dear jodie,

you are so funny sometimes... like how you made a 'holy bible bookmark' and actually wrote the exact words on the bookmark itself to use in the bible.. not smiling properly at the camera (well most of the time u were grumpy but anyways hahah). the way u copied that fedex ad and jumped up n down on the spot like u needed to pee real badly...

how everytime i turn around to see ur face like this...
and this...
n how u keep trying to trick me into believing that u've returned that $5 that u still owe me...

...I'M STILL WAITING OK!!! =)

i cant believe time passed so quickly...

in less than a week i'll be off to perth and a couple of days ltr, school starts..

zzzz

im dreading it,frankly..

i hate new environments. feeling new n lost n helpless n lonely n scared n blur n i duno wad..

making new friends.. maybe im just becoming a big fat lazy bum n cant be bothered with doing these things all over again...

thinking about all these makes me want to sleep. so that i dont have to bother about it..

here i am, feeling so sorry for myself for having to leave my loved ones to go to school, which is actually a privilege that i took for granted.. i just realised that my dad has actually been flying back n forth to attend to the smashed car, my school enrolments and making sure that im alright in perth and everything.. but when has he ever complained or whined or felt sorry for himself? i am so selfish its so disgusting. this time im still the only one complaining..or is it a guy n girl thing? grr. stupid complain queen..............

on a happier note, GONG XI FA CAI everyone!

my first cny after 2 long years! woohoo! its so interesting to go bai nian.

1. it amazes me how long it takes for me to remember who is/how to address this n that person

2. its so cool to realise.. oh i have a cool superduper hospitable n sociable cousin! or.. wow suddenly everyone's big already! n ooh my grandma's sister was so havoc when she was young! n that i am somewhat related to indonesian/peranakan stuff... (cus ppl think im indo.. they say i look indo they say i sound indo.. well it probably came from there.. i should change my name to suriwati hahaha) they cook nice peranakan food, bake nice kueh lapis n cookies n fruitcakes n many more. KULAT! oh my. those are yummy mushrooms. i love mushrooms....

3. ang pao lo! new clothes lo! hahahaa

work tmr. =( its my second last day =( =(

look at me! upset because i have work, upset because i'll be finishing work. jeannieloi u irritating! stop being so irritating!

oh n anth thing! must watch cj7 and ah long! they're so funny!!! esp mark lee being guniang... it makes me cry man

yawnsss nighty nighty!

lots of interesting things i can talk about..
for example, starting from a few weeks back, jiahui's bday dinner, conz n qinyi's sec2 girls bs outing, the ballet gathering, my visit to the facial, my visits to the gym, my work and some annoying but cute kids, chinese new year coming, 1724's steamboat reunion lunch, visiting the 'heart of God' church with my sister...
but i havent found back the mood to blog about these daily happenings..
=( has it got smth to do with maturity? that i should start posting meaningful stuff that might benefit ppl who chance upon or purposely visit this blog? meh..

i've been struggling lately.. maybe it has been quite a while but i kept giving myself excuses.. it seems so hard these days to be constantly reminded of my identity as a Christian. It seems so hard to find the discipline to do regular quiet times. It seems so hard to remain patient with people that get on my nerves. My life feels so monotonous sometimes.. this working and going to the gym life is so unsociable.. sometimes i feel so lonely buying lunches which i can walk and eat at the same time.. i have always been afraid of having meals myself. those in which u sit alone at the table and eat a sit down meal. i guess im too dependent.. bleah. oh wells. thats y its always good to have reunions! =D my ballet girls outing tonight was coolio potato! altho im feeling a little guilty... a bit of an eat-too-much syndrome i suppose. esp the unneccessary quartertub icecream each at the end of the day. I HAVE SINNED! oh wells.. hopefully every bit of it turns into da bian and then make more space for new year goodies hehe. like wth.. im already eating like its new yr! all the gym frenzy for nothing! anth dinner tmr... hehe. i might consider swallowing a balloon...



AIYAH GOODNIGHT

I HAVE BEEN A BUSY GIRL LATELY!

i been out in the gym just working on my fitness, i blow kisses (woooweee!) blablabla..

like suddenly i see myself in toa payoh and novena area everyday..

zzzzz when im at the childcare, i just cant wait for 6 to come..

sometimes i hate teaching there no matter how cute the kids are..

i dont wanna teach them i wanna play with them! and they have no mood to study which makes everything worse. hahaha but then if u tell them 'lets play a spelling GAME! or the QUIET GAME!" ah.. then they start to listen. haha how gullible.

so yes. one minute im so free and rotting at home and the next im struggling to find time to sleep.

blabla i dont feel like blogging actually goodbye

> Never regret a day in your life > > > One day I decided to quit... > I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...> I wanted to quit my life.> I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.> "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"> > His answer surprised me...> > "Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" > > "Yes", I replied.> "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds,> I took very good care of them.> I gave them light. I gave them water. > The fern quickly grew from the earth.> Its brilliant green covered the floor.> Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.> But I did not quit on the bamboo.> > In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. > > And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. > But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.> "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.> But I would not quit.> In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. > "I would not quit." He said. > "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.> > Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...> But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. > > > It had spent the five years growing roots.> Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.> > I would not give any of My creations a challenge they could not handle."> He said to me. "Did you know, My child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots"> > "I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."> "Don't compare yourself to others." He said.> > "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.> Yet, they both make the forest beautiful." > > "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high!"> "How high should I rise?" I asked.> > "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. > "As high as it can?" I questioned.> > "Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."> I left the forest and bring back this story. > > I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.> He will never give up on you.> > God says in Psalms 84: 11 that the Lord Jesus is your "sun (to give you warmth and joy) and shield (to protect you) and He will not withhold good things from those who walk uprighteously." No problem is too big for God to carry on His shoulder. Come to Him in prayer. > > Never regret a day in you life.> Good days give you happiness;> Bad days give you experiences;> Both are essential to life.> > > Keep going.... > > > > God's way of saying "Have a nice day"???

am i living the life God wants me to?

bs@1724 yesterday talked about God's test for Abraham.
God told Abraham to use his only son, Isaac, whom he loved dearly (and he only had Isaac when he was finally 100 years old mind you!!), as the sacrifice for the offering.

WILL YOU DO THAT IF GOD ASKED YOU TO?

Although Abraham loved his son soooooo much (plus he only had Isaac when he was 100 years old), and although it would have been so much pain to sacrifice his son, Abraham trusted in God. He trusted that God will keep His promise of many descendants even when what he was offering was his ONE AND ONLY son whom he only had when he was 100 years old.. and so before he really killed Isaac, God's messenger came to stop him and God had already provided a lamb for Abraham which he then used as a sacrifice. Abraham has passed the test!

more often than not, i let my own selfish desires get the better of me. i forget about obeying God and forget about living my life as a worship for God. Abraham showed true obedience and trust in God, willing to even sacrifice his own son, but i struggle with even the smallest matters like tithing one tenth consistently.Obviously, I have a long way to go...

OBEDIENCE! TRUST! GOD IS IN CONTROL!

RRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
*bangs head on the wall*
*pulls hair*
*screams*
*tears paper*
*bangs on door*
*smashes the vase*
*screams into the pillow*
sleeps

monday 14 jan 07 marked the commencement of my productive lifestyle =D
katong laksa for lunch with gerri, edmen, youyan n deborah n then a bus ride to kallang to bowl!
glenna came and then joash came.. i decided i dont like bowling cuz we dont click. i walk i aim i think i release the ball and it keeps falling into that stupid drain grrr... and my score ends up almost half of the second last person. HAIZZZZ its such a depressing game.. i like playing it with my sister tho. hehehehehe....
after 3 depressing games, gerri n i made our way to toa payoh to deliver food! yay!
we knew our way around so much better this time muahaha. and check this out - happiest moment of the day (other than the time i got spares during bowling) was when bus 57 finally arrived to bring us to the other blocks! WOOHOO! i was really literally jumping for joy boingboing!
and that was enough to tire me out..zz

today was my first day at work at the student care and gosh.. the kids are so noisy. their only form of communication is... shouting.. ahhaha but its so cute xD ah. ok im tired goodbye =)

quote from daddy (requesting for a cotton bud):
"where's the ear... the pick, the pick? the nose pick? where's the nose pick?"

o.O

!!?!?!?!?

HAHAHA

spending time productively makes me feel good =))

catching up with friends,

doing volunteer work,

spending time with my family

=D

advertising for touch community service! come and help to deliver food to elderly citizens who are frail and too immobile to get their meals by themselves! when we went around delivering food, i was wondering what would the other ppl in similar situations do if they never heard of such services? starve? most of the old folks live by themselves in small units.. some with poor eyesight and some too weak to move.. what happened to their family members? how many of such situations exist? i feel so sad that i've been so ignorant, too caught up in my own world to notice those around me. those that need while here i am splurging away on unnecessary stuff, wasting away precious seconds of my life doing nothing. THEREFORE, im dedicating this holiday to touch community service and helping out at mr tham's student care =D YAY! although that means i'll have to wake up earlier and have less time to play, its so comforting to know that all these time contribute to helping others and adding value to their lives so i'm absolutely content x)

and i met up with........ nicole thamthamthamtham!

my pri sch best friend =DD

its so cool that aft so long we are still able to talk and talk and talk x)

and that was what we did.. sat at the coffeeshop and talked for hours......

and i saw athena on my way back which reminds me i've got to visit the ballet class soon... hehehe...

and today we had choir a2 gathering! =D they are so funny they make me laugh so much I LOVE A2!! WOOHOO! its so cool that we still keep in touch even though we've left cedar for a year/years/many years. reminiscing about all the funny or scary or annoying things that happened last time.. haha i miss the good ol' cedar days!! oh it was the first time i stepped into kbox in my whole entire life! its ez to get lost there hurhur.

hello valerie yeo buddybuddy =) i love you, you are so cute. i asked you to go to marina square and u asked me if it was alright to alight at marina bay station. when i told you to alight at city hall you said that u need to walk v far frm city hall and asked if marina bay would be nearer. hahahaha. blursotong!=p

my favourite section=A2! WOOHOO!!!!sze mun, whee geok, val, simin, jeannie, xianhui, zinuan, huiyi

oh my huiyi i dont know why i suddenly rmbred the nickname we made up for you....

cheek-er-laka-siti-maria-piyo-muthu-pong! hahhahaha

thank you God for lovely people and lovely activities =)

(left to right)top:marcus,weiyang,wen zheng,valerie,shihua,irene,cheeyann

bottom:germaine,sonia,geraldine,jeannie,jaslyn,chuanyun,jaime and so yesterday marked the end of vj orientation. not like i've been there everyday.. just the first and the last.. but i still love my group CYRUS CEDRIC! and i especially love our super dee duper OGL JASLYN xD after listening to jc orientation stories from my friends, now i have one of my own to tell =D HEEHEEHEE.
meet jaslyn, our OGL, also my sec 1 n 2 classmate who's so childish but doesnt want to admit it hahah but she's the cutest friend ever and she's a great dancer =) (check out jaime and marcus's hungry faces! their so concentrated on their food hahaha)
that's our lunch at thaipan! omg THAIPAN IS SERIOUSLY THE BEST! go eat there! in mandarin gardens(a condo near vj/marine parade?). yummy and the prices are reasonable.. great for big groups! we had... honey chicken, sambal kangkong, cereal prawns PEELED, thaipan special tofu with chicken floss, butter squid and butter squid =D that yellow thing's the butter squid..*drools* oh n rice =))every bit savoured. YUMYUM I GIVE ALL MY THUMBS!
n how cool is this! VJ'S TREEHOUSES!!! i want to bring it home!!

say hi to germaine, sonia and gerri. i havn got to know germaine that well but she's nice=D sonia's so cute and she has a cool phone which is so slim and a cute purse and she knows megan!

gerri is gerri la. so tall so smart so pretty so slim so artistic so fashionable.. anything u want to be she is la esp the fact that she's my cousin.. ya.. so many ppl want to be my cousin.. hahhahha ok shuddup.

meet valerie,wen zheng and weiyang. valerie is v young n intelligent, i havent talked much to wen zheng but he's nice too =D weiyang seems quiet but comes up with lotsa funny things which are so unpredictable HAHAHA.that's cheeyann, irene and shihua. cheeyann is someone who thinks alot and knows so many things that i feel so dumb n ignorant hahah he did music so cool=D irene has a coolio potato blog and takes pro photos. she is also so knowledgable esp geography stuff and just genereal knowledge.. haha and i feel dumb again..... shi hua is one of the juniors i talk the most to. she did ballet! xD and she is very cute! esp when she's making a point that msn destroys interpersonal communication skills.. hahahahsay hi to chuan yun,jaime and marcus! chuanyun has nice hair x), jaime looks sweet and smiley =D marcus is plain gong. haha who squirts lime on a stranger's face instead of the hokkien mee? there.. this one.. hahaha and he wants to bring cloth to rollerblading so he wont destroy his beautiful skin (havent u heard of kneepads and whatever guards before!! hahahah cloth for what!!!)

and heres jeannie and jaslyn. jeannie's simply awesome. jaslyn makes me laugh.. she nods her head unknowingly. and she fell backwards when she tried to push marcus into the sea..while marcus just stood still and wondered what had just happened. oh my jaslyn ur so cute la hahaha

and that's us in sec2! hahaha i miss sec2 and 2S! how fast time flies and now we're 18! tsk horrible horrible!

today, i went to ps to meet OCF-ers for lunch. we were meant to go to sentosa but the weather forbade x( but anyways! we went to paradiz centre i think and played in the arcade! hahaha my favourite is still bishi bashi! its the best la. not like parapara that stupid thing. how to play one la. 3 ppl in one machine (kristi geri n me) n we still died early =( i think we looked like sotongs waving our tentacles everywhere hehe. n that stupid kiap toy machine! it doesnt kiap properly! wasted my $1 !!#*&#*!% hahaha. n off we went to selegie for nice hot tauhuay which was so so so filling................................. bloated.

esther drove youyan debs geri n me to parkway after that, where geri n i watched them eat their ban mians. deborah and youyan dont eat ikan bilis la! crazy right! so yummy! so i ate it for them =) so sweet.. ahhahah YUMYUMYUM. then we wandered around....

met cyrus cedris for dinner although its just a few of us.. but i think their so sweet! like all of them are in a rush but they still came =) shihua germaine steven cheeyann marcus gerri jaslyn me! n they all disappeared together la hahaha n it was left with jas marcus n i. n so we talked for a bit n jas n i hopped onto 76 home

its pouring outside. its so nice and cool and windy.. i want to play in the rain! but my bum's to heavy to move off this seat. plus i've showered. plus i dont know what's there to play.. wetheads hahaha

GOODNIGHT! jaslyn, dont sad! love youu mwahmwah