life is too amazing sometimes.
1) bec's a lovely tutor
2) assignment due date is one day later woohoo
thank God! :)
Sunday, October 18, 2009
heal my heart and make it clean
open up my eyes to the things unseen
show me how to love like You have loved me
break my heart from what breaks Yours
everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
as I walk from earth into eternity
the past few days has been so dramamama. so exhausting. so scary..
it's not as serious as it sounds.. but they just don't mix well with a weak minded person and period. :(
apart from those, it's also heartwarming to know that God has sent angels to watch over me and support and encourage me, always ready to listen.
mum keeps reminding me that i can always find aunties and uncles that can help me
kat's listening ears when i sleptover
the sunrise to remind me of His sovereignty
OCF makes me happy :)
sleepover + mugging + chatting with meow was really encouraging. Her child-like faith, her prayerfulness, her readiness to listen and linking everything back to God, her love and her big heart for people. Thank God for placing Meow in the team! Meh's also another girl that encourage me. Her big heart for God, her love for OCFers, her silly faces, her clear calling to serve God so passionately at such a young age.. Their family is so nice too. God bless meow & meh's home :)
bern reminded me that i make bad excuses for being late. that's so true. i was a bit upset and taken aback because it seemed quite harsh, but i did pray that God will show me my weaknesses that I should work on. and thank God for her honesty. Bernie is one encouraging sister in Christ who's so disciplined and ready to listen and put things into practice and it's such a privilege to have her on the team :)
Campus Unity Prayer with OCFers- praying with different people, fellowshipping with them, watching people grow. God has been really kind to OCF. Thank God for Stephen who stood up for what's right, God please reveal Yourself to him and touch him with Your love! thank God for manly men who also stood up for their faith! God bless them!
Sunday school on saturday- thank God for siong, alex and chris! they bring much joy to my life and teach me so much in different ways. looking forward to more sunday/saturday schools! :) +MINYAPteagirl!
the interesting exciting journey from subi to burns beach to oceanreef to burns to ocean reef to burns (many time). Thank God for alex, maximilo and siong. getting lost together with sunflowers and bananas and strawberries and a nikon and songs of praise was fun :)
thank God for sokjhin my faithful passenger who's always understanding and listening and entertaining. God bless her and guide and grow her when she returns home after graduating!
my lovely OT friends are also a blessing in my life.. i feel so undeserving of such love and support. always calling/texting/msning me to see how i am, asking if im alright and if i need help, encouraging me when i feel like dying from assignments :) what would i do without you all!
there's also glenna who calls to check up on me to see if i am doing any work. and kristi who gives me hugs. God bless them in their lives as they serve You!
it's so important to list these things down because i always seem to dwell on things that are upsetting/overwhelming. and these remind me of blessings from God during my difficult times.
You are SUPERNATURAL :D
Friday, October 16, 2009
hello squatsquat,
i managed to go to the beach yesterday. :) but when i reached there, it wasn't warm and sunny. it was breezy, slightly chilly and the sun was setting. i read matthew24-28 and i learnt many things.
the end of age comes like a thief in the night. will you be ready for it? or will you be caught unaware? our present mindset always looks towards the far future, what we should do now to achieve our dreams- get married, have children, live here, live there, travel here, travel there, earn xxx amt of money by what age, own a company, be a taitai, i don't know what else.. but the idea that the end of age is near doesn't quite sink in as much to make us vigilant and prepared to welcome the return of our King.
4Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,[a]' and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.
9"Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.
44So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.
the parable of the talents made me think- am i being that shrewd servant who received one talent and hid it underground? what have i been doing with everything God has blessed me with?
41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'
44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."
i'm actually not as good as i think myself to be.. there's the old man that sits outside subi and asks for a couple of dollars whenever we walk past. He's always ignored.. the people who need to eat and drink much more than i do.. i'm not doing much about it. those that need clothes much more than i do.. do i think of helping them at my own expense or am i only considering them when i have leftovers? when people go to prison, are they condemned by the church for being a sinner (aren't we all?) or are they visited and loved and supported, encouraged as they attempt to start life anew and seek forgiveness?
i was reminded that Jesus' last days were not only physically painful, they were emotionally quite hurtful too.
Judas, one of the disciples that Jesus loved, decides to betray Jesus and joins in the plot to kill his own teacher
when Jesus asked His disciples to pray while He also prayed at Gethsemane, when His soul was "overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death", He came back and found them asleep. How lonely and unsupported it must have felt to be in that position- to know that you are dying, and you're the only one praying. and the people you love, that you have spent so much time teaching and serving, are sleeping instead of praying with you. so painful..
Jesus did no wrong, but had to bear the weight of the world's sins by dying on the cross. As God in human body, he was sorrowful and troubled. He feels emotions as much as we do. at Gethsamane, before the time He knew He'd be taken away, Jesus prayed for God's will to be done despite His physical self feeling so distressed. Dying on the cross is nothing He had done to deserve, Him being all powerful and all knowing, yet He submitted to God's will out of love for us. 3 times He prayed "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done." . this hurt isn't just a 'my gf dumped me,' or 'i failed 2 units' kind of pain.. but being sentenced to death on the cross, nails piercing through His hands and feet because He acknowledged being Christ, the son of God. He could always choose to say no He wasnt and escape that pain but He knew it was written that all these were to happen in order that we are saved from sin.
Despite their promises that they will never disown Jesus even if it means death, "all the disciples deserted him and fled" when he was captured. Peter denied being Christ's follower 3 times.
Jesus was mocked, whipped, nailed, spat at, made fun of, humiliated by the people He was dying for.
and He went through all these, just so we can be saved. How amazing is that
i managed to go to the beach yesterday. :) but when i reached there, it wasn't warm and sunny. it was breezy, slightly chilly and the sun was setting. i read matthew24-28 and i learnt many things.
the end of age comes like a thief in the night. will you be ready for it? or will you be caught unaware? our present mindset always looks towards the far future, what we should do now to achieve our dreams- get married, have children, live here, live there, travel here, travel there, earn xxx amt of money by what age, own a company, be a taitai, i don't know what else.. but the idea that the end of age is near doesn't quite sink in as much to make us vigilant and prepared to welcome the return of our King.
4Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,[a]' and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.
9"Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.
44So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.
the parable of the talents made me think- am i being that shrewd servant who received one talent and hid it underground? what have i been doing with everything God has blessed me with?
41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'
44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."
i'm actually not as good as i think myself to be.. there's the old man that sits outside subi and asks for a couple of dollars whenever we walk past. He's always ignored.. the people who need to eat and drink much more than i do.. i'm not doing much about it. those that need clothes much more than i do.. do i think of helping them at my own expense or am i only considering them when i have leftovers? when people go to prison, are they condemned by the church for being a sinner (aren't we all?) or are they visited and loved and supported, encouraged as they attempt to start life anew and seek forgiveness?
i was reminded that Jesus' last days were not only physically painful, they were emotionally quite hurtful too.
Judas, one of the disciples that Jesus loved, decides to betray Jesus and joins in the plot to kill his own teacher
when Jesus asked His disciples to pray while He also prayed at Gethsemane, when His soul was "overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death", He came back and found them asleep. How lonely and unsupported it must have felt to be in that position- to know that you are dying, and you're the only one praying. and the people you love, that you have spent so much time teaching and serving, are sleeping instead of praying with you. so painful..
Jesus did no wrong, but had to bear the weight of the world's sins by dying on the cross. As God in human body, he was sorrowful and troubled. He feels emotions as much as we do. at Gethsamane, before the time He knew He'd be taken away, Jesus prayed for God's will to be done despite His physical self feeling so distressed. Dying on the cross is nothing He had done to deserve, Him being all powerful and all knowing, yet He submitted to God's will out of love for us. 3 times He prayed "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done." . this hurt isn't just a 'my gf dumped me,' or 'i failed 2 units' kind of pain.. but being sentenced to death on the cross, nails piercing through His hands and feet because He acknowledged being Christ, the son of God. He could always choose to say no He wasnt and escape that pain but He knew it was written that all these were to happen in order that we are saved from sin.
Despite their promises that they will never disown Jesus even if it means death, "all the disciples deserted him and fled" when he was captured. Peter denied being Christ's follower 3 times.
Jesus was mocked, whipped, nailed, spat at, made fun of, humiliated by the people He was dying for.
and He went through all these, just so we can be saved. How amazing is that
Thursday, October 15, 2009
SUNNY SUNNY BEACH DAY
there is actually plenty to be thankful for but i dont know why my attitude's so smelly sometimes.
i've been sucha grumpy bratty ratbag, queen of procrastinator.
but maybe because God sent the sun to shine so brightly today, it is my happy day :D
which reminds me of this song Chris taught us in sunday school on saturday (saturday school?)
It's a happy day
and i thank God for the weather
It's a happy day
Livin' it for my Lord
It's a happy day
things are gonna get better
Livin' each day with God's promises in my heart
so simple but so timely and beautiful :) Chris is an amazing Sunday school teacher and she has 6 kids of her own.. 7 grandkids i think... so she's had plenty of experience. and she names her guitars! good ol' Jethro is my fav because he looks so vintage. and he looks like a giant violin. heehee. the lesson was on prayer that day and i realised that i havent been praying as often. and i havent been putting much faith in the Lord.
BUT! praise God for His faithfulness.
midautumn fest went great! it is amazing to see so many nationalities celebrating with lanterns and singing chinese worship songs to Jesus. :)) and meow&meh's parents were so generous to open up their house and help us with cooking and cleaning..
lc prayer meet at burns beach! :) i love my dearest lc! ateamosupremo's like my new family haha. we're so different.. just like different body parts playing their roles with Christ as head :)
combined bible study! im so encouraged by the bible study leaders that volunteered to lead :) it was also a good time of fellowship among the three centres. Murdoch did well with preparing everything.. all glory to God!
lovely people! i need to learn to appreciate people more! thank God for the loveliest people in my life.
my lovely parents who dont throw tantrums like i do when i call them after they've fallen asleep, asking me to jiayou because i was unmotivated to do my assignment.
siong & meow's encouraging smses
maximilo's chinese dances and chipmunk voice HAHAHAHAHHAHA
caleb's encouragement and wealth of knowledge
sara's loving calls
christie and haniksha's love dramas ahha
kat's vege curry delivered to my doorstep
kristi's company and her handmedown clothes WE LOVE MAO'S LAST DANCER!!!
sylvia's generosity (tookbegi yumyum) i will come with honeydew milk tea no pearls soon :)
sok jhin my faithful passenger hahahaha she listens and share share things with me
chris who prayed with me
alex's suakuness (how can u not know what a papadum is? HAHAHA)
skype with stickerfu in illinois! msn with malichan in london! gohbiaomei i got ur postcard from milan!
sean your photos are amazing!!!! can open shop!!
so many more people i can thank God for!!
anyway, yes thank God for people that keep me sane when the insanity wave comes rolling in, for pushing me to remember to put God in the picture..
God sees the giant picture and we're only looking at this small tiny fraction of it. Lord I pray for wisdom to know Your will and serenity to accept things that can't be changed, and the courage to change those that i can. In Christ's most precious name, AMEN!
“How great you are, O Sovereign LORD! There is no one like you, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.”- 2 Samuel 7:22
1 Thessalonians 5
1Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. 3While people are saying, "Peace and safety," destruction will come on them suddenly, as labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.
4But you, brothers, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. 5You are all sons of the light and sons of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. 6So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled. 7For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. 8But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. 9For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
it's so easy to slack off and be sloppy in the things that we do. take our own sweet time. leave important things to tomorrow and then tomorrow again and again. what if Christ returned tomorrow? will you be ready to account for what you have done in your life?
1Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, 2for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. 3While people are saying, "Peace and safety," destruction will come on them suddenly, as labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.
4But you, brothers, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. 5You are all sons of the light and sons of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. 6So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled. 7For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. 8But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. 9For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
it's so easy to slack off and be sloppy in the things that we do. take our own sweet time. leave important things to tomorrow and then tomorrow again and again. what if Christ returned tomorrow? will you be ready to account for what you have done in your life?
Monday, October 12, 2009
Thursday, October 08, 2009
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!??!?!?!
after neuropsych lec yesterday, i concluded that i have ADHD minus the hyperactivity because im a bum. ADD?
youtube=evil
chocolate=evil
STAY AWAY!!!
its beach weather in oz once again! :D and i realised i havent been to the beach to swim in perth. AT ALL. its been like what.. 4 years? what's going on!!! (1st 2 years my parents decided not to sign the beach permission form from the boarding house.) the other 2... i dont know. always so full of excuses. i see a trend somewhere here.
but its homework time its homework time. ITS HOMEWORK TIME
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Sunday, October 04, 2009
1. i need to be more appreciative & grateful
2. i need to say more things that build people up
3. i need to be bold and step out of my bubble
God, i know you're moulding me.
sometimes its weird. when the person you think you'd have so much to share with feels so distant. when your patience runs low and expectations go rocket high, when a small issue makes you flare up, when you know you ought to sit down and pray with that person, but you don't know what to say.. and love seems to run low. when you cant help but compare yourself with that person, be annoyed and feel inferior.. the crack appears and slowly but surely it widens. and then we drift. what am i supposed to be learning from this, God?
2. i need to say more things that build people up
3. i need to be bold and step out of my bubble
God, i know you're moulding me.
sometimes its weird. when the person you think you'd have so much to share with feels so distant. when your patience runs low and expectations go rocket high, when a small issue makes you flare up, when you know you ought to sit down and pray with that person, but you don't know what to say.. and love seems to run low. when you cant help but compare yourself with that person, be annoyed and feel inferior.. the crack appears and slowly but surely it widens. and then we drift. what am i supposed to be learning from this, God?
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