and say...


La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la


I do enjoy my time with you
Making the best of everything we do
We're gonna try on something new
And we'll make it ours before the day is through


And now the sun has said goodnight
Just want to say I had a real good time
I think I really feel all right (all right)
I don't ever ever wanna say goodbye


La, la-la, la-la, la-la
La, la-la, la-la, la-la


listen to it here!
http://ai.xanga.com/mp3/mytimewithyou.mp3
ah.. good music =) this song is so happy. =D



ON THE OTHER HAND, happiness seems so far away...
how many hours more till the long awaited thursday!!!!



that song's stuck in my head now. lalalalalalala...lalalalalalala...



HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTIE AH GOH GOH YO YO
may your wishes come true =) MWA!

nerve injuries..neuropraxia.. axonotemesis..neurotemesis..
bone healing.. hematoma, inflammation, callus, consolidation, remodelling
*nods and dozes off* *snores* *drools*
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

=D weehoo

end of my lifelong (1 semester) struggle with human bio depression (less than a semester actually.. lets say, a fraction of the exam period. ahhaha)

i watched Enchanted! xD

aww its so funny and cute.

(HEEHEE they're on a dayung sampan!)

i love how giselle always manages to break out into songs, and make pretty dresses from curtains and floormats, and how prince edward is so dramamama..HOHO

but my favourite's pip the chipmunk =D

how he imitates nathaniel and giselle's poison apple scene was the cutest thing ever!

AAWWWWW. and how he squeaks.. AWWW!! SO CUTE!! *heart melts*

morgan's a cute kid too.. =D she learns karate haha and i love how she comments on stuff in such a -duh- manner.. HEEHEEHEE sho cutee

sigh. it's amazing how my mood swings from longkang low to skyhigh.

i feel like a kid who throws tantrums and screams for attention, ignorant to the needs and moods of others. so selfishly expecting the world to revolve around her again and again. i've been such a crybaby (its seriously stupid human bio..), it's really annoying. but i thank God for placing such mature and encouraging souls close to me. thank you all who shared, prayed for, listened and encouraged me even though im unreasonably grouchy, even though there's enough stuff to worry about. thank you for time spent lazing in the sun or labs or libraries or the study desks at home or msn or karrawarra and coles =)

this week's devotion from subichurch's oneheart.onemind.oneLord talks about community, how we should have an attitude of a humble servant, selfless and honouring others above ourselves, compromising and giving, encouraging and building each other up, for we are members of ONE body, united in Christ. and I suddenly realised that I do have a lot to work on.

hmm. selflessness.. others before self. i remember wenzhen telling us about a friend who was a really good example of a selfless person. as a mentor to his mentees, he really did put them before himself, willing to sacrifice his time for them even though it was exam period. and of course, the perfect example that Jesus set: "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13. if im not even willing to give up a little bit of my time to people, how can i even learn to love like Jesus? if im not even willing to venture out of my little bubble for others, how can i? it's so easy to say: be selfless be selfless.. but what exactly is being selfless? the more i think about it, the more i see how selfish i am.. it's so ugly..yuck. and then i think about what Christ did again. there was nothing He did that deserved such a painful death, and so much humiliation.. but so that we sinners could be reconciled with God, he suffered the pain and gave his life. and then He rose to life on the third day after He died! =D but think about it.. how selfless was that? He could have easily went "but that's none of my business" and avoided all the unneccessary pain, like how we go "but i don't have time for that" and leave people feeling lonely and upset.. or "it's not safe for ME" and leave unreached people overseas clueless that there is a God who loves them. or "they will think im a weirdo" and therefore choose to keep quiet about being a Christian and not share about Christ's great act of selflessness. ive gotta get off my bum and get this selflessness thing started!!

there's something with this season. quote glenna: SPRING.. the season of love.

never believed it, but this year, so true. they strike the people around me in the form of boy problems and long phone calls and hankypanky and i dont know what else. like all of the people i hang out with.. geez.. where's mine?

so to all those cute guys out there, call me. *bats eyelids* AHHAHAHAH
and while i'm at it, i thought i might help bananathornton out too...

ok im just kidding. hahaha. ive been listening to kinagrannis lately. she's really good! go youtube her! i love her voice. and listen to her sing the 1234 song by feist. its so cool how she grew up singing 3 part harmonies with her sisters while washing dishes. i should make my kids do that too heeheehee. oh but she is really talented. REALLY. GO LISTEN RIGHT NOW!

bedtime! gnight!

im feeling grumpy
D=
everything seems to annoy me so easily.
human bio gives me major depression
WWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i need to play wii
i need to play guitar heroes
i need to scream n whine
i need next thursday to come quickly

then i'll be FWEEEE TO FLYYYYY

hello spongebob, im ur number one fan =D
ur songs make me happy!

F is for friends who do stuff together
U is for U and ME
N it for NEwhere, NEtime at all
down here in the deep blue sea!

F is for frolick through all the flowers
U is for ukelele
N is for nosepicking, sharing gum and sandlicking here with my best buddy

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i wasn having a laughing fit.. it was part of the song.

3 main arteries that supply the gut: [CSI] Coeliac trunk, Superior mesenteric, Inferior mesenteric
external salivary glands:
parrot sits on the upper molar.. Parotid, located near the 2nd upper molar
subway man beside my fren.. submandibular gland, located lateral to lingual frenulum
sob and sit on the floor.. sublingual, located at the floor of mouth

HEEHEE SARA ONG TING TONG I REMEMBER!

i've planned my 2nd year timetable! whheee.
i end school at 6 on mondays n tuesdays =(

IM ANNOYEDDDDDDDD >=(