"pretend to wash your hand"

this week's been rather eventful and im getting rather worn out from the lack of sleep. haha.

lots of time though, i feel like im wasting my life away doing unproductive things...

i spend too much time in front of the stupid computer, i spend too much time sleeping (sometimes), i spend too much time watching tv shows... i dont know why but almost everything i do seems like time unproductively spent. its so annoying..

anyway... i was in the car with my sis while daddy n mummy were in the coffeeshop making some purchases when we witnessed a fight on the other side of the street. i wasnt wearing my glasses so i couldnt really tell what was going on but clearly it was drawing lots of attention. literally every eye in that area was looking towards the commotion but it annoyed me. it annoyed me that while watching people in trouble, everyone is so spontaneous. an uncle on a bike actually stopped, moved back a little and parked himself right next to our car, where he could get the perfect view of everything. what annoyed me even more is everyone's lack of common sense or maybe self something i dont know..knowing that they need to do something about the whole situation but choosing to just sit from a distance n watching with so much concentration tt its so amazing. i saw all the kpo faces poking their noses into the business of others and i was angry. but what annoyed me the most was myself. who was i to judge all these people who were doing the same things as i was? did i watch the fight? yes. did i take action n try to stop them? no. then y in the world was i annoyed with all of them? and y am i always so timid n annoying? y do i not step in to stand up for what i believe is right? why do i choose to keep quiet instead of speaking up for those being bitched about for the wrong reasons? why do i even let myself join in sometimes?

i also feel like such an irresponsible friend, not being able the be there for them while they were upset, having their dark moments.. only learning about things that happened to them through other friends...being unable to be of any help.. rarrh.

this living in 2 countries thing is making things so weird. it makes me feel detached from both places. it makes me confused. like while living in perth im still holding on to the past while i was in singapore. when i return to singapore, i continue with what i've held on to.. lagging behind, realising that everything's carried on. its sucha weird feeling.. its like travelling in a time machine. everything's different from what u expect. people change, places change, maybe i myself change too. i nv liked change... but i guess change is good sometimes... it only needs some getting used to.. i think i have problems expressing myself. i wanna be the kind of person who can put everything into words and just talk but i dont know what i do... i think i complain.. hmm.

i miss sec3 life..i miss sec1&2 life.. i miss pri sch life.. sigh.. this is what happens when one has nth to do... LALALALA GRRRRRRR RAAAArrrrrrhHHHHHH

i think i needa get a job.. can someone please recommend me a job for january? x

on a lighter note, went over to my fellow rich taitai neighbour audeedeechanmalichan's exploited apartment for a sleepover.. (thats where the lack of sleep came from) we had years worth of happenings to catch up on.. one day wasnt enough. haha. we talked and talked, explored the condo in the middle of the night and tried to view 'my' unit as well but the lights didnt turn on.. up on the 31st level were jaccuzzies n steam baths, floating pavillions n couches, the gym n the cinema room which resembles the inside of a plane. camwhored a lot.. pretending to be rich tai tai's with imaginary sparkling diamond rings, on the phone, and trying to..fly(?!???) anyway, returned to 'her' unit and talked till i dont know when n we went to sleep, woke up at 8.30 the next morning to go swimming! coolest pool ever.. jaccuzzing was good too.. taitais in the making. ahhah. we tried to look high class n all but hmm im not v sure... talked for ages and when we returned we realised it was 2.24pm (ard the time we wanted to go visit laoshi) watched ella enchanted in the movie room with our noodles n snacks n made our way to laoshi's where she cooked yummy dinner for us.. struggled to keep our eyes open, trying so hard to concentrate on what she was talking about. haha. nxt time we meet, GYM TIME! gotta work out to get rid of muffin tops n flabs!

"toilet is over there!"

we were trying to look professional...

im so sleepy now

nights to whoever.

its so nice to be home!

3 whole months free of homework and school.. MUAHAHA

singapore's such a beautiful place..

lalala

I CANT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!

the christmas tree is here.. each time the wind blows, i can smell

it.. so nice! =))

i just wish im not so tired so i can enjoy this holiday...

WHY AM I SO SLEEPY???/

when you're not feeling well, when your stomach's churning and you really need comforting... look out for this... slide down the rainbow.. and there it is.. the toilet bowl all ready for you... hahaha

time check 5.17am. i cant sleep!! >:( mebbe its the coffee grande ice cream at uncle joseph's or the cup of coffee at uncle fong's... or the maltesers and kitkats i had in the morning.. or its the feeling that i dont need to wake up early to study tomorrow. hehehe. I DONT KNOW. maybe i just miss the internet too much.

i miss the times when we were young and innocent (im still so innocent but innocent sounded nice with young so i put it there =p) i miss the times when all we had to worry about was if the hopscotch thing was 'chopped' by other people.. or your spelling and dictation and mental sums and ting xie were under 10/10... i used to do so well in school... in primary school. especially p1,2 and 3. i cant believe its been 10 years.... 10 WHOLE YEARS! i did my work and studying ever so diligently to please my parents. they always said i don't have to buy them birthday presents. i just have to do well in school and that would be the best present. "...but my exam is not on your birthday!" hmm.. i was rather stupid at the same time aye...
i dont know since when.. but it was quite clear when i entered secondary school i wasn't as motivated... i cried the first time i did badly for a test or exam and was quite amused my parents didnt look angry at all. my results continued plummetting nonetheless. hmmm. interesting.

i miss being in sec 1.. being in a new school.. getting lost even though it wasn't big at all.. thank God jolene was in my class.. she was like my compass! i miss the class enthusiasm, the childish streak still in us, before the stress came n drowned us.

my goodness the sun is actually rising. its 5.38am

I WANNA BE YOUNG AGAIN!

i miss blowing out people's birthday candles for them. i think i have a talent for blowing them out in a breath. maybe its the choir exercises...

ahh.. those were the days...

...when i carried the popular plastic bag around, reading chinese books with hanyu pinyin. maybe that's y i was smart when i was small.. i read so much. lalala

y isnt there anyone online...

SIGH.

i dont know what's this feeling... maybe its the "i think its bedtime" mood setting in.. good morning/night i let u choose...

oleh oleh, its a wonderful day!
exams no more and it's time for singapore!
eating chilling and shopping and more
jump for joy n drop dead on the floor!
happy happy joyful joyful
i think this rhyming thing is quite fun and quite cool

vicki did my nails today:bright pink and bright blue
how excited i am for summer hols, u wouldn have a single clue
the long awaited plane trip to the place i call home
in the pool i'll take a dip and the whole of compass point i'll comb
my dear friends and family i've missed so much, i just can't wait to return!
so many stories to tell, so much calories to be burnt
talking, haircuts, shopping, egg tarts,
jogging, dancing, singing, queuing
swimming, beaching, tanning, screaming
hugging, kissing, kicking, punching
so much laughter so much fun.
but right now i've got to run.
i've got no more brainpower to try to rhyme
so yeah. byebye poem!

i heard a song this guy made up on the radio..
its so funny... its this song that he sings for his children on halloween when we dresses up as...

THE PUMPKIN MAN!
I'm.. the pumpkin man, the pumpkin man!
I bring all the candy that I can.
I'm not scary, I'm not mean,
I only come on halloween,
I'm the pumpkin maaaaann!
I WANNA BE YOUR BEST FRIEND!

hahaha how cool is it. i love it!

the time is here again..

where we leave our beautiful wall ..

where we leave our beautiful staircase..
and disappear from the face of the earth, back to 'prison', nose to books 24/7.
exciting exciting. see you again in november, when TEE's over.
by then i will be jumping for joy.
yayness.

LITTLE KIDS ARE SO CUTE THEY MAKE MY HEART MELT!!!
thank God for kings club! cant wait for tomorrow! WHEE!

saturday out in the city.. this is the chinese new year tree! haha
some cool expensive touch and see but too expensive to buy stuff shop.
us and o0ur pork friends
lovelove sunnies from the touch and see but too expensive to pay money shop
a random pizza photo from the isc yr 12 farewell.. YUMM

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10. Not only he did it from 1 to 10, he did it backward from 10 back to 1.This is what he came up with..... 1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away. 10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. I called my boss and told him I was 6. He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1.

it's a beautiful day today. =) God has blessed me many many. too many that i can't use the word 'many' but 'much'.

thank God that although the train was down n i kinda got lost again, i managed to reach school on time. thank God for pizzas and cakes. thank God for Ms Groom who came to tell me she was impressed with the written part of my media exam. this meant so much to me and made me so happy the rest of the day because IM SO BAD AT MEDIA.. ESPECIALLY THE WRITTEN BIT. thank God for Lauren and Chantelle who sat beside me as they brought chips and twisties hehe. thank God that the bus driver let me take a free ride to the city from school (which saved me the trouble of taking a bus to Stirling train stn and taking a train to the city) which also meant the ride home was free! thank God that the bus driver was so friendly. thank God for the lady who sat beside me on the CAT. SHE SAID MY BAG WAS VERY NICE. hahah. thank God that geri's mum is here to fatten us up although i dont really need fattening up but once in a while... GOOD FOOD can't be avoided. heheh. THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING! =) n thank God for Geri who's cooking a 3 course meal tonight. hahahaha

WITH ALL I AM

Into Your hand, I commit again

With all I am, For You Lord

You hold my world in the palm of Your hand

And I am Yours forever

Jesus I believe in You

Jesus I belong to You

You’re the reason that I live

The reason that I sing

With all I am

I’ll walk with You wherever You go

Through tears and joy I’ll trust in You

And I will live in all of Your ways

And Your promises forever

I will worship You

I will worship You

Forever

my bible study group of 2007, which i havent really got the chance to interact with much.. see how fuddy duddy they are.. i was like "LETS POSE!" they replied "POSE WHAT? I DONNO HOW TO POSE!" hahahaha siao tingtongs... that's more like it! hahaha the ASIAN PRIDE POSE! heehee see how much we're enjoying ourselves... hahah ok u cant really tell from the photo but we did enjoy the bs very much =D
top (left to right): jae ann, edmen, esther,
bottom (left to right): geri, jeannie
mmm... pork.. hahaha. this was enough to satisfy my craving for mooncake! i ate the butt and hung the head on geri's door because she owed me money. hahah no la as if. i ate everything up! SO YUMMY!
another lollipop flower...

ALAS, my long awaited bible study in a million donkey years last night and also the last of the year!

im so sad that its over but very glad we could attend!

and guess what? it was at our house! hahaha even better =D

we had the honour of cooking dinner for our dearest bs group. chicken rice and bbq chicken! and esther cooked yummy vegies and beancurd skin sweet soup. YUMMY.

so during bs we studied James5 and sorta summed up the whole of James. it made me think a lot and i just loved the feeling of having bs again! the sharing, discussing, bonding, praying... miss them so much! now im happy. heehee.

today we made our way to the city.. it was fun. that was where we found that piece of 'pork'

ok i need to go shower now. we spring cleaned the house. its sparkling clean but i m dirty. hehe

ai4 xin1 chao3 fan4!

... and i think to myself...WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD!

lalala. spring's here again!

less rain, less cold,

more sunshine, more warmth.

flowers blooming, leaves growing.

the botak trees start growing some hair.

soon enough, purple trees will line the streets.

pretty flowers jump out to greet you.

cotton candy n lollipops. that's what they remind me of. the pink n white ones.

the white n yellow ones are sunny-side-ups. eggs.

its such a happy season. SPRING!

even that word has beautiful connotations..

springrolls... yumm... or spring.. boing boing.

the beauty of God's creations. =) it's so hard to understand how people dont believe that God exists. can't you hear them all singing praises to Him? the rainbows, the stars, the flowers, the trees, the clouds, the sun... how does it make sense that they are the products of a big bang?

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW??!!?? i really dont know. its a very interesting theory but ridiculous at the same time.

what made God take so much care to make creation glow

He could have made it black and white and we'd have never known

and what made God send Jesus to die on calvary?

...

That's the love of God.

the neighbours! haha i miss watching flintstones!!!!
not me.my cousin.

THE ALIENS HAVE LANDED!!!

Another weekend spent in the B/H! 2 more of these and it’s the long awaited long weekend!!! Things are not so bad once you get used to it I guess. They just seem ever so normal. Like how people go “xi2 guan4 jiu4 hao3”… it does make sense. This term we’ve had room changes down our wing. This girl in our wing plays her music really loudly. She lives next to geri, who is one room away from me and I can still hear her music! Im fine with it. Hehe cus I get to hear lots of songs I used to listen to.. songs I haven’t heard for years. It brings back so much memories. Does anyone feel like that? When u suddenly hear this song u used to always listen to, u get reminded of that period of time, the things happening around you… im brought back to the first few years of my secondary school life.. a new home, a new room, new school, new friends, MOELC (third language), long bus rides home, my cedar uniform, new to SF, the period when Avril Lavigne was still quite cool. When I always played her song “Im with you” on repeat. The SARS period, Stacie orrico’s “there’s gotta be more to life”, Hilary Duff’s “Yesterday”, Busted and simple plan, Backstreet Boy’s “guilty”? or is it BLUE. Hahaha. My mood then also comes back together with the song. Fascinated, happy, young, nerdy, shopping, heeren, taking the train everywhere.. sometimes the bus, lots of msn, chatting on the phone, the SF musical “Heaven in my Heart”, my obsession with black shirts (seriously I didn realize how many black tees I had!) neon orange, lime greens, hot pinks… so many memories… it’s such a nice but funny feeling. How young I was then… stupid enough to eat fast food regularly… after having to read Fast Food Nation for English, the discussions in class, I think my mindset’s starting to turn. I smell oil instead of the food sometimes. Back to that period, lots of neoprints, went out with audeedee and her bball friends a lot, yurica and rach teo and jess khong and lelin too, jaslyn teresa xianglin Fiona xiuqi beishan, the third lang clique Jolene me caroline audeedee xiuqi qinyi nadia jinhuey wenyi xingyi cherlia which started to disappear as each year passed… the first class chalet and the most fascinating one as well, where someone actually kicked the lamp head by accident and caused a blackout, where we had coloured hairspray, swimming, bowling, class bonding! How I miss those days.. pushing that trolley thingy, sitting on it to substitute Escape’s roller coasters. First taste of freedom. Haha. Maybe that was what fascinated me.




Dumdeedumdum… MOCKS ARE FINALLY OVER OVER OVER! I jump for joy.. haha. But that means TEE’s round the corner *hyperventilates* I’m rotting in my hole here waiting for Geri do her physics exam because my last paper was ytd! Hehehe. Anyway… next year’s gonna be interesting. No more b/h! more asian food! Muahahha. I’ve decided that packing is my least favourite thing. Activity. Whatever catergory its meant to be under.. I don’t like it. Space constraints time constraints.. grr. N I have so much stuff its unbelievable. Bleah. I love holidays. Haha they smell so good. xD. Its been so long since I last used the internet properly. Haha. But its not that bad actually. Aha. Lalalala. That’s it for now. Till then! Toodles!