jodieloi! dont see she small small ah! she actually beat the high score la! n before her were some macho men playing.... hahaha it was hilarious. n other macho men didnt dare to play after her (because we were watching if they would beat her score hurhurhur)
aww how pretty do u look vernon!
vicky jodie jeannie! <3

HI EVERYONE CHECK OUT MY HOT ANGMOH BOYFRIEND!!!

"eh go there pretend to be coolies!"
"one can be the rich taitai n the other can be the poor tired rickshaw man"
just one of the many while we sun tanned
our favourite ESCALATOR SHOTS!

and so i've been keeping myself busy in the last days of 2007. meeting up with friends, hanging out, laughing grumbling moaning at my family, cutting hair for 4.80, being annoyed by my dad who seems more anxious about my results than me. ('more' is actually a very big understatement), helping daryl do homework with the bs group but ending up having a sumptuous chocolate dried mango and strawberry chewing gum picnic with tips to lose flabs and lotsa randoms. watching devil beside you!!! and they kiss again!!! eating eating eating... bowling, unwrapping late christmas presents, dozing off in the car, dozing off at the dining table, dozing off on the sofa..running away from porridge brother's(zhoudi=jodie) pokes n pinches n scratches n wet kisses(run for ur life..........), trying to fill the whole bed so she doesnt roll onto mine and deprive me of my sleep...

ITS TIME TO START WRITING OUT MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! =D

i will think about it n come back soon!

=D

good news: the sun rose this morning, God loves you

I AM SO ANNOYED!!!

heeheehee SMILE JEANNIE. PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE. THAT PERSON IS NOT IRRITATING! NOT IRRITATING NOT IRRITATING NOT IRRITATING!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

oh my goodness you just shut up la! i mean please shut up.. AIYAH NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING

hooooooo

seeeeeeeee

hooooooo

seeeeeeeee

hooooooo

seeeeeeeee

hooooooo

seeeeeeeee

:) =D i am not annoyed.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Be lieve it, it is real. But only for a season.LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

a random ex-classmate/friend/human pops into my mind once in a while, and i start to think about my life then.. the people i was close to and i wonder now what did we actually talk about the whole time.. the reason i was close to them. i think hard and for some, i've forgotten what kind of person that friend is, only a vague impression that seems to be quickly fading. even her name takes much effort to be recalled.

sometimes i feel im losing the enthusiasm and spontaneity to go and make friends in a new foreign place. i dislike changes. i let my shyness get the better of me. i've started to silence myself but when i don't, i usually wallow myself in self pity, drowning people with negligible complaints and whines. im losing my optimism n becoming more like a cynical donkey, finding faults in whatever that comes my way, criticising for the sake of it.. WHAT IS THIS MAN! JEANNNIEEE!!! WHERE ARE YOU!! COME OUT WHEREVER YOU ARE!


i think i've had my fair share of goodbyes.. i hope i've learned some things this whole time..
i've learnt that 'keep in touch' doesnt necessarily work just because you say so. so, it's up to yourself to keep in touch.
i've learnt that whether you like it or not, some friends are bound to drift away (esp when u hav been trapped in a place w/out msn for months)

ok shuddup jeannieloi.

as i enter another phase to meet new people n keep in contact with the not new people, Lord i pray for the maturity and a grateful heart to cherish and appreciate what You have given me.
AMEN!

baptism! thanks mingming for coming even after u were pangseh-ed n had to come alone i know its really weird n difficult but im so touched u still came anyway! MWAH! im gonna use this as a new beginning. I WANT TO BE DIFFERENT! I WILL RE- COMMIT MYSELF TO GOD'S PURPOSES! MY EVERY ACTION,WORD,THOUGHT TO BE DEDICATED TO HIS WORKS! it's so easy to say all these but i always end up the greatest procrastinator.. BUT I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! so.... i wanna be a better daughter, grand daughter, great grand daughter (hahaha and so on...), a better sister, a better friend.... minhui's testimony on christmas eve inspired me to try to reach out to my friends and try to help n share with whatever i can and I WILL TRY! hehehe.
AND MY PROCRASTINATING SHALL COME TO A HALT! soon!
OK. GOODNIGHT MERRY CHRISTMAS..belated.. HEEHEE
HAPPY EARLY NEW YEAR!

the colours of my life <3

19 dec 2007-happy sweetsweet 17 dearest geraldineteoteoteoteoteooooo =)

shuen shuen where were you? we missed you so much!!!!

check out mingming's expression.. i would love to say its priceless but sorry.. it happens all the time... its the norm. hahah (she did that cuz she thought i was not going to take a photo of her hahaha)

the ZOO with 1724 =D (from nong nong ago...)

monkey n me =)) hahahaha okok constance and me

sometimes i despise myself.
for being selfish, thinking that the whole world revolves around me
for always thinking that i'm right, for secretly wanting to beat everyone else in what i do
for not putting myself in another person's shoes before i start accusing the person for the most unlikely reasons
for being petty, for thinking i am superior over others, for being a poor listener
for getting annoyed for the smallest reasons, for being inconsiderate
for being such a bum and not doing anything although i know im wasting precious time
for doing nothing about things that need to be done, bonds to be recovered
for expecting problems to solve by themselves
for putting others down
but despite all these, God still loves me unconditionally.
no matter how undeserving i am.
God's love can't be earned. it's given. by grace..
and how grateful i am for that =)

"pretend to wash your hand"

this week's been rather eventful and im getting rather worn out from the lack of sleep. haha.

lots of time though, i feel like im wasting my life away doing unproductive things...

i spend too much time in front of the stupid computer, i spend too much time sleeping (sometimes), i spend too much time watching tv shows... i dont know why but almost everything i do seems like time unproductively spent. its so annoying..

anyway... i was in the car with my sis while daddy n mummy were in the coffeeshop making some purchases when we witnessed a fight on the other side of the street. i wasnt wearing my glasses so i couldnt really tell what was going on but clearly it was drawing lots of attention. literally every eye in that area was looking towards the commotion but it annoyed me. it annoyed me that while watching people in trouble, everyone is so spontaneous. an uncle on a bike actually stopped, moved back a little and parked himself right next to our car, where he could get the perfect view of everything. what annoyed me even more is everyone's lack of common sense or maybe self something i dont know..knowing that they need to do something about the whole situation but choosing to just sit from a distance n watching with so much concentration tt its so amazing. i saw all the kpo faces poking their noses into the business of others and i was angry. but what annoyed me the most was myself. who was i to judge all these people who were doing the same things as i was? did i watch the fight? yes. did i take action n try to stop them? no. then y in the world was i annoyed with all of them? and y am i always so timid n annoying? y do i not step in to stand up for what i believe is right? why do i choose to keep quiet instead of speaking up for those being bitched about for the wrong reasons? why do i even let myself join in sometimes?

i also feel like such an irresponsible friend, not being able the be there for them while they were upset, having their dark moments.. only learning about things that happened to them through other friends...being unable to be of any help.. rarrh.

this living in 2 countries thing is making things so weird. it makes me feel detached from both places. it makes me confused. like while living in perth im still holding on to the past while i was in singapore. when i return to singapore, i continue with what i've held on to.. lagging behind, realising that everything's carried on. its sucha weird feeling.. its like travelling in a time machine. everything's different from what u expect. people change, places change, maybe i myself change too. i nv liked change... but i guess change is good sometimes... it only needs some getting used to.. i think i have problems expressing myself. i wanna be the kind of person who can put everything into words and just talk but i dont know what i do... i think i complain.. hmm.

i miss sec3 life..i miss sec1&2 life.. i miss pri sch life.. sigh.. this is what happens when one has nth to do... LALALALA GRRRRRRR RAAAArrrrrrhHHHHHH

i think i needa get a job.. can someone please recommend me a job for january? x

on a lighter note, went over to my fellow rich taitai neighbour audeedeechanmalichan's exploited apartment for a sleepover.. (thats where the lack of sleep came from) we had years worth of happenings to catch up on.. one day wasnt enough. haha. we talked and talked, explored the condo in the middle of the night and tried to view 'my' unit as well but the lights didnt turn on.. up on the 31st level were jaccuzzies n steam baths, floating pavillions n couches, the gym n the cinema room which resembles the inside of a plane. camwhored a lot.. pretending to be rich tai tai's with imaginary sparkling diamond rings, on the phone, and trying to..fly(?!???) anyway, returned to 'her' unit and talked till i dont know when n we went to sleep, woke up at 8.30 the next morning to go swimming! coolest pool ever.. jaccuzzing was good too.. taitais in the making. ahhah. we tried to look high class n all but hmm im not v sure... talked for ages and when we returned we realised it was 2.24pm (ard the time we wanted to go visit laoshi) watched ella enchanted in the movie room with our noodles n snacks n made our way to laoshi's where she cooked yummy dinner for us.. struggled to keep our eyes open, trying so hard to concentrate on what she was talking about. haha. nxt time we meet, GYM TIME! gotta work out to get rid of muffin tops n flabs!

"toilet is over there!"

we were trying to look professional...

im so sleepy now

nights to whoever.

its so nice to be home!

3 whole months free of homework and school.. MUAHAHA

singapore's such a beautiful place..

lalala

I CANT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!

the christmas tree is here.. each time the wind blows, i can smell

it.. so nice! =))

i just wish im not so tired so i can enjoy this holiday...

WHY AM I SO SLEEPY???/

when you're not feeling well, when your stomach's churning and you really need comforting... look out for this... slide down the rainbow.. and there it is.. the toilet bowl all ready for you... hahaha

time check 5.17am. i cant sleep!! >:( mebbe its the coffee grande ice cream at uncle joseph's or the cup of coffee at uncle fong's... or the maltesers and kitkats i had in the morning.. or its the feeling that i dont need to wake up early to study tomorrow. hehehe. I DONT KNOW. maybe i just miss the internet too much.

i miss the times when we were young and innocent (im still so innocent but innocent sounded nice with young so i put it there =p) i miss the times when all we had to worry about was if the hopscotch thing was 'chopped' by other people.. or your spelling and dictation and mental sums and ting xie were under 10/10... i used to do so well in school... in primary school. especially p1,2 and 3. i cant believe its been 10 years.... 10 WHOLE YEARS! i did my work and studying ever so diligently to please my parents. they always said i don't have to buy them birthday presents. i just have to do well in school and that would be the best present. "...but my exam is not on your birthday!" hmm.. i was rather stupid at the same time aye...
i dont know since when.. but it was quite clear when i entered secondary school i wasn't as motivated... i cried the first time i did badly for a test or exam and was quite amused my parents didnt look angry at all. my results continued plummetting nonetheless. hmmm. interesting.

i miss being in sec 1.. being in a new school.. getting lost even though it wasn't big at all.. thank God jolene was in my class.. she was like my compass! i miss the class enthusiasm, the childish streak still in us, before the stress came n drowned us.

my goodness the sun is actually rising. its 5.38am

I WANNA BE YOUNG AGAIN!

i miss blowing out people's birthday candles for them. i think i have a talent for blowing them out in a breath. maybe its the choir exercises...

ahh.. those were the days...

...when i carried the popular plastic bag around, reading chinese books with hanyu pinyin. maybe that's y i was smart when i was small.. i read so much. lalala

y isnt there anyone online...

SIGH.

i dont know what's this feeling... maybe its the "i think its bedtime" mood setting in.. good morning/night i let u choose...

oleh oleh, its a wonderful day!
exams no more and it's time for singapore!
eating chilling and shopping and more
jump for joy n drop dead on the floor!
happy happy joyful joyful
i think this rhyming thing is quite fun and quite cool

vicki did my nails today:bright pink and bright blue
how excited i am for summer hols, u wouldn have a single clue
the long awaited plane trip to the place i call home
in the pool i'll take a dip and the whole of compass point i'll comb
my dear friends and family i've missed so much, i just can't wait to return!
so many stories to tell, so much calories to be burnt
talking, haircuts, shopping, egg tarts,
jogging, dancing, singing, queuing
swimming, beaching, tanning, screaming
hugging, kissing, kicking, punching
so much laughter so much fun.
but right now i've got to run.
i've got no more brainpower to try to rhyme
so yeah. byebye poem!

i heard a song this guy made up on the radio..
its so funny... its this song that he sings for his children on halloween when we dresses up as...

THE PUMPKIN MAN!
I'm.. the pumpkin man, the pumpkin man!
I bring all the candy that I can.
I'm not scary, I'm not mean,
I only come on halloween,
I'm the pumpkin maaaaann!
I WANNA BE YOUR BEST FRIEND!

hahaha how cool is it. i love it!

the time is here again..

where we leave our beautiful wall ..

where we leave our beautiful staircase..
and disappear from the face of the earth, back to 'prison', nose to books 24/7.
exciting exciting. see you again in november, when TEE's over.
by then i will be jumping for joy.
yayness.