its new
its confusing
its funny
its embarrassing
its cute
seriously, my mind's a maze with deceptions that fool even myself. other times, it just blanks out to make my life simple.
but its time to think
its time to think.

time to go. AGAIN.
thank God for internet.
HURRRR

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
With my maker's fingerprints?

Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever I will seek You

Chorus:'Cause all You are, is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You

Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one name?

saturday's baking with esther, yanyan, josh n berts was productive although it was VERY LONG n it was driving all of us nuts.. causing berts to talk to bread and do weird dances to barney's mr sun song HAHA. but the breads were lovely =) well most of them.( we bought home the ugly ones hehhee.) and esther and family (including bruno their dog) were very nice and hospitable =D the oven was very friendly too and it worked hard non stop for like 8-9 hours!!

and thanks to esther, we now know how to make fruit loaves n cheese buns n sausage buns!



and sale was good =) thank you for the orders, purchases! we managed to raise $1000+ from the sales (including the cost price)

we had a prayer meet today and josh's sharing + all the praying reminded me of something more. this fundraising has shown us more than the money that has been raised, but also the love and support of the people around as and most of all, God's hands working to make this camp a successful one =)
i must say, i'm really touched that people were willing to pay $2 for the tiny buns (sorry i didn't know they'd turn out so tiny) and loaves and cakes as well.. pastors and people from church who allowed us to sell the stuff in church and helped us publicise it in the service, offered advice and showed much support =) the aunties and uncles who came to buy the food even though the prices might have scared you..the youths who came.. even by standing at the stall and looking at the things we have to sell, you guys have encouraged me and shown me support! and making the choice to buy the bread for $2 was also very encouraging! (because im a very kiam person and i like to make every single cent worth it) thank you for being so generous!
i'll go find out the recipes if any of u are interested so lemme know =)

and then there's the people that donated money/ paid more than the total price. thank you thank you for your generosity! we've now got more than 2/3 of the amount that we're going to raise and it has only been 3 weeks since we started on our fundraising! thank you and thank God!

God is really amazing! we might be getting Tony Anthony to come speak at camp! the story goes like this.. OCF invited Tony Anthony(an evangelist) to come speak to us on the 24th April 09, but someone suddenly had an idea of getting him to speak for Easter Camp (10th-13th April 09) and amazingly, he has a free slot on the 11th, at the time which we had planned to do a workshop thing and were looking for speakers to come in for! so it all fits perfectly =D

2 Corinthians 9:7,8
Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.


other than all these fundraising, ive been listening to my new 'across the universe' soundtrack! woo so nice! "i've just seen a face" is so nice n happy happy! ah beatles makes nice music =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-sU4xZur8A&NR=1

i had an exciting realisation today which made me feel super stupid.
bus 27 goes from sengkang to changi airport in around 30-45mins!!!
D= WHY NEVER TELL ME EARLIER!!! devoo......
the last time i tried to take a shortcut to the airport by bus instead of train, i ended up taking over an hour to arrive!!! i took 80 from sengkang to serangoon, then 53 from serangoon to changi. omg SO GEH KIANG! i was nodding my head off and i bet it was ready to fall out n roll out of the bus anytime. and i was apologising like mad to ivan and howard when i reached la. oh my goodness. long bus rides are so... ugh. my eyelids cant stop shutting and i feel my bum expanding and getting pressure sores man.

AND AND AND.. the mrt stop reaches all 3 terminals in changi airport!! OMG! SinCE WHEn! HOW COME I DUnO! D=

ANYWAY, GOD PLEASE BLESS OUR BAKESALE! WE HAVE A MILLION THINGS TO BAKE WITH A TINY OVEN AND 6 PAIRS OF HANDS AND ONE DAY ONLY!

BUT THANK YOU GOD FOR THE MANY ORDERS =) AND THANK YOU ALL WHO ORDERED! EVERY SINGLE BREAD U ORDERED COUNTS! =))))

GO EASTERCAMP! WOOOOOOO

if ur from logos and ur reading this blog, HELLO! come and buy bread on sunday please =D thank you goodnight! long day tmr.

BAKESALE!!!! this bakesale thing is part of easter camp fundraising for OCF. we're aiming to raise $3k and yes it is a big sum esp when we're all still students, SO, EVERY BREAD COUNTS. seeseesee, they're really good for breakfast, if u have no time to cook lunch, u can buy this, if u dont wanna eat too much for dinner, u can eat this, if u are hungry at night, u can get this for supper. u can have it for tea.. WOW! and vday is coming. ur valentine will get sick of chocolates, so.. GET THESE BUNS/LOAVES! hehehehehe. please let me know if u wanna get some by thursday please! (that's like tmr. omg) AHH TELL ME NOW!!!

jeannieloi@hotmail.com
91145038

I HAVE A NEWBORN NEPHEW, JOHANAN! =)

welcome to the family little baby boy!

he's wenting jiejie+caleb korkor's first son! oleh congrats!

i was just wondering how it would have felt/ how it feels giving birth.. contractions, epidurals, drips, lethargy, having half of ur body numb... o.0 how scary's that. i'l be happy hugging kids in a childcare centre. hahahaa for now at least.

ive said it a million times but i still cant stop saying this, but time really seriously flies. TIME FLIES. koochiwoochie little babies i used to see in church now have hair on their heads and can talk, sing, run, read.. its weird. especially when u only come back once in 6 months. my baby sister whose head used to smell like durian (in a nice way. cus i liked it. normally i dont like durians), has feet bigger than mine and is almost my height. and with the passing of time, comes ageing. with ageing, comes adulthood. with adulthood, comes responsibility. thank goodness my age still ends with a teen. but still.. what does the future hold for us? *breaks into a song: QUE SERA SERA!!! whatever will be will be.. the future's not us to see... qUE sera sera.. what will be will be!*

soon enough, i'll be graduating and working.. but there's all these decisions to make.. to stay or not to stay, to be or not to be, to join or not to join.. are they pleasing to God? will i choose what I want over what God wants? no wonder aunties insist on being called jiejies. they want to think that they're still young and carefree. ahahah.

hello cardboard mountain, long time no see...

i used to find joy in cheering people up/ listening to their problems but of late its always not working. so.. sorry people

does anyone have a joke please.

can someone bishi bashi with me please.

i need a trampoline please.

i wanna dance again please.

i wanna laugh at xiangqin and zhishu in ISWAK please.

i wanna live my sec3 life again please.

perth is coming so soon. lalala i will survive i will survive

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, [a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

im sorry for being insensitive. so much for making it my new year resolution to be selfless.













how?

i know this is so very late, but nevertheless, happy new year everyone =)

2008's gone past like a gust of wind, and its time to welcome 2009! its weird how quickly time flies. its been 3 whole years since i left Singapore, every return trip has comforting yet foreign. new shops appear, places change, people change, relationships change.. some are strengthened while others slowly and unnoticingly diminish. each vacation brings different experiences but this would be considered the busiest one by far. OCF OCF OCF OCF OCF OCF. sometimes it may be upsetting that it takes up so much of my time in singapore when i should be spending time with my family and friends.. but my main new year resolution is to be SELFLESS. i keep forgetting about it so i havent been very selfless yet.. anyway, i know God has an amazing year planned for OCF (overseas christian fellowship). it may be just me, but somehow, God has been reminding us that OCF is about campus outreach. its not merely a place for singaporean/overseas christian students to hang out and chit chat, but an opportunity for us to bring God to people and people to God, especially those on campus. so EASTER CAMP and DISCOVERY GROUP will be up and running in no time and i pray that God will equip the members involved with the right tools and knowledge and ability to fulfil their roles, for unity within the committees, for open hearts that are ready to receive the love of God, for boldness and courage, passion and enthusiasm for people, and the right mindset and focus - all for God. it's been a busy beginning to a going-to-be-busy year, but im hyped and im excited =D

Romans8:28

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. i am yellowsandals' long time friend.. 15 YEARS WoOoo

2. i recently cut my hair short after 7 years of long hair

3. i put on 7kg ever since i left for Perth

4. i am very square and not creative and boring

5. i am shy and quiet

6. really. i nv bluff you.

7. my father has an annoying moustache that i always dream about shaving..

8. my mum is the one in the family who catches cockroaches

9. my sister is a scary slobbery kiss monster

10. i used to love centre parting with hair clips on both sides

11. i have a hello kitty phone. dont laugh at me. but the phone's cool okay.. dont playplay!

12. almost every day of my holiday has been filled even though im not working. its rather amazing.

13. i made lips, ducks, cows, faces, stars, hearts out of pineapple tarts yesterday

14. i live with my cousin when i'm in perth

15. i like the sky the clouds and the stars

16. i've had ballet lessons, piano lessons, drum lessons, voice lessons, guitar lessons and percussion lessons but i never seem good enough to play anything

17. my bedroom in singapore has no bed. im edward cullen hahahaha

18. i didn't know 25 is actually a very big number. im running out of things to say.

19. im married to kristi facebookly and we had a rockmelon for a baby which we ate.. we were hungry.

20. my mum has facebook

21. i think jogging is boring. i prefer team sports. but i dont play them. im a bum.

22. i duno how to make friends

23. my gmail is jeannieloister@gmail.com. i think i should start using it.

24. this is damn embarrassing but i am clueless about what goes on in the world.. i thought obama was a soccer team (that was last year when he won the election thing)

25. i saw smoke coming out of my laptop and thought it was a feather.

i don't know who reads this blog la (other than qinyilimlim and my mummy..) so i wont tag anyone..

bertha told me to write 10 things that i want to but i won't ever say to 10 different people and make no mention of any names.. it's so difficult! maybe cus i have nothing to say to anybody. or maybe i'll say anything.. or im not honest with myself.. or everything. but u guys can try it. i've been thinking about it for many days and i still cant start on my number one. hurhurhur. someday someday i will.

This is our God (Hillsong-Reuben Morgan)

Your grace is enough, more than i need
at Your word i will believe
i wait for you, draw near again
let Your spirit make me new

i will fall at Your feet, i will fall at Your feet
and i will worship You here

Your presence in me, Jesus light the way
by the power of Your word
i am restored, i am redeemed
by Your spirit i am free

freely You gave it all for us,
surrendered Your life upon that cross,
great is the love poured out for all,
this is our God

lifted on high from death to life, forever our God is glorified
servant and king, rescued the world
this is our God

it's CHRISTmas eve, it's great to be home, it's heartwarming to see familiar faces and places, my room, my bed, my piano.. even the heavy rain sounds so comforting. so yes, Christmas is almost here, hip hurray! ive always been hyped for Christmas year after year, there's even excitement all around the streets of singapore, with all the fancy lightings and dangling lollipops, technicolor-forever-changing decors and bling blings wrapping the malls.. mega sales, discounts, offers, huge crowds and long queues of last minute christmas shoppers. "chestnuts roasting in an open fire..." christmas tracks play, choirs carolling, eager eyes waiting for the clock to strike 12 before attacking the beautifully wrapped gifts and then complaining that it wasnt the gift they wanted.

christmas has become yet another excuse for piling the home with more gifts and for retail stores to make money.. yea maybe attend a church service, have a family gathering.. but where has the real meaning of Christmas gone?
do you still remember that many years ago, someone was born into this world, though He was God, He lived as a man and endured pain and hardship. He taught the world to have faith, to have hope, to have love and He demonstrated the greatest love of all on the cross. that's what Christmas about.. the greatest gift from God: Christ Jesus, who saw us sinners and not only had compassion on us, but loved us unconditionally.
so what are you giving to God this Christmas?

Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. Romans 15:13

MERRY CHRISTMAS, JESUS LOVES YOU

i feel like i've just returned to planet earth after a long long time when actually it's just been a week in adelaide. Overseas Christian Fellowship Convention 2008 was super, awesome, great, fantastic.. i-want-to-go-back-there-right-now kinda good. the camp only went on for 5 days but it was 5 days of intensive learning and 'awakening', which i would usually take maybe a semester to digest.
camp theme was THE KING'S RETURN, GET READY. it's basically reminding us to be ready for Christ's return.

2Peter3 explains everything...
10But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare.[a]
11Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives 12as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.[b]That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. 13But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, the home of righteousness.
14So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. 15Bear in mind that our Lord's patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. 16He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.
17Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position. 18But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

it just made me think.. if the Lord were to return tomorrow, would i be ready to welcome Him, and be accountable for what I've done with my life? what have i been wasting my life with? when i come into His presence on the day of His return, what will matter most to Him? is it the same as what matters most to me? i haven't been putting in much effort in spreading the message of power and salvation to the unreached countries.. i havent even been putting in effort to spread the message to those around me. maybe its fear of rejection and being mocked and being left out, maybe its the feeling of inadequacy, maybe because i need to make sure my own life is fine and cared for, my needs are met, my goals are reached before i can start on anything that does not benefit me. but does that make God happy? is that what He wants? am i picking up the cross daily and following Him? hurhur.. big fat no.. and no i dont want to live like that and feel guilty when God asks me about my life!
i want to live my life totally surrendered to God, availing myself, my time, my energy to His works and His kingdom, standing firm in this faith, encouraging others, reaching out to others. and i'll need your prayers! and remind myself to do so everyday!!!!!!